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m so glad i was able to do it as long as i did the income has been a huge blessing but working every saturday all the time is too hard for too long i worked cleaning an airbnb house it s my friends house they were on a temporary duty assignment in dc but they re back so that job ended they have a nice big 4 bedroom 4 bathroom house it was hard i don t think i could have kept it up too much longer anyway but it was a unique and enjoyable experience i started working for revv an online transcription company i transcribe audio files it s interesting it s not super hard as long as the audio is clear it is kind of time consuming those four jobs kept me so busy and working so hard i like to work hard but it took a toll on me if i can avoid it i think i will try really hard to never juggle 4 jobs again i m almost down to 2 jobs and i think that will be perfect for me i am always applying for full time work at my kid s school so i can be where they are have pretty dang close to the same hours as them and have the same days and summers off ideal right someday random info we are only having 3 kids for quite a few reasons maybe someday i ll write about that but really only 3 unless god seriously intervenes marley will be 10 next month she is changing so much i love the stages my kids are in while they are in them then they get bigger and move to the next stage and i m in love again i am enjoying isi and lorenzo more with less jobs they are still little but not for long isi is in half day kindergarten and will be 6 next month lorenzo will be 4 in may he only has a year left before he starts kinder and he will probably go to full day one more significant milestone from 2017 goldie hit 100 000 miles now she s closer to 112 000 crazy right thanks for keeping my blog on your radar i hope someone is more to come more regularly posted by becky at 7 02 pm no comments monday may 9 2016 i love me a clean car i posted some helpful information on facebook and two of my dear friends said i should make it into a blog post so here is it plus more after extensive research i have found what i think may be the suckiest vacuum in brighton which means it s goooood am i right it s at the quick stop on the corner of bridge and n 18th avenue pluses it sucks good really good it s a dollar for 4 minutes and if you add one more quarter it gives you two more minutes it shows you the time and counts down for you and beeps when you have a minute left so you know it s time to add that extra quarter it s the best the o nly minus no garbage can right by the vacuum but there is a garbage can at the pumps and when pull over to the pumps to throw your garbage out you can use their squeegee to wash all your windows so maybe there are no minus you re welcome if anyone knows of a suckier vacuum in brighton let me know i ve tried the ones behind the car wash on west bridge toward todd creek i ve also tried 2 at the car wash on main street boooo those were the worst i just have to add that i love me a clean car a clean car makes me feel glamorous sophisticated organized fancy rich and much more there is pretty much nothing else in my life that makes me feel even close to all of those things all at the same time even when my car is not glamorous or sophisticated or fancy or rich looking a clean car makes me feel like it is a clean car has given me confidence as i drove to at least two job interviews those are just the ones i remember a clean car has given me confidence on dates yeah i m that kind of girl i prefer to drive a clean car has made it so i can add anyone to my car quickly as long as i have a seat belt for you you can jump on in my favorite car scent is coconut that s pretty much my favorite scent of all time it s especially yummy in a clean car i m pretty sensitive to smells some give me a major headache so i m pretty particular my first car was a gently used dodge neon it s factory color was iris pearl which was a light shinny sparkly purple sometimes it might have looked a little gray but i loved the name of the paint so i named my car iris pearl perfection right i loved cleaning that car i used to shine the dashboard so much when the sun shone on it you were sure to be blinded if you didn t have sunglasses on my next favorite car was our black honda accord we named that car the black pearl perfection again right i love to clean our cute gold van and her his name is still under debate after owning her for 2 years wow it feels like we ve had her much longer but we got her right before we got lorenzo anyway i wanted to call her gold nellie cute right nathan said that sounds like she s an old lady what s wrong with that a cute little gold lady taking care of our little family and gettin us everywhere safely he also said she is a boy and he wanted to call her epoufette that is the name of a town in michigan it s fun to say i ll give him that at first we thought it was a native name so we made up a native meaning it s a fishing village so we decided epoufette s native meaning was gold fish kinda lame right then we did some research and found out it s actually a french word duh we also found out it means a quiet place to rest that s a fine for a town but a car you don t want to be falling asleep at the wheel also he was afraid gold nellie was old fashioned it sounds like our van is rest home i love gold nellie or whomever but please don t judge her too harshly in her cleanliness we do have three children i think another reason i have always loved to clean the car is it s a small space it s pretty easy to clean and organize such a small space even if you have a giant van which we did growing up you can do it in a morning or afternoon or evening and it s so fulfilling and satisfying and makes you feel so good i love it if you want me to clean your car just give me a call i ll give you an estimate posted by becky at 2 04 pm 6 comments tuesday april 19 2016 my husband is deaf i know all husbands have selective hearing i think mine does too but my husband really is deaf nathan has enough residual hearing that he could wear two hearing aids with two aids or maybe it s just having one in the left ear there is too much distortion for him more sound coming in that distracts than helps so he chooses to wear an aid in his best ear his right ear with no hearing aid he cannot hear well that s not entirely true when he first takes his aid out it s moist in his ear ew right since sound waves can move the moisture in his ear if i yell in his ear when it s moist he can hear me otherwise if i yell in his ear he cannot hear me so with no hearing aid he cannot hear nathan has unusual hearing loss as well most people have a hard time hearing high frequencies he does not he has more low frequency hearing loss when children around him are screaming it is really bad for him gives him a headache real fast same with anyone right screaming kids headache remember the majority of his hearing is low frequency the hearing aid is still amplifying high frequencies so imagine with your normal hearing hearing a child s scream amplified right in your ear ouch speaking of hearing aids little hearing aids in the ear aids that can hide in your ear canal like miracle ear or belltones they wouldn t work for nathan his hearing loss is too severe so nathan has to wear a behind the ear aid it s big it s bulky it works he s grateful back to hearing though his hearing aid helps him hear it doesn t help him hear like we hear i think that s why they are called hearing aids and not a miracle ear wait you know what i mean we can localize sound nathan cannot if someone is talking at our side we can tell and turn to look at them if someone is talking at nathan s side he can hear something he can sometimes tell it is someone talking but he has no idea where it is coming from and cannot tell what they are saying or even if they are talking to him this makes group settings and conversations with multiple people pretty difficult for nathan think about it one person is talking to his left he is following mostly by reading their lips more on that later someone to his right responds or adds to the conversation by the time he locates the person who is now talking they are done talking he doesn t know what they said so he could be lost at this point but his gaze happens to catch the next person talking directly in front of him he can gather what person 2 said by what 1 and 3 said but not always he could continue following or try to follow or he could already be lost it s hard once multiple persons have spoken and spoken multiple times he s lost not to mention when the topic changes that can really throw you for a loop even talking to one person face to face in a group setting is hard with lots of background noise even though nathan doesn t hear like we do he has other super powers he reads lips sometimes from across the room watch out what you re saying from across the room when nathan s around sometimes he s self conscience about staring at peoples mouths i just keep telling him it s a sign of listening and being attentive even for hearing people i sometimes get self conscience about where i m looking when speaking to people all of the sudden i m like where should i be looking at their right eye their left between their eyes their mouth so his insecurity is natural and fine but keep looking at their mouth nathan keep looking he uses social cues way better than we do body language gestures facial expressions these help him big time when trying to follow group conversations at home there are times he is hearing something and he will start looking around puzzled i will then say the garbage man is here or the neighbors upstairs are pounding on the floor again or there are sirens outside or marley just turned the tv on or lorenzo is crying or etc etc etc i am a great help i can usually tell when he is about to start looking around puzzled i also help him is social situations the best i can i could do better more on that later nathan of course takes his hearing aid out at night he can hear nothing while we sleep he claims i snore whatever when i am the only one that can hear at night in the dark it freaks me out a little i am a pretty sensitive sleeper so little noises wake me up to help me sleep and not be distracted by noise i have a noise maker i play every night to mask unwanted sound like the neighbors upstairs my children crying and of course intruders that also kinda freaks me out at night we re both deaf it s better than me losing sleep there are times when i am reminded of what he is likely to hear and even more likely not to hear not just in church but here is a good example last sunday church had just started someone was speaking at the pulpit and people were still settling around us there was noise at the same time lorenzo really wanted to scribble all over isi s primary talk nathan was holding lorenzo and quickly passed the talk to me and i hid it from sight lorenzo lost it and started crying and grunting and then even screeched nathan sat there looking toward the front and probably trying to gather information by reading the person s lips at the pulpit but still holding onto lorenzo i leaned over poked nathan and with my angry face remember he picks up on facial expressions as an essential part of communication and i mouthed he needs to be taken out nathan whispered sorry i couldn t hear him he could feel lorenzo s belly tighten but he thought it was just part of his struggle to get away and hunt for the special most precious piece of paper i felt bad that i had used my angry face i offered to take lorenzo out but nathan put on his angry face and marched out with lorenzo in arms speaking of church we have to sit close to the front so he can read lips if he is beyond row 5 he gets nothing from the people speaking we always try to get to our meetings super early just for this reason ok i also hate to be late for anything i got it from my grandpa alger if you re 5 minutes early you re late he was a navy man anyway back to church nathan gets very little from sunday school and priesthood because of all the comments from those not at the front of the room or those who he can only see the back of their heads it s nothing that can be fixed unless he had a transliterator it s not really a word but it comes from the word transliteration have you heard of cued speech cued speech ˌkyo͞od ˈspēch noun a type of sign language that uses hand movements combined with mouth shapes to communicate to the hearing impaired google it or youtube it when i think about cued speech and using it with nathan my heart beats faster it makes me excited transliterator isn t really a word but transliteration is the conversion of one script to another a language translator is a person who translates from one language to another especially as a professional but cued speech is not a different language it is a different way to convey or communicate english or any language actually without using your voice so a person listening and then conveying english by using cued speech would be a transliterator that s how i understand it anyway i m no expert not even close i have learned cued speech so has nathan they say you can be fluent in about 10 14 days two weeks if you don t use it just like anything you lose it i need to practice it so does nathan then i could transliterate so many things for him anyway did you learn more about nathan did you learn how to better communicate with him make sure he can see you and especially your mouth and i don t think i mentioned i love that guy the end posted by becky at 3 41 pm 12 comments sunday february 28 2016 being overwhelmed finding joy i overwhelm myself i create anxiety in my heart i know i do it sometimes i can t stop it sometimes i make it worse by putting things off or wasting time or making excuses and it is almost always internal sometimes it s so subconscious that i don t know it s happening until i get hit with a migraine sometimes i feel guilty about it because i know things truths so i shouldn t be overwhelmed or anxious at least that s what i think sometimes which only makes it worse guilt can be good guilt can be bad today in relief society our lesson was on the joy of living a christ centered life by elder richard j maynes it s a great talk it was a great lesson it made me think that even when i am trying to live a christ centered life sometimes it s hard to feel the joy there are so many distractions the worst one is satan himself his icky whispers he says you re not good enough you messed up why try you ve done enough now relax why you so many others could do a way better job it won t matter it doesn t matter and so on he s a jerk the biggest jerk there ever was and ever will be he s real he s a real jerk i know this but i have to constantly remind myself if we are doing our best to live the gospel of jesus christ we can have joy sometime we just need to pause look listen search 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