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y old notes i ve only seen those times when i was very optimistic and resilient but as time goes by i gradually lose the spark that i built last year in those scenes where i no longer shared my tale i felt my heart melt and grow melancholy i carried so many tears that were not meant to leave me but in my silence i found my greatest therapy i found comfort in solace solitude with my notepad is my greatest comfort through writing i found myself enjoying life to those people who never stop reading my blog your uplifting words carry massive healing for my well being thank you for all the love and support you are my greatest companions i am blessed and deeply pleased with how you read and love my entire blog with such love and care j xoxo june 23 2026 where silence learns to heal silence i hear every step every clock every bark in every corner i hear sound it s too loud hard to bear loneliness i m alone without someone to lean on without someone to cry on without someone to pat my back engulfed within myself no one saves me from this loneliness comfort every carve every write every line every sentence every word i find comfort and harmony within my soul peace the words i place into every sentence bring illumination a quiet brightness to my melancholy heart they release the tension in my spirit angst betrayal and hopelessness through writing i begin to heal i feel free i feel peace __ thank you for all the love and support this truly means a lot to me ️ j april 15 2026 the comparison trap and the art of mending it looks pretty savage the way people flex their achievements travels food or lifestyles sometimes you find yourself wondering when you ll ever be able to flex those kinds of moments as a human being i get jealous too especially when they re living the life i yearn for during a quarter life crisis it s hard to mend yourself immediately it takes time to find the place where everything truly brings you happiness where you enjoy life and want to experience it again and again a place where nothing feels like a burden or a heavy weight but instead leaves a positive impact on your soul sometimes i question the universe and wonder how life seems so unevenly distributed among us some people are simply trying to make it through each day some live life to the fullest and some seem to be doing nothing at all i know it s hard to manifest something that hasn t happened in real life yet there will be moments when you feel like you re losing a moment when you find yourself in the same painful situations again but the difference between then and now is that you can tolerate the pain without hurting yourself further entering a new beginning is often far from what you expected there is a phase of contemplation and anxiety about the next move your mind fills with what if scenarios you imagine yourself in a beautiful destination only to wake up and realize that it isn t your reality yet what hurts most about that imagination is seeing it happen for others but to protect your soul you try to fix the situation mending it piece by piece as you recover from the damage it s hard to admit but sometimes i feel lost i am here now slowly recovering from this uneasy place for a moment i tried to escape reality but the universe woke me up and reminded me to stay focused to stay with what i ve started and bring back the light and the scorching fire burning in my soul as i always tell myself one step at a time don t pressure yourself everything will fall into place you will get there cherish every moment and never give up in achieving triumph remember that you will experience failure mistakes and downfalls but action must speak louder than self doubt discipline is a must i am always proud of you and i cheer for you every single day i love you deeply __ thank you for all the love and support this truly means a lot to me ️ j march 25 2026 from shadows to self love my journey through decades of healing in honor of women s month i want to share my experience as a woman who has faced backlash cruelty and discrimination regarding my abilities and appearance i want to honor myself for being strong enough to face those challenges and for healing in my own way when i was young i was often called ugly dark negra and kulot curly haired at the time i thought my natural hair was hideous my own relatives mocked my looks and i grew up never hearing a single compliment from them these childhood experiences led me to believe i wasn t beautiful trapped in negativity the pain stayed with me well into my teens i carried that trauma with me becoming shy and struggling with low self esteem self doubt and a deep fear of socializing eventually i fell into a pattern of self sabotage when i started grade school i was terrified of being judged i feared that people wouldn t want to be near me because of my appearance and it reached a point where i no longer wanted to attend school at all however i eventually found the courage to continue my studies and make friends for the first time i felt seen and loved however that feeling didn t last in 2016 i experienced one of my biggest traumas i was in high school and everything felt overwhelming i was bullied again for my looks and felt as though no one wanted to be my friend i felt alone unvalued and invisible i was in such a dark place yet i was afraid to share this with my family because i had always struggled to talk about my experiences this was when i started having suicidal thoughts it felt as though all the traumatic events of my youth were returning at once the cycle repeated in college where i was bullied not for my looks but for my abilities during that time i began to self harm it was a dark period a roller coaster of haunting experiences where i constantly felt trapped eventually i grew tired of the pain i started to heal from within and the books a gentle reminder by bianca sparacino and the mountain is you by brianna wiest became turning points in my journey for so long i struggled to find a better place no one uplifted me or gave me encouraging words but these books provided the clarity and tools i needed to begin healing they helped me reclaim my sense of worth and purpose i am now freeing myself from self harm and fully embracing every part of who i am i am learning to be gentle with myself every single day 2025 has been a year of self discovery after years of struggling i am finally fighting for my peace this year has given me hope and the courage to face every storm to believe in myself and to love myself more than ever reflecting on my old notes i saw only negativity now i realize the importance of self kindness i have started to embrace both my flaws and my strengths refusing to be engulfed by the past sharing my story here is part of my healing i am so happy to be part of this community and i will never stop sharing my journey in the hope of touching others you are my companions and motivators thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support to anyone feeling unloved unvalued or lost i highly recommend these books for your healing you and i have the power to change the world with kindness genuine love and empathy for others and for ourselves __ thank you for all the love and support this truly means a lot to me ️ j march 4 2026 the power of choice healing from within over the years i kept the tears in my eyes i held onto the pain that swallowed me every night i kept the sorrow and the tears i shed alone i had to distance myself from the people i thought would uplift me only to realize they were just people who never truly cared i kept all the pain trauma and struggle i ve been facing to myself i endured the bullying from my classmates alone i carried a melancholy heart when my father died i kept everything to myself without telling my family i remember those times when i felt too vulnerable for everything i always cried whenever night fell i used to self sabotage whenever i felt emotional no one ever saved me from my darkness it was only me who carried the weight and healed from within i m not perfect i always make a lot of mistakes i have made many decisions that i sometimes regret for being too impulsive i remember way back in july i was alone in our house cleaning when i suddenly burst into tears without even realizing it i was too overwhelmed by the weight of being an adult i started questioning everything i felt too fragile to face the challenges and no one was there to cheer me on i prayed to god to lessen the weight of my burden begged him for a spark and asked him to light up my life however life goes on life keeps spinning even when i feel stuck as i enter 2026 even though challenges never cease i am brave enough to face them without tears in my eyes i have changed a lot from being scared to being ready to conquer the world i am currently at home mending myself and becoming even stronger i am praying that the opportunity i applied for will call me and i hope the volunteer work i wish to do will open its doors to me i know the universe is still forming me molding the life i yearn for and preparing me for the biggest plot twist of my life i know i have been impulsive but those actions molded me into a better version of myself i have already found who i am and decluttered what is no longer meant for me i know success seems impossible to achieve in my current situation but i am still here clapping for every small achievement i attain i know it will take time for me to reach the pinnacle of success but the hunger in my spirit is still alive i am still here rooting for myself i may be lost for a moment in the labyrinth but my eagerness to find a better place fulfill the life i prayed for and achieve everything i want remains in my spirit i am proud to say that i no longer self sabotage negative thoughts have left my soul and i am ready to face what lies ahead i can stand bravely fearlessly and optimistically through everything __ thank you for all the love and support this truly means a lot to me ️ j february 18 2026 when the degree isn t enough my journey i am 24 and i feel like all the dreams i ve been pursuing are gradually disappearing i can t stop thinking about the path i need to take i feel stuck it seems like nothing is changing in my life despite my efforts to manifest change last year i was full of hope that this would be my best era but it s now february and the universe still hasn t aligned for me i feel like i ve spent all my energy trying to find a job but i haven t been lucky at all i ve been contemplating my life since last week overthinking every next step i m tired of finding jobs that don t align with my passion i haven t been able to stay in a role for more than a month because they just don t feel like the right fit after i graduated i thought many doors would open for me because i m a degree holder i was wrong it makes me want to cry because my degree feels like just a piece of paper here in my country even for an entry level office position they require years of experience my degree isn t enough all the sacrifices i made to graduate weren t enough to secure a better future or maybe i m just being too picky maybe i need to lower my standards perhaps if i hadn t let myself get so overwhelmed i could have stayed and maybe i d be experiencing success by now but for the sake of my peace i m telling myself that i haven t done anything wrong i m just still figuring things out could you please give me a piece of advice on how you achieved the success you have i really need help redirecting to the right path for now i m at home reading writing and spending time with my family and pets __ thank you for all the love and support this truly means a lot to me ️ j february 11 2026 the 20s paradox too young to know too old to waste too young to know everything too old to waste time trying to figure it all out we live in a moment of uncertainty trying to solve the puzzle of how our future will unfold and how to achieve the life we long for we focus on the life we never lived becoming anxious and depressed forgetting to notice the present they say our 20s are an age of uncertainty yet we keep trying to fill the box once and for all too young to know everything too old to waste time trying to figure it all out as we mold our future we feel pressure and pain that drain our souls we pray for greatness but if we give up too easily we lose momentum too young to know everything that is exactly what we need to hear in our 20s life feels tighter as if we are in a state of survival mode we are hastily chasing the victory if we fall we become fragile and vulnerable we forget everything yet if we face challenges fearlessly we are unstoppable still we feel too old not to know everything this phrase contradicts itself reminding us that we stand at the edge of decisions what to keep what to let go we wrestle with our subconscious asking whether to remain in our comfort zone or step beyond it the words urge us not to stay hidden in a corner but to discover ourselves our desires and the things that excite us most we must push our limits try something new and leave our comfort zone for the sake of growth everything is scary but the light still shines we are alive and we have the power to change our fate if we show courage and refuse to give up even in our darkest moments we can overcome agony we can figure things out one step at a time not all at once too young to know everything because we are still discovering what is truly meant for us too old to waste time because we are here in this world to wander and find our real purpose leave your comfort zone go live the life you yearn for at the end of the day you are too young to know everything but too old to remain in the corner __ thank you for all the love and support this truly means a lot to me ️ j february 5 2026 the blueprint from scratch to victory a personal letter on grit the beauty of uncertainty and the simple formula for success from scratch to victory this is the blueprint for the life you yearn for dear self go live the life you yearn for grit for success fight for it don t ever give up leave your comfort zone stay positive and dodge a bullet challenge yourself these will lead you to triumph i m proud of you keep going because you ve come so far on your journey if you stumble rise up if you fail reset and start over every successful person comes from uncertainty from scratch to victory they never give up instead they face challenges fearlessly willing to try and to risk and that s the power to fulfill the life you yearn for i know you will win if you show up and never stop pursuing your goals action consistency success with love and care j __ thank you for all the love and support this truly means a lot to me ️ j january 28 2026 the 10 year transformation why 2026 is my year of triumph they say that 2026 is the new 2016 however as i reminisce about 2016 it feels like a nightmare i experienced a painful event that i never 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