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ovember 3rd 2015 my darling mother janine passed away my mom lived a wonderful and full life having 4 kids taylor sean emily myself and having two more upon marrying pooldad delaney and tucker not quite in that order we all loved her very much and while some of us have been separated for some time we will continue to love her everyday for those of you who have been around you know she wanted no more than to take care of us kids and do her best to make us all happy some of you have become so close to my mom and me and my family cannot thank you enough for being there for her during those times when she needed you most or even in some cases when we were making mistakes that being said we received all of your thoughts and prayers and feel love from all over the country and from some of our foreign country tadpoles too most of you know from reading her blog that she was never in the best shape because she was rather sick there is no doubt in our minds she always did her best for all of us and she ll be in our thoughts everyday and we know she ll be there looking over us thank you all again for being there and making my mom happy and sharing your lives with us because you all are family too mom you skipped through a beautiful life and we ll see you again tadpoles we may update every now and again but until then thanks for everything love always skippy and family3 scribbled by skippymom at 4 45 pm 37 comments sunday october 11 2015 say your prayers my friends hi my friends this is emily one of skippy s daughters mom is ill and in the hospital but she is a fighter and we are all hoping for the best we are not posting anything on facebook for privacy reasons please say a prayer and send positive thoughts much love emily p s for those of you that have my father s phone and email you are welcome to communicate with him scribbled by skippymom at 3 28 pm 35 comments thursday may 28 2015 frick and frack as my mom used to say it s what she called my brother and me when we used to get into mischief well y all know me i am a big dog kind of girl dachshunds are the exception hence spot the dot but my preference is to have big dogs my favorite breed is the chesapeake bay retriever and that explains my little pony scoobers and his predecessor my beloved rudy but now even spottie is too much for me she weighs about 22 lbs which is a fine weight for her breed of standard size but heaven forbid she try to sit in my lap or jump up on my legs for a treat she has never been a jumper except with me and now i can t change that behavior she is 11 years old and really it s not a problem but the constant pain doesn t allow me to enjoy her like i wish don t get me wrong spot is my savior on all days and i would never give her up and if our history of having dachshunds is any indication she will live 5 or 6 more years steven is convinced the girl is going to break the record for longest lived dachshund at 22 years 5 months just to spite him hee but yesterday we were gifted with a new family member and to tell you the truth tadpoles i never thought i would see the day i had a dog smaller than spottie or that i would agree to rescue yet another animal and in this case a breed of dog i am not particularly fond of yes gang our newest family member is a chihuahua named bentley and he is a kick he is one year old and came from a friend of ours whose grandmother raised him from a puppy she recently had a stroke and was moved into different living arrangements where taking care of bentley would be impossible so being home all day the grandkids decided our family me was a good fit they gave us bentley his cage his dishes basically everything for free knowing we would give him a loving home he fits in perfectly well don t ask the cat but spot loves him as he loves her he is caged trained and knows his commands i am truly impressed at how well he is doing after one day and being only one year old so a big bravo to grandma please understand that no pup or kitty could replace my spotters in my heart she comes first above all our pets but i think she s kind of happy to have a new partner in crime i hope so at least and now i have a new lap doggie who doesn t weigh too much yippy skippy and that is what s happening in the pond tadpoles hope y all are safe and dry the weather sure is being it s wicked self this week isn t it take care and we ll talk soon i m off to find the snickers our cat and try and console her d smile loudly life is such a gift oh and the frick and frack title yeah that is what i call the two dogs giggle scribbled by skippymom at 8 11 pm 11 comments sunday may 24 2015 there is happy in this post i should be asleep and drooling in my chair heehee but i promise this is all good especially the middle few paragraphs so that was some mental pic eh sorry about that it s just that my new meds again surprise have given me the unavoidable side effect of falling asleep mid sentence no matter where i am regardless of who is around or what i am doing yeah it also means skippy doesn t drive anymore which some of you know isn t such a bad thing because i gave ozcarz to wallene for her 17th birthday so i really don t have anything to drive anyway hee it s a good thing i suppose and it s the lyrica that is doing it you know that nightmare inducing drug well i figured out what the problem was with it and why it was giving me such awful nightmares the doctors had prescribed dilaudid with it it s a narcotic that i seem to be highly allergic to in that i do really strange things when i take it one time they mixed it with sleeping pills while i was in the hospital and my hand to god i removed my iv and tried to escape from the hospital i just thought i could go home i was pretty desperate to get home you all know how much i hate hospitals that is until the big burly security guard my husband and my two young daughters pried me off the front doors of the hospital and escorted me back to my room where i passed out i woke up later restrained to the bed if nothing else i lead an interesting life giggle okay where was i so i figured this out dilaudid bad lyrica on it s own or combined with morphine good the morphine doesn t help with the pain so much not like the lyrica does but it has the added benefit of giving me energy and keeping me awake but it s a narcotic and plbhhhht on that the lyrica is fine on it s own but it s not narcotic yippy skippy i did have a lovely talk with a very kind high school friend hi jps and when she called one evening she told me all about her nutritionist i have an appointment at the end of next month you all know i watch what i eat due to my heart and you can learn a lot on the internet about eating and reducing symptoms of pain swelling flares etc but i have so many questions as i am discovering a lot of what i thought was good for me i e low in sodium and healthy for others may be exacerbating my conditions as i told a fellow tadpole lottajoy i would try voodoo at this point if i thought it would help no one should have to accept this kind of pain and live like this 24 7 still i am thankful that my friend called so thankful because eating well makes so much sense and as much as i have tried it will be nice to see what else i can do from someone who actually is trained to know but i am working it tadpoles and working it hard there is so much i want to do and people i love an want to take care of so we soldier on salute aw hell just know i am thankful that i am still here i am a very blessed woman i know that you know that and thank you god he knows it too grin i do have a bunch of happy stuff to report as i have said before all of this stuff is on facebook so it will be repeats for some of you but it is too much fun not to repeat twice wink at the top of the list bestest thing ever our squirrel graduated from james madison university on may 9th of this year we were busting with happiness and pride for her and had a nice lunch before her and wallene left on a trip to a local amusement park to celebrate with friends she is packing up her apartment and will be leaving for graduate school next month can you believe it momma out of her wheelchair momentarily squirrel and wallene now wallene she graduates high school next month and will be attending virginia commonwealth university s school of the arts in the fall which again makes us very proud but leaves steven and me a little sad because it is going to be so quiet around here come september i think i am going to end up being one needy froglet then anyone have a kid they would care to i don t know drop off for an extended visit in the hills of virginia hee yes this graduates in less than 3 weeks where did the time go steven and i celebrated out 20th anniversary this month i don t know if that makes us crazy considering what we have been through in 20 years or crazy in love but he is truly my bestest friend and i have never had someone love and care for me so much even at my darkest i love you baby waving i just betcha we make it 20 more don t you anniversary roses in my favorite color big days ahead we still stand to lose the house but steven and i are taking it one day at a time we aren t looking forward to downsizing and all the packing it entails to move to a smaller home but as with everything we are up against we will do it we always do we are just waiting and working on getting wallene to the university before we have to leave this home it makes me a wee bit sad because gosh knows i love this place and our neighbors but then i say my prayers and realize a cardboard box could be home for us as long as we are together i do laugh to myself when i mention the cardboard box thing because at the bleakest steven or i will say to the other i could live in a cardboard box with you it s simply a different way to say i love you and realize what our priorities actually are he has worked so hard his whole life and has been amply rewarded for it but being up against all of this now has depleted everything we every thought we would have at this point but all the kids are safe healthy and hopefully very happy they tell me they are and steven and i are here now and together forever and that my friends is reason to skippyhappydance even if the world is crumbling cause you know it could be worse i never forget that smile loudly life is a gift a big fat gift with shiny paper and a red bow enjoy your sunday i will see you on the flipside tadpoles as i feel the drool giggle coming on gotta go scribbled by skippymom at 8 17 am 14 comments tuesday april 28 2015 how willing am i to save my marriage and my family this willing what debilitating pain looks like the warmth of my husband holding me helps i know it sounds dramatic but that s me skippy the drama queen tough rocks i don t care i have spoken of pain before i have talked about the debilitating effects of conditions i didn t even know i had only to discover the stuff was real and nothing was touching it surprise i have a new pain that makes ra seem like birthday cake with sprinkles and candles no less but this hurts it is beyond hurting this is a slamming door to the point you separate the door frame from the wall you cry for 20 hours a day and wake up after a four hour nap knowing you cried in your sleep because your face is still wet the kind of pain where you scream at your husband and your daughter because they are not getting it they have that stupid pain scale right the one that comes out of the doctor s mouth as so on a scale of one to ten where is your pain and they show that inane chart with the withering smiley faces i have gotten to the point where i look at them and say where is the one with tire marks running across it s face and xs for eyes that is my pain they usually step away at that point but i promise i am saying it quietly and without my eyes rolling back in my head i told the doctor and my nurses one time that i considered childbirth to be a 4 at the worst and for me and four kids yep that works they shook their heads and went to correct me i stopped the doctor from telling me oh no all childbirth is at least a 6 i wanted to scream who the fuck are you and when is the last time you pushed a watermelon out of your body it is not sorry but it pisses me off to be corrected when people who don t live in my body but are book educated try to explain pain to me you doctor sir have no idea no one has any idea and it is simply one more area where i am completely isolated from everyone and everything i am fed up with being asked if i am suicidal i retort why why do you ask do i look depressed act depressed you bet your fucking socks that i am as depressed as i am but no i am not suicidal had i been i would ve shot myself long ago yeesh i don t want more meds i want less i want to know how to fix this no human being living creature oh hell nothing should live like this as this is a blog i feel the need to point out that i am not diminishing other s struggles with mental health and suicidal feelings they are real and their worlds and i pray that they get the help they should have been allowed a long time ago but i am not chemically imbalanced i am worn down and desperate from fatigue pain and isolation yet i do live like this and you all see me play nicely and happily in the sandbox over on facebook but what you don t realize when i am talking about evie s prom dress or emily s graduation while typing that i have tears pouring down my face when i speak of our 20th anniversary in less than two weeks my heart is happy but i am contemplating whether or not i can catch the garbage truck barreling down our street to just step in front of it at this point i think the mail truck could do a fair job considering the weight is going south again and steven is starting his whole i can tell her she is pretty but she looks like hell marathon put your thumb and forefinger around your wrist make them touch okay you shouldn t have a gap between your fingers and your skin on your wrist or a smallish one if you are small boned me i can fit a fucking snickers bar in the gap between my fingers and my wrist the only weight i have on me now is due to swelling and water retention oh joy oh thrill let s do the happy dance and the sarcasm drips drips and then it pours so what am i willing to do now to alleviate this pain to get me back to being marginally me i am going to take lyrica again even typing those words scare the living crap out of me if any tadpole remembers the last time i took that drug i had such severe nightmares that steven had to come home from work to help me he could not convince me that the older kids weren t hurt or dead i kept dreaming that dee tee jr and squirrel had been for lack of a better word slaughtered and i couldn t help them save them these nightmares left me screaming unable to wake myself up that my 13 year old daughter had to come into my room and physically shake me as hard as she could hurting me to get me out of the fugue i was...