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y it i opened my mouth to protest when she added merry christmas those simple words were all the encouragement i needed to accept her gracious help twenty dollars i choked out i paid what i could and she took care of the rest i got a couple of encouraging smiles and an arm pat from the cashiers as i sheepishly wheeled my cart out of the store as i loaded my precious groceries into the car i remembered the empty compartment where my emergency 20 used to be a couple of months ago our family was on our way to visit my parents in california we stopped for gas in primm nevada the last service station we would see for hours while crossing the mojave when matt got out of the car a bigger gentleman approached us i couldn t hear what he was saying but matt reached into that little compartment and handed the guy the 20 bill inside after filling the car with gas and getting back behind the wheel i asked him what happened he said the guy needed money for gas as i watched the man walk back over to his nice car i m ashamed to say i began to judge this person i knew it was wrong but i griped in my head about how much it was what that person might buy with it and how it was there for our emergencies not someone else s i had smaller bills in my purse and wondered why my husband would automatically reach for the twenty and not ask me first if i had any cash i tried to get over it and move on i remembered about that missing twenty again last week when our funds were getting low and matt needed gas to drive to work he ended up using rolls of change to buy gas the lesson god was trying to teach me began to sank in he knew that 20 meant something to me it s paper it s worthless it won t last past this life but for some reason my heart was set on that eternally worthless piece of paper and he saw that it was returned to me how i don t even have words to describe my feelings i ve been seeking to understand the true meaning of christmas presents are great i love watching people s faces light up with excitement when they open gifts and find something just perfect i love the feeling of making someone s day but i always feel disappointed when i don t find that same perfect gift given to me i want christmas to feel what i imagine christmas feels like trying to capture the spirit of the holiday when i am soo focused on shopping and gift wrapping and making sure i get everyone so no one feels like i don t love them if i don t have a gift or something for them is counterproductive money and material gifts are not what christmas is about i may be forced to sacrifice my favorite day of the year black friday because it is a day of spending money which is now gone could i find a way to pay for it on credit absolutely it would be all too easy but it isn t paid for if you owe the credit card company money and it s not really a steal of a deal if i am owing interest on it our girls are little so if our tree is a little bare under the branches it won t bother them any not to say there won t be anything there but i ve been wanting to do more of a homemade christmas this year anyway to make our holiday have a little more personal value to it this might be the perfect year to start teaching them the true meaning of christmas anyway christmas is an action not a feeling doing something for someone else that they cannot do for themselves posted by unknown at 11 13 pm 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest tuesday october 9 2012 ramblings of an insomniac it is in that state between dreaming and being fully awake that i often have the most clarity and can see things as they really are a fleeting epiphany it is during these times that i learn the most about myself unfortunately my brilliant ideas almost always never make it out of my head and onto paper much of my thoughts are lost at this point though i will try to regurgitate what i can remember i ve held myself back for years probably because i am trying to preserve a time in my life that has passed and never will return again change scares me a lot more than i admit to myself i love my little girls with all my heart but i find myself wishing i had fewer responsibilities and that i could go back to a simpler time in my life i have yet to graduate college because that means i finally have to face the rest of my mortal life that scares me i fear age i ve been afraid to imagine what my life will be like when i am 40 50 60 etc i suppose not allowing myself to think about it prevents me from setting worthy goals for me to accomplish in my lifetime instead i set my sights on much shallower goals rather than goals that will be of use to me for all eternity perhaps watching my girls grow and seeing how fleeting their babyhood really is shows me that i need to start making for myself goals that will enable me to change for the better change during mortality is hard but it will be made even more difficult after mortality alma 34 32 34 comes to mind that is the scripture mastery about procrastination right i ve been out of seminary too long see that ye do not procrastinate the day of your repentance until the end for after this day in life which is given us to prepare for eternity behold if we do not improve our time while in this life then cometh the night of darkness wherein there can be no labor performed for that same spirit which doth posses your bodies at the time when ye go out of this life that same spirit will have power to posses your body in that eternal world now that i ve realized this about myself the next step is what will i do about it read my patriarchal blessing for one as for the next step i m not sure obviously i need to start allowing myself to move forward time is not going to stand still some changes are only as permanent as i want them to be i ve wanted for years to find my own style of decorating and my personal style as well i ve been looking for permanent solutions to a temporary problem i ve wanted a classic permanent style it doesn t exactly work that way things get old worn out broken lost and if something survives long enough i get tired of it i ve wanted my styles to impress other people so i get anxious and stay in my comfort zone and deny myself of what i really want to try i ve heard over and over again to go with what i like what makes me happy etc but for me it isn t that easy what i really want though is a home that feels friendly and open where friends and family like to come over and spend time with our family i want a home where my kids feel the spirit and everyone who comes to visit can feel it too looks like i have my work cut out for me posted by unknown at 6 27 am no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest sunday september 30 2012 emma s story emma and lily are growing so fast it is hard to believe that nearly 6 months have gone by since our second daughter came into this world and almost two years since our first daughter changed our lives forever lily has grown so much since then and we have too i never recorded emma s story my induction was scheduled for april 5 2012 at 5 00 a m at 3 30 a m the hospital called and said that there were no rooms available for me so i went back to sleep and at 7 we received another call asking us to come in i changed in the triage room had my water broken in a cesarean postpartum room and after being in labor for a few hours i was moved into the room where we would stay until discharge i feel like my labor with emma was easier than lily mostly because i was a little more experienced but i was also constantly drinking fluids i had at least a couple of hours of sleep still didn t sleep very well we slept at kristynn s the night before and my mom was there it was so nice to have a seasoned delivery nurse there just for me especially after my epidural kicked in and i wasn t quite so coherent mom was even able to predict when it was time to call the nurse in because the fentanyl in my system was causing my blood pressure to drop too low for a few hours my labor didn t progress much i finally started making some progress after lunch and around 3 30 i was dilated to a 7 the nurse was about to leave my room when i started to feel pressure and she checked me again within minutes i dilated from a 7 to a 10 and was starting to feel like i needed to push the doctor was fetched and at 3 46 p m emma leigh came into the world she was 7 lbs 7 oz and 20 inches long emma had jaundice also her bili levels were around 11 5 at discharge but because we had gone through it when lily was born we knew what to do and thankfully the pediatrician at the hospital sent us home with bili lights we also made sure she was well fed and i supplemented her with formula for about the first week we continued to have her bili levels checked for several days after getting home and finally she was off the bili lights about a week or so after we got home even though i had stopped nursing lily less than a year earlier i felt like we needed to learn it all over again this time around though it was almost like magic emma had no trouble at all finding my breast i think we waited too long to start lily off or maybe it was just my inexperience that got in the way but that first time was much harder we avoided giving the bottles that the hospital provided to emma anyway just in case it screwed us up and made things harder she has grown so much since then emma was rolling over front to back at 2 months and back to front at 4 months she was starting to creep around before 5 months and now can scoot backwards and roll around to reach something she wants i can only imagine what my house is going to look like when she is running around with her sister s i am looking forward to watching her continue to grow into a beautiful little girl like her sister and to become a big sister herself one day each little spirit that comes into our family is a true miracle and i hope that we will be blessed with more little miracles as our lives continue posted by unknown at 9 40 pm no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest do your daughters know they are beautiful yesterday my sweet not quite two year old tried to help me wash the dishes while she is far from being able to do the chore by herself it is yet another reminder that she is no longer a baby she is becoming a little girl my time with my babies is short and each day that goes by they get older and bigger soon my girls will be grown and gone the best i can hope to do is raise them to know that we love them that their heavenly father loves them and that they truly are of infinite worth our bishop spoke in fast and testimony meeting today and what he said really struck me someone asked him do your daughters know they are beautiful if they don t when they go to college they will fall prey to someone who will lead them astray simply because someone tells them that they are beautiful this happened to a friend of mine who didn t know and may still not know how beautiful she is she met a guy who said that she was beautiful who said there was a light about her he wasn t a bad guy but he did not have the gospel in his life and didn t understand what he did to her when he took her virtue she tried to bring the gospel into his life but failed and he left her because the light in her had diminished i hope my girls never ever have to struggle with their self image the way my friend did i want them to know every day how beautiful and precious they are and how they deserve a man who will treat them like the queens they are destined to become if any boys decide to come into our family i will make sure they know the same and teach all of our children to treat their spouses like the kings and queens they can become by following god s plan posted by unknown at 8 23 pm no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday march 16 2012 almost ready i suppose since i have a few minutes to myself i can spend a little time on my little blog within a few weeks time i will have very little time to myself so i might as well take advantage of what i ve got it still seems a little unreal to me that i will have not one but two little girls in my home very soon lily is getting more curious about the second crib in her room and though she understands it is for a baby she still has no clue that the baby will require a lot of mommy and daddy s attention or that mommy is even having another baby everything is just about ready for baby emma s arrival i just need to make sure someone will be able to take care of baby 1 when baby 2 comes my suitcase is packed i have a list of things to grab when the time comes and the babies room is pretty much ready the most important thing i wanted to accomplish before the baby comes was to pass my national pharmacy tech certification exam which i drove up to salt lake for and passed on monday yay the rest of the semester will be a cakewalk for me i won t have to take the final exam or the test next week and if i miss class i will get credit for being there anyway i would still like to go when i can because there is still more i can learn but if it isn t convenient for me to find a babysitter then i won t worry about going as soon as the semester is over and i have my certificate i can go apply for my pharmacy technician license since i have that accomplished i am just watching and waiting for this little girl to decide that she is ready to begin her journey on earth i will probably be induced between 39 40 weeks if my labor does not start before then which since i live more than an hour from the hospital is just fine with me so i have a definite end in sight but i think these last three weeks are going to feel like the longest weeks ever i have a list of projects to take my mind off of waiting though revamping my ugly glider designing and sewing a new nursing cover stocking our freezers and cupboards with easy meals and snacks and hunting for as many grocery bargains as i can find i keep getting in trouble for rearranging the furniture in our apartment so i need to find another outlet for my energies she will be here before i know it i m sure posted by unknown at 10 54 am no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest older posts home subscribe to posts atom emma lily my blog list crafty genius third time s the charm 8 years ago ferrell family fun year in review 10 years ago blog bout baby nightmare 12 years ago life in my stiletto heels where does the time go 12 years ago becca brady and baby titan trip up to ogden 12 years ago my recipe box banana bread 14 years ago bookmistress s blog me a hair stylist 15 years ago tea for one please finals christmas and friends 17 years ago jorlylin s blog followers blog archive 2013 2 january 2 perspective simple gifts 2012 8 november 1 october 1 september 2 march 1 february 2 january 1 2011 23 november 1 october 2 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