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n from them it is a toxic environment no radical mother or no loving mother wants her children to be exposed to toxicity the work to provide others with the opportunity to know themselves is parallel to the work of mothers who nurture their daughters and sons with the opportunities to see truth i believe that this life inside my womb is closer to knowing truth in its most fundamental form than it will ever be before it passes on to life after flesh his early growth is a nine month prayer he is vulnerable but does not know fear he learns remembers dreams discovers and i believe is in constant connection with a divine life giving force growing and moving in unison with the will of most high as if singing in perfect pitch with the wavelength of the universe his obstruction from the oppressive world outside the perfect womb is limited my challenge will be that when he does enter this world that he will continue to learn dream and discover in unison with this divine force without self doubt or fear that he will continue to sing in unison with most high by distinguishing truth from the fallacies of our world and find his own authentic journey through the world carefully perceived by the womb of his heart and critical mind these challenges i take on for my own son cannot be distinct from carving the world he will come to know himself in and so i do choose a more difficult less luxurious path but a path that recognizes my own existence a path that refuses to have my life the life of my son and the lives of others dissolve into the dangerous waters of complacency and self negation posted by tigera consciente at 7 01 pm 1 comment labels education familia pensamientos and ruminations radical theory sunday november 02 2008 red wine a flash fiction story i had written a while ago and just remembered as i was grading my students short stories sure this piece still calls for serious improvement but i think it s worth sharing anyway how much time does it take to get from point a to point b she was in disbelief it just didn t feel like point b this is not what she had imagined there were supposed to be fireworks popping champagne bottles people filled rooms and festivities but there were no voices speaking the fading light bulb lit up an empty living room each day the walk into the kitchen the setting of keys on the table made the yellowing walls come over her daily experiences were drab like the tablecloths that folded onto her lap as she had her lone celebratory dinner finally the world had caught up the chinese take out sat opened and yet to be served on the one empty plate placed at the single candle lit table always the one too busy for opening movie nights birthday parties or dinners with the girls the wine nobody else chilled their dry red wine she did remembering where she placed it she grabbed it feeling almost accompanied by it stabbing the top of its mouth each rough and slow unscrew became a step closer to herself it s alright she doesn t need recognition it has always been about the work or rather the purpose of the work it was never about who noticed it was more about it getting done getting it done meant the work would speak for itself after popping the cork the cool smoky air rose from the bottle as it angled over the glass a nice slow gulp with eyes closed exhale eyes open suddenly that meal became the festive occasion it was meant to be she heaped her plate with vegetable fried rice sechzuan eggplant and spicy bean curd and dug in the work should speak to her kin if they only cared to listen but perhaps the work just speaks a different language it was a book not everyone speaks book her chewing slowed the glass of wine was half empty most of her closest loved ones didn t speak it how did it come to this who was she what was point a this eggplant sure tastes good how long has she been here another gulp of the chilled red wine the glass rested between her slender fingers she would see her mom picking it up and reading her name on the cover proud and filled with joy but what good is it if she won t crack the book open or try the first few lines and then let it sit like a trophy next to pictures of loved ones both alive and in the spirit world her brother would ask her for the title call it interesting and congratulate her moving on to the next mundane topic he wouldn t even ask her for a copy one she had already signed for him con amor juana then there were the childhood friends they called her the scholar but she d like to see herself as more like them than they allowed her to in fact the scholars that would read and recognize her work would consider it authentic or in non book talk ghetto the grip around the long cool bottle tipped its mouth over the wine glass the window she leaned at the edge of its pane the sun moved quickly towards the horizon on the sidewalk was her past sprawled out before her eyes pedestrians would intrude onto children s hopscotch and scooter chasing games dads would slam domino pieces over crate balanced wood boards while moms would huddle into groups and share the latest occasionally screaming at children that moved too close to traffic she looked back at her half eaten dinner spread on the single chaired table where had point b gone posted by tigera consciente at 1 09 pm 1 comment labels palabras poems and prose still black a portrait of black transmen i finally met kortney ryan ziegler in person after years of knowing her solely in the blogsphere during the showing of her film still black for the black queer film festival in nyc the above is a piece from my fave interview in the film what i loved most about the film is the exposure of the juxtapositioning of those who are attempting to redefine gender identities in a world where identities are pre constructed and shoved down our throats through mainstream media i find this process parallel to all other forms of self actualization where folks who try to authentically exist in the world are faced with the pressures of pre constructed fallacies of today s society what i heard echoed throughout the film were black men challenging others to be true to themselves this in itself takes courage because the world pushes us to participate in living lies to deny our own freedom and help perpetuate and build our own psychological emotional spiritual as well as physical prisons the black men in this film expose the process of decolonizing the concept of humanity in a world that dehumanizes thanks kortney for your brilliant work posted by tigera consciente at 10 33 am 1 comment labels pensamientos and ruminations radical theory sunday september 14 2008 broken body lyrics tigera consciente i wrote this today on the train ride home after looking for an apartment for my mom outside of nyc to get her out of a battered women s shelter after a break up with someone i love and care about after two straight weeks of my first year as a full time maestra after having just moved back home to nyc and in wash heights after 7 years of metamorphosis broken body by tigera consciente beats by beatnuts feat dead prez my stomach turned and produced anxiety running up my esophagus into my heart connected to some long distant artery an umbilical cord running into yours my thoughts mingled with your uncensored emotion exploding into my eyes i cannot see past where i ve been and who i am when it was you and me how can i profess this to be or not to be life has me questioning asking pleading crying breaking tearing out of this enclosed space i call safety only to build a new one i like to call clarity but the membranes are too thick for me to see through feel through stuffy inside i cannot breathe truth i must bust open and fly out into uncertainty ask a million questions why why am i me and who am i to be in this in us alone stripped down beneath the bone marrow my spirit sticks to the earthly matter it is repelled to stationing itself in perpetual complacency or is it latency dormancy does it not know what its capable of or are my bones unable to soothe the aching screams of a speaking spirit what do they not want to hear do they not want to carry the image of its destruction who am i to be what do i fear i run with the soles of my feet numbed and calloused no longer feeling the lost breath the running heartbeat a race to death with a faint vision of life because all i can see is the concrete in front of me sun up and sun down hoping one day i would reach myself not knowing i might be carrying the object of my wealth behind my eyes open and closed sometimes catching a glimpse of life sometimes of its distorted reflection 10 years 15 years 20 years later my knees collapse shattered bones within tightened skin sprawled across the pavement perhaps that day i will feel the light speed of my spirit light years behind my thoughts yet over the finished line perhaps then i would see truth waiting for my arms to crawl this broken body back home posted by tigera consciente at 8 07 pm no comments labels palabras poems and prose pensamientos and ruminations thursday july 24 2008 transitions transitions are exciting and difficult since i last posted a lot has gone down 1 moving from rochester to nyc foundation is very important to me i m a homebody a double capricorn and a real hostess when planing gatherings or work sessions i tend to always insist that i host them when my foundation gets shook everything else becomes more difficult to focus on i went from a temporary home to couch surfing and in the midst of that there is so much i ve had to and still need to accomplish completing online english courses finishing up final projects and papers for my grad program including my end of year portfolio which is still in progress applying for food stamps medicaid and a second b a in art helping my mom find work and stable housing and looking for work for examples so all of these things add to the foundation shaking factor especially with my life locked in a u haul storage box but what has been interesting and confusing about this shift is that its the first time in 7 years that nyc is technically my home i m a drastically different human today compared to 7 years ago and gentrification has done a lot to change my home in those 7 years as well my first moments here have been a mixed process of mourning reflection and celebration mourning those aspects of the city i created memories in that are no longer there reflecting on who i was 7 years ago and why i left nyc and how my current relationship to this city is and will be different a process of facing my past and healing a process of constructing a new self something automatically shifted in all this foundation shaking that allowed me to stay focused there was a shift from being rooted in my physical space to being rooted in faith i remembered what life had taught me in my 6 years in the bay area and that s that intuition is the voice of most high within us and that when we are on the path that she has set before us the universe will provide always so my intuition has been my closest companion in all of this and even in the midst of all these challenges i ve been feeling like the most blessed person on earth 2 shifting from university student mode to educating artist family member friend mode this is going to be a process of unlearning there are so many hidden emotional physical spiritual and intellectual habits i ve acquired as a university student as an unhealthy workaholic i ve let myself neglect my own humanity a lot of my creative energy has been stifled for the most part my relationships with others including family have been put into the back burner my physical well being has gone down significantly in the past 7 years and although i know i ve been walking down the right path i ve been consciously in and out of touch with my connection to most high i ve been so focused on cultivating my intellectual growth that at times i ve neglected the rest of me that s gonna change balance is going to be significant in my continuing process of self actualization i have to remember or learn what it means to be a complete human being working for social justice has to include developing healthy and holistic selves there is no movement without a people it has to be a part of what i m working towards what i m building not just trying to take down and destruct and i can t guide others in doing the same if i m not there myself a movement of people who neglect their own humanity is a dehumanizing movement and although i can t say i ve neglected all other parts of myself all the time i know i can do better at strengthening my consciousness of all aspects that make me a complete spiritual and human being goals and blessings i have a commitment to stay true to my vision and my path in this life i ve been recently blessed with the opportunity to teach at the james baldwin school it was at the top of the list of schools to teach in i didn t get the position right away my commitment to my vision was tested and strengthened by most high and in that work she provided the perfect opportunity as far as i ve studied and witnessed this school will support respond to and value my work and my vision my emotional spiritual and intellectual well being depends on my growth as an artist at least partly i m going to be working towards a second b a in art at city college of ny this way i ll be present and attentive to this process while working towards getting credentialed as an art teacher in addition to my english credential i don t see this as extra work but as necessary work for my own spiritual existence i also plan to cultivate my work as a fiction and non fiction writer i have faith that the harder i focus on and walk down my chosen and spiritually inspired journey the more the blessings will continue to come posted by tigera consciente at 5 44 am 3 comments labels pensamientos and ruminations sunday june 22 2008 freedom time lauryn hill freedom time powered by odeo selected verses what s got em drunk off the spirits truth comes we can t hear it when you ve been programmed to fear it how can dominant wisdom be recognized in the system of anti christ the majority rules intelligent fools phd s in illusion masters of mass confusion bacholors in past illusion hungry and thirsty for good meat we would eat and still dined at the table of deceit how incomplete from confrontation to retreat we prolong the true enemies defeat destitute a necessity causin desperation to get the best of me punishment til there was nothing left of me realizin the unescapable death of me no options in the valley of decision how can we show up for an invisible war preoccupied with a shadow makin love with a whore achin in sores babylon the great mystery mother of human history system of social sorcery our present condition needs serious recognition where there s no repentance there can be no remission what s goin on what s the priority to you by what authority do we do the majority hasn t a clue...