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to make sure that we were full tithe payers which meant that we had to get caught up 5 1 2 months caught up ouch but we were determined to get it done so we paid what we could and pulled the rest from our other real savings account it was pretty painful to take such a large chunk from our savings but we did what we needed to do to make sure that we could consider ourselves full tithe payers within a matter of days of pulling all of that money and significantly lowering our savings account the windows of heaven opened up and we received a huge blessing for which we are so grateful in the mail we received a reimbursement check from my obgyn turns out that we had overpaid on our contract from the pregnancy and delivery of teben we were not expecting that check and against all odds the amount that we received was almost exactly what we had just paid in tithing to get caught up time and time again we have seen that if we will just do our part and pay our tithing we will be taken care of i know without a doubt that the blessings that come from tithing are so much greater than anything we could ever receive from just the monetary increase i am so grateful to my heavenly father for once again reminding me of that and for not pulling away from us when so often we fall short of where we should be posted by tyann and aaron boutilier at 10 25 pm no comments december 11 2014 5 months can it really be 5 months since my world was changed 5 months ago yesterday i held my sweet baby boy for the first time where did the time go i still remember looking down at his beautiful puffy squished face for the first time and it was absolutely amazing that day and that moment was the best moment of my life this beautiful boy is the best thing i ve ever done teben bruce boutilier as of today teben can sit for small periods of time can roll from tummy to back can scoot and spin in a circle like nobody s business i ll put him down on his play mat for tummy time and i ll look at him shortly after and he s on his back and his head is where his feet used to be he s a magician haha i m pretty sure he s going to roll from back to tummy any day now he comes so close it s just a matter of time when his binkie comes out he most of the time manages to put it back in for himself it s pretty cute to watch him try to do that we started him on solids this month our pediatrician recommended it to help him sleep through the night it didn t seem to help any so we only do it occasionally but he loves it he s quite the little eater he s also started this new thing in his crib where he scoots himself up until his head is rammed into the bars of his crib at which point he starts crying and i have to come put him back on the other end until he works himself back up and we do it all over again if it wasn t for that he d be just about sleeping through the night speaking of which we started sleep training this last week we always let him sleep with his binkie and unfortunately we created a dependence on it to the point that if he woke up in the night and it wasn t in his mouth he would cry until it was we were getting up 6 times in the night just to put in his binkie that got old really fast so sleep training we decided that he wasn t allowed to sleep with his binkie anymore and if he woke up we would let him cry it out for 10 minutes go in and check on him let him know we were still there then walk out and let him cry it out for another 10 minutes that was the cycle until he would finally fall back to sleep the first night he woke up 3 times and each time it took about 50 minutes of that cycle until he would put himself back to sleep it was pretty sad listening to him cry since he s never been a crier but it had to be done the next night he still woke up 3 times but each time he put himself back to sleep within 15 minutes and last night he put himself back to sleep within 5 7 minutes so i didn t even have to get out of bed well except to move his poor head away from the bars sleep training went so fast and he is doing so well i m so proud of my boy the only down side to this whole thing is that he lost his voice that first night was pretty rough on him and now anytime he talks or cries he just sounds so silly poor boy anyway it s been a pretty great month for our boy i m so proud of who he is and the accomplishments he makes he s got my whole heart wrapped around his tiny little finger i love that boy so much posted by tyann and aaron boutilier at 12 38 pm no comments august 26 2014 trust this morning i was holding my beautiful baby boy and reveling in the way his little body curls up so perfectly on my chest i looked down at him and thought about the absolute perfect trust he has in me there is no doubt in his mind or mine that he is safe in my arms all i could feel was completely blessed for his trust in me and in the same moment i felt completely blessed for the trust that my heavenly father has in me to raise this beautiful baby i feel somewhat overwhelmed and so grateful for that this baby boy is mine forever because of that trust what more could i ever possibly hope for posted by tyann and aaron boutilier at 12 37 pm 1 comment may 15 2014 dear teben dear baby teben what can i say you ve done it again you continue to amaze and impress us every day your daddy got to feel your hiccups for the first time yesterday you don t get them very often so when you got them yesterday morning while i was still laying in bed i wanted to make sure your daddy got to feel them too he came over and put his hand on my belly and pointed out each and every hiccup and then he said poor baby i couldn t understand why poor baby i love it when you get the hiccups but he said that hiccups hurt and he didn t want you to have them he was so worried about you he loves you so much already teben he tells me all the time how he is ready to have you in his arms he s going to be such a good daddy to you you re getting really big now you re already about 17 inches long and boy do i feel that sometimes you move all day long i love to put my hand on my belly and feel you move and i love watching you move my belly sure can dance thanks to you your favorite spot to hang out for your cute little bum and little legs is right under my ribs on the right side i can almost always find your bum pushed right up against my ribs and i love it and then you stretch your little legs out and boy do you have pointy little heels but you know what baby i even love the pain of your pointy heels every kick to the ribs and every poke of your heels lets me feel you and know that you are healthy and growing i love every second and every movement i love you baby boy i had no idea how much i could love you without even seeing you yet but i do you have become my world and i can t wait to show you how much you mean to me are you sure you re not ready to come meet us yet we wouldn t mind ok i guess it s alright if you stay in there just a little longer but july 19th can t come soon enough we are ready for you baby boy baby s size is almost 17 inches and 3 1 2 pounds total weight gain 20 pounds maternity clothes oh yes and i need more stretch marks no thank goodness but i m getting more and more nervous with how big i m getting sleep sleeping used to be my favorite thing in the world i couldn t wait to climb into bed every night now i dread it my back hurts a lot and ribs are so painful my pillows don t even really help anymore just two more months though i can do this exercise i ve been going to a prenatal yoga class for the last couple of months i thought it would be just stretching but no i come out of there sweating every time miss anything just sleeping well movement yes this baby boy not only moves but he dances it seems like he is constantly awake anymore and i love feeling and watching him move food cravings i crave chocolate ice cream and frosty s constantly i can t get enough which is kind of weird because i ve never really been an ice cream person weird labor signs nothing beyond my continued contractions since my hospital stay happy or moody most of the time happy best moment this week having aaron get to feel the hiccups i also had two baby showers this last week and they were amazing my friends and co workers spoiled me looking forward to having this darn baby already i can t believe i still have two months i am so ready to meet him posted by tyann and aaron boutilier at 7 54 pm no comments april 21 2014 my pregnancy lately in pictures it seems that i ve slacked in blogging about the pregnancy over the last couple of months hopefully i can pick it back up going forward until then here s my pregnancy in pictures posted by tyann and aaron boutilier at 9 01 pm no comments april 8 2014 epiphany while watching general conference sunday morning i had an epiphany the light bulb just switched on and i couldn t help but feel humbled and thankful and honestly a little silly that i never saw it before i can t remember who it was that gave the talk but it was in the sunday morning session i think it may have been elder bednar but i m not sure the speaker focussed a lot on the scripture matthew 11 28 30 come unto me all ye that labour and are heavy laden and i will give you rest take my yoke upon you and learn of me for i am meek and lowly in heart and ye shall find rest unto your souls for my yoke is easy and my burden is light when aaron and i were going through those painful years trying to get pregnant i often turned to this scripture and ended up asking why my savior told me in that scripture that if i come to him with my sorrows and my burdens that he will give me rest at least that s what i have always thought he was telling me i continually turned to the lord and asked him to take the pain to give me rest basically i thought if i turned to my lord and savior he would turn everything around take away our infertility issues and give us an end but that s not what the scripture is telling us and this is my epiphany when he is telling us to come unto him and he will give us rest it doesn t just end there he says to take my yoke upon you somehow my brain always skipped over that part listening to the speaker explain how two animals are yoked together working together to pull their load really struck me the savior didn t promise to take away my burden but to stand right beside me struggling and fighting and pulling with me to get through it i had to deal with a lot of anger over our infertility because i kept expecting it to just go away that there would be an easy answer and when i turned to prayer hoping that i would find that easy answer i got angry why wouldn t he just take it away when he has the power to and he has promised children to both me and aaron it s because he doesn t work that way he didn t promise to take it away and make it better he promised to stand next to me and pull through the sludge and mud that is our trial and even though i didn t understand it then i now know that he was always right beside me yoked to me in my burden and laboring right along beside me he pulled when i pulled he fought forward when i fought forward he cried when i cried and he put a comforting arm around me and made my burden just a little lighter until that time when he knew it was our time i am so grateful for general conference and the little reminders and epiphanies that it offers and i am so grateful for my savior for yoking himself to me not only in that past struggle but in all moments that i need him posted by tyann and aaron boutilier at 10 10 pm no comments february 8 2014 15 16 17 weeks i can feel the baby i think i ve actually been feeling it for about 2 weeks now but i just wasn t sure i felt it for the first time one morning while i was laying in bed i think i felt such a tiny faint little flutter in my belly and that was it and then i wondered did i really just feel that did i imagine that and then there was nothing for days then i felt that same little flutter a few days later but it was just so soft was i just wanting to feel it so bad that i was tricking my mind into thinking i was feeling the baby kick i just didn t know and then it was about a week without feeling anything so at that point i knew it had to be in my head i had my 16 week appointment where my doctor told me that a lot of first time moms won t feel anything until around 20 22 weeks are you kidding me i ve clearly been expecting this for the last week or so so this was devastating to hear but baby had different plans about 3 days ago baby started moving like crazy there s no question anymore i get so excited every time i feel it it s so much stronger than it was a couple weeks ago it is such a unique amazing feeling and i am loving every single little tap kick and wiggle i can t wait for aaron to be able to feel it too i swear pregnancy is the weirdest thing when you get the positive pregnancy test you think you understand and grasp that it s real then you get to the first ultrasound and see the heartbeat and you think it s finally sinking in then you get to the next ultrasound and get to hear the heartbeat and see your baby starting to become a baby and you think now it s real and i understand that i m actually pregnant but then it s hard to grasp the concept that you ve actually got a baby growing inside you again and now i can finally feel the baby moving inside of me and i feel like it s clicking there s a baby in there but i know that that will continue throughout the entire pregnancy with each milestone it will feel more and more real until finally there will be a beautiful sweet little baby in my arms i can t wait for that moment when everything that aaron and i have been working for for so long is finally a tangible reality of parenthood dear baby boutilier my sweet sweet baby where do i start you have blown my mind over the last week i am so happy and constantly aware of you lately every little kick or wiggle or twitch or whatever it is that you re doing in there i am completely in love i ve been trying so hard to explain the feeling to your daddy but unless you re feeling it i m not sure you can ever really understand what a beautiful bonding moment it is to be able to feel you move inside me you re amazing you are so loved already and i can t wait to continue to bond with you and watch you grow from out here keep growing strong my baby only 5 more months until you re in our arms your mommy and daddy are enjoying every moment of this journey and we can t wait to meet you love your mommy baby is the size of a sweet potato total weight gain 5 1 2 pounds maternity clothes no but that s not for lack of needing them my belly band will only work for so much longer i definitely need to go get some maternity slacks for work stretch marks not yet sleep sleeping has started to get kind of rough for me my stomach with one leg kicked out has been my go to position but that has been killing my hips lately and laying on my side is killing my back wei...