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0 17 it s worth noting by the way that isaiah refers to jerusalem and its leaders as sodom and gomorrah not because of sexual sin but because of their intransigent abuse of the poor on arrogance israel s prophets leveled this accusation at those in leadership both in israel and the surrounding nations who abused their power and exalted themselves isaiah and ezekiel give particularly lengthy denunciations and judgments against the luciferian day star son of the dawn 14 13 20 and the prince of tyre 28 1 10 respectively on greed once again the prophets provide illuminating examples of oppressors concocting schemes to seize property they covet 1 kings 21 1 24 micah 2 1 5 jeremiah 21 13 17 and living in opulence by crushing the poor amos 4 1 3 6 4 17 jesus castigated the pharisees for displaying morality on the outside but being filled with greed and wickedness on the inside luke 11 39 and paul pointedly equated greed with idolatry colossians 3 5 this moral trilogy and not the one you espouse stands at the core of the bible s ethical vision i also agree with your indictment of american violence we disagree however on its character and causes i invite you to take off your rose colored nationalist glasses and recognize how deeply the us is infatuated with violence how violence has warped our society from our colonial beginnings and how white america has employed violence to expand its territory exert its power and maintain its privilege and dominion and how it continues to do so when you override biblical principles to support a wicked regime you reveal an idolatrous loyalty to political power when you distort the meaning of biblical passages to support vile ideologies you disrespect and abuse scripture when you refuse to allow the bible to challenge and expand your moral vision you can be easily seduced by the allure of rival visions you are a prominent and avowed bible believing christian i urge you therefore to take the bible seriously franklingraham rededicate250 christiannationalism biblicalmorality for those who seek to defend graham and seek to decry hawk i don t believe this letter endorses or claims that the bible endorses the sex oriented trilogy that graham identifies as amercia s greatest ills i believe that dr hawk draws attention to the most significant besetting sins that have plagued mankind of which israel of old and the us has also been most guilty president trump s oppression arrogance and greed have been such a central element in blatant and obvious form in this second tour as potus yet they go unmarked by graham in favor of three of maga s proverbial dog whistles hawk draws attention to the irony that people outside of maga cannot ignore urging graham to recheck his own perspective cmk tweet posted by cynthia kunsman labels christian nationalism tuesday may 12 2026 tracking my healing concerning mother s day 2026 my mother and i didn t get an ideal start a story that even includes a literal miracle but it wasn t enough to compensate for the heartache that my parents carried long before i came around parents full of love fill the hearts of their children with the abundance of that love but mine also had an abundance of shame and fear i soon became their scapegoat and in this very truncated oversimplified rendition of this longer story of unrequited love they eventually washed their hands of me in 2007 when i first read francine shapiro s emdr book an early scene from her work as a therapist came to life in my mind she described a young child who created many things as she played then promptly destroyed each one in self disgust calling each no good i saw myself as a tiny little girl full of frustration and self hatred trapped alive in a deep shoebox i ran from corner to corner of the box for years of my life growing from infant to toddler to school age child looking up and holding up my invisible accomplishments i saw myself reach and cry out to my parents hoping to finally find something good enough that they would embrace with joy and the pride of parental love all was no good when i asked myself whether i had just forgotten good moments of praise i recalled one day as a teen when i asked my mother directly why nothing was ever good enough for her my mother said harshly what do you want me to light a candle and have a moment of silence later in my adulthood as her disdain for me grew she started rewriting the past of my wonderful accomplishments as utter failures and causes for shame some she denied altogether claiming they never existed still looking into that box in my mind in which i was still trapped and still feeling like a rejected unlovable child i watched myself lay down in the center of it i could no longer fight the sense of futility as mother s day in 2016 approached experiences i had with some others stirred up those feelings of desire for love and acceptance how i wished that someone would joyfully lift me out of that box to embrace me i felt driven to get the image out of my head out of my body as i tried to envision what it might look like i ended up with a foam board and digital mockup that became it s own multi media image of what i saw that day when i read shapiro s book it was accepted into an art exhibit and i included a statement about all the similar but different boxes i d been placed in never really getting out of that original box my religious experience was indistinguishable from the personal and all of it became reinforced webbing of spiritual bypassing and blackmail in 2025 someone inspired by aleksander małachowski s photo of a japanese cherry tree turned it into a mother s day meme the grand tree and its burgeoning branches which towered over a young girl were identified as her mother showering her with the blossoms of goodness that a mother bestows on her children i wept terribly when i saw it but i worked to come to terms with it i sought an alternative image to replace the old one in my mind s eye aleksander małachowski s photograph of a kanzan variety of prunus serrulata japanese flowering cherry mokotów district in warsaw poland just near izumi sushi in biały kamień some days i still wake up in that deep shoebox but i understand that this is the nature of emotional healing it is not a linear process but it s one that walks us through parts of our painful past as life takes our healing to a new and deeper level we are more like onions and reckoning with our past pain in new times of healing becomes the peeling of a deeper onion layer complete with tender tearing eyes i ve learned to trust this as a normal needed part of the process so a year ago i decided to make my own healthier image more in line with the greater picture of a loving creator this effort didn t invalidate my original image but i allowed the challenge of the new image to open my heart and understanding i adapted the image by duplicating the little girl placing her near the original girl each in their own world one representing my mother and one for me for i look so much like her i relabelled the glorious tree in full bloom as the love of god and in the interim between the two i added some pink blossoms to the original image of me in the box acknowledging the many blessings that i could never number that my mother did share with me i know they came at great cost to her not only because of limited resources but also because she had so little love for herself that there was far less to share with me when i created that original image in 2016 so much of the pain i always felt on mother s day dropped away this year 2026 was the first year in a decade that i felt the familiar pain again reminded of it by so many beloved christian friends who have distanced themselves or disavowed me because of politics it s not good enough i m no longer good enough i even had the idea that though i m still a conservative libertarian my die hard democrat born again parents might be proud of me just once for rejecting donald trump s madness and then i laughed they made up their mind about me when i was in my cradle when i sought out the images from a year ago to draw comfort from them asking god to change and renew my heart and mind yet again i could feel the change of growth i added more cherry petals to my original image and because of greater self differentiation i realized that i am not my mother so the duplicate image of her i had created to represent myself needed to change i added my long lighter hair with a white strand now tinted purple i gave myself a pink dress too we re individual wonderful creations of god connected and joined yet very different separate and separated both of us are abundantly blessed overshadowed by the burgeoning budding branches of plenty of god s providence and love i wonder what i will see in these images in the years to come if i am graced to have them tweet posted by cynthia kunsman labels mother s day wednesday october 1 2025 deal breakers a response to trump before military leaders on september 30 2025 some issues in life are so completely wrong they become deal breakers when we learn of them and can no longer deny them they force a hard moral decision and personal course correction if we delay we become just as responsible and just as guilty for the harm they cause these are but two of the interrelated religious deal breakers i ve experienced leaders at my church used allegedly biblical ideology to support wife beating 96 christian reconstruction s endpoint the og presby project 2025 strategic side of the christian right ultimately demanded a religious racial caste system and servitude likely the most significant impetus for its ideology which took me more than decade to process and another to accept 02 stuart rojstaczer on instagram the hegseth trump military meeting on september 30 th was another kind of deal breaker religious in the sense that it formalized the undoing of the virtues of tolerance and respect from which american inalienable rights derived they are the christian virtues that our christian founders imbued in the words of our constitution the christian foundation of our nation without those virtues and inalienable rights america ceases to be a christian nation thus breaking the trust that our constitution once provided yesterday the figurehead and commander in chief of our christian nation formally denounced these virtues it was the art of deal breaking but we did collectively elect a moral deal breaking reality tv star i m sure most of his christian supporters cheered believing that his change in military policy after months of disregard for the rule of law brought our nation closer to being a christian nation based on studies of behavior and the history of similar events in other nations my heart aches because i know that 2 3rds of maga christians may never fully grasp the gravity of what just happened tweet posted by cynthia kunsman labels maga politics monday september 29 2025 a different kind of epitaph for voddie baucham i hope voddie baucham found whatever it was he was looking for and that his family finds comfort a former follower friend of his told me that he was basically a child inside who was desperately afraid of ending up alone powerless and desperately poor again like he was as a child in la summary of posts concerning voddie baucham i prayed often for his healing and i usually think of him when i read quotes and content from alice miller the child psychologist who opposed the black pedagogy of child abuse he read like a page out of her textbook that described wounded children who grew up to become intolerant of the behavior of children or outright abusers themselves he worked so desperately to be acknowledged seen powerful and important his wife has lupus pretty severely and i hope that she remains as well as she can but at the same time i feel like one of the biggest meanest most manipulative bullies of this genre is now gone the people whom he cruelly intimidated and manipulated lording his education and position over them in intimidation and what sometimes sounded like anger those people can feel free today they don t ever have to worry about running into him somewhere and they can know that he can no longer hurt them again in any way many people love him but they don t know what it s like to be someone he decided to use tearing them down as an example so he could feel powerful right and so much better than them he tried with me but never succeeded thanks to the grace of god and the power of truth how ironic that his death falls so swiftly behind kirk s i saw a comment in an announcement about baucham s passing that asked will they put me on a government watch list because they had nothing good to say about him he lied about me online and personally insulted me and then started writing to me lying to me and about me following that up with more lies as time went on he d told at least a dozen different people that he was suing me which was another lie he claimed that i lied about him which always went poorly for him he published a miserable fable about me in a book that others encouraged me to sue him over instead i said that he wasn t that important because he wasn t however when i read his emails the hair on the back of my neck stood up i didn t get any backlash from him when i wrote about him on no longer quivering in 2020 choosing to acknowledge him as a fellow believer with some aberrant beliefs and someone whose perspective and epistemology differed from mine i called for unity through love while still acknowledging the theological and philosophical differences between us but i affirmed him as a fellow believer i don t believe he ever responded if he ever took notice i will not see voddie in vahalla but i hope to be happily seated with him in unity at the marriage supper of the lamb one day soon after he slammed me on his blog i went there to see if i could find the post to quote it but he d deleted it he deleted all of them before it ever occurred to me that he would do such a thing instead i found a sweet picture of him holding a baby announcing that he d just adopted a little girl i found it commendable and rejoiced other cohorts of his would only adopt boys i m glad that he dared to do that back then and that s the picture of him that i ve continued to hold of him in my mind s eye he expressed great love in that photo with a tiny baby and i always prayed that god would multiply it it was lovely and seemed genuine our lives are but a vapor and in that sense i hope that i will soon see voddie as people tell of glimpses of heaven loved ones come to meet new arrivals when we make our way to that undiscovered country should i be found faithful i hope that voddie is among those who gather to greet me tweet posted by cynthia kunsman labels prophet priest king of the home monday november 6 2023 a critical review of quiverfull families a book by emily hunter mcgowin quiverfull families the quiverfull movement and evangelical 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