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e with the absence i feel while holding her clothes not her body and trying desperately to inhale her fading scent i ve had to make peace with my rolling moods elated from the antics of families and friends to fracture within my solitude every single day at first i was held tightly under the protection of numbness earthly dramas fell by the roadside and meant nothing along side a blue cross with her name scribed in painted white letters it is a gift and a curse to be forced into such clarity in the early moments we were gifted vastly with love and embrace from so many people but one of the gifts that touched me the most was a packet of letters bound in a blue ribbon each letter held a different message for when you are depressed for when you want to know how she touched the world for when you need a laugh for when you need a reminder of her determination for when you need to know how stubborn she was for when you need to know how many lives she touched i savoured these letters and opened them slowly over several weeks and held tightly to the messages as if i had my arms wrapped around her there is only one envelope left unopened for when you are angry it said i never thought it would come until constable julie ruest visited my house 6 months after the accident eidan and i sat quietly trying to absorb the information that they decided to divulge and share with us sydney used to harass me to buy her what the other kids already had she used to cry and get angry that i wouldn t crater to the trend mom she said i m the only kid in grade 12 without one i would tell her that she was the only kid in grade 12 with five horses i would tell her that once she could afford to pay for it she could have it she owned one for less than a year it disturbs me that my son tells me that he is one of two people not to have a cell phone in his grade eight class when you buy your kid a phone does it ever occur that we feed the addiction that has become social networking we think that we need it for accountability and for safety in case we get stranded on the road side we often use it for almost everything else except talking on the phone we communicate check the news check our neighbors news check the weather take photographs stimulate and at the same time disengage from relationships with a simple click of a button like pavlov s dog the moment the red light blinks we are conditioned to look at our 4 inch screen we are expected to be perversely and immediately accountable to whomever is trying to connect it is radical i know but do you ever think of your child s christmas gift instead as a tool for addiction selfie inspired narcissism and mass destruction would you trust someone that shouts out from their soap box that didn t use a cell phone you can trust me i ve done it all what about sydney would you listen to her from her lofty perspective next time you look down while driving will you see her face the conversation was idle banter of i dunno dugghh and lol it was frivolous and light and talked about the day the snap chatted photograph was her beautiful selfie holding a bag of candy did you know that your snap chatted photographs and conversations are retrievable even after death it was a combustible flash of anger not directed at anyone and simultaneously directed everywhere to every cell phone and every person with eyes cast down sitting in the drivers seat a beautiful life fractured from the rest of us do you know that webster s dictionary has adopted selfie into our official english vocabulary what about death by selfie what about death by cell phone who has adopted that aside from us she was happy within those final moments they say she didn t suffer i can stop sifting through the grass shreds of charred belongings and the glass at the roadside looking for clues as to how and why my daughter vanished off the planet i can sit beside my grief gazing at new flowers and quietly reflect upon the heartache and miracles of the living and of the ones whom have passed yearning for a child that is no longer here leaves a vast crack in the heart that seemingly cannot be fixed and radically changes who we become it is a strange place to be existing between the tears for the one that has left and the one that brings me laughter every single day my friend told me that when sorrow carves so deeply there is no room for anger only a combustible flash love tami be thankful that even though she was taken far too soon that you had opportunity to spend eighteen years with a beautiful and natural girl be angry for the memories you can no longer make but be even more thankful for the ones you already have love megan posted on february 14 2015 by whispersfromthewillows posted in death grief tragedy tagged cell phone tragedy death of a child distracted driving 5 comments what is the worth of a man there comes a time it seems somewhere after the heart is ripped out when all we want to do is laugh again the weight of it all is too much to hold on one s own and we just wish to have a life that is free of heartache and pain free of the burden of the energy it takes to rise up from the weight of the rubble i can hardly write a post about tragedy anymore it s like walking to the edge of the abyss and still deciding where it is i want to be after i ve already calmed the vertigo and stepped back closer to safety but then there is another story another mother standing and gazing over that same cliff wondering what the fuck just happened and whether or not in a moment if she could jump just to ease the pain of standing there a woman said to me but i would never want to burden and infringe upon others with my journey in sharing our stories do we not draw closer find each other and feel in a world plagued with habitual numbness is this not exactly what it means to be alive walking a mile in someone s shoes standing at the edge of their terror learning compassion insight humility and vowing to transform our own lives into something better every journey is an adventure but some journeys are wrought with pain perhaps the stories worth sharing are the ones that cut the deepest and explore the suffering that illuminates what it means to be alive the other day in medicine hat it was minus 40 degrees celsius which in fact could have been one of the coldest cities upon the planet a bearded man has a place upon the street where he sits with a cardboard sign in passing i read the black lettering that asked do you know why they call me the prophet as the spare change in his cup rattled he asked me another question hey lady what is the worth of the life of a man he asked me like i might not know and with the gesture of his cup i couldn t help but feel that whatever i had in my pocket might somehow define the worth of this man sitting on a street corner within a conservative little city somewhere beneath a blanket of snow and icy winds do you ever wonder about those people the ones that we pass by with barely a second glance stepping over outstretched legs on our hurried way to somewhere else these moments reminded me of another place in kathmandu nepal one often sees people like these men sitting upon street corners and occasionally on a rolling platform propelled by a stick a wooden block and the power of the arms namaste madam he said to me with hands pressed together namaste i said returning his smile i thought about him many times through the years and i often wondered about his thoughts of a canadian woman with a baby on her back who only stopped with pleasantries and a smile it was ten years later when we would meet again and still i would not recognize the message and meaning behind our encounters but this time i chose instead to sit with him at the curbside and share a couple of coffees and precious time with the security guard of the neighboring bank acting as a translator i learned that even a legless beggar rises up moves forward and works to be alive somewhere within the filthy streets chaotic traffic sacred cows and the wanderers of the earth my new friend managed to put three children through university i guess that i am also afflicted by lust of the wanderer currently i step in and out of the conscious awareness of what just happened in my life it is only now within my memories do i see him as a messenger a man without legs and prayer hands held together gently telling me that the spirit within him honors the spirit within me a man without legs reminds me that i must rise up and stand again despite the absence in my life not the absence of limbs but a heart that has been cut out still beating but not part of the body when i turn up the road the same sickness in the belly can be conjured quicker than it takes to blink the eyes flashing lights an unrecognizable car a child screaming scrap metal still billowing with smoke fragmented snapshots an assault on the senses do you know what it means to come undone to be consumed by darkness to lose the very light that shines from behind the eyes be kind we are in this together each one of us has a story one might have to ask the bearded man why they call him the prophet if it isn t already clear i ve explored the questions and what has resonated most is the notion that the worth of a man could be summed by how much of his own life he is willing to give to help another a sentimental father whom gives up his own freedom and fortune so his children can raise their children in a manner which he holds dear to his heart a man who gives away his precious time and money to tend to an ill and grieving mother while he is grief stricken himself a soldier willing to fight for our freedom despite the threat of paying with his life what about the worth of the lives of our beautiful children unsuspectingly fractured from this existence does not the absence of youthful vitality laughter innocence and dreams paradoxically illuminate that which it means to be alive how could we possibly remain bitter and waste that which they have tragically lost the sweetness of life the absolute sacrifice let her fire ignite the spirit within the depth of darkness to which you can descend and still live is an exact measure of the height to which you can aspire to reach pliny the elder posted on january 7 2015 january 18 2015 by whispersfromthewillows posted in grief life love sacrifice tragedy tagged compassion darkness death of a child insight kindness rising from grief suffering worth of a man 2 comments angel december 25 2014 my angel i think that i write better half cracked on eggnog it s a bit early for that but i appear to be on my third coffee and bailey s and it s not even sunday a gaggle of beautiful girls all legs and tears just left my house when they come around i feel you close i love being one of them we gathered around our tree and spent precious time talking about boys inspiring dreams and distant lands i could almost hear your laughter with shared misadventures and pending interventions it reminds me of the last conversation that we had sitting around two cups of coffee beneath a warm april sun we shared so many stories that day not a word was left unsaid and the last three words we shared were i love you how thankful i am for our last embrace and for three little words i love your friends they are my friends now i read somewhere that we must strive to lead a robust life but if we have to die then it needs to be even more spectacular than our life once lived you lived your magnificent life all eyelashes and twirling of your glorious hair your laughter was unobstructed and your opinions were not withheld your passion and commitment was undeniable it is not about what we have gathered as in the end it does not matter what matters is how well we lived and the impact made upon some hearts what matters is the richness of our story and if we made the world just a little bit better you seemed to know it was your time in the way that you gathered friends tied most of your ends and said your farewells however did you have to exit so swiftly and with such flamboyance for the last nineteen years christmas and your birthday has been wrapped into one extraordinarily beautiful present i cried then and i still cry on this very day but with tears we know that we are still here and still attached to life is it not better to shed a million tears from the fracture of a beating heart then never to weep and feel nothing at all it is said that pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses our own understanding and that the hand though heavy and hard is guided by the tender hand of the unseen and that the cup he may bring has been fashioned by clay moistened by his own sacred tears kahlil gibran in the land of the living it is difficult to get one s head wrapped around such philosophy when the heart still aches but exiting this life precisely upon my mother s birthday just does not feel like an unfortunate coincidence in those moments upon the road i could almost see her greet you with wide open arms it is the one fact that gave me solace before i became unravelled you caused quite a ruckus by the way with rain like tears shed from all whom have departed before you and a bellowing earth shattering quake it was an easter that i will never forget you are our angel now you visited a friend of mine whom before those weeks i had never ever met we are separated by 10 000 km of sea tami she said does the name eddie mean anything to you once again the blood drained from my face yes quite significantly i said filled with visions of you he had not entered my mind in these days i m not sure i can tell you this she stammered and stuttered for the first time in my life i saw my sister when we were meditating upon the beach sydney also came to me and asked me to give you a message i told her that i could not sydney said tell my mom i love her i told her that i was not able that i was not strong enough she said to me like all that could only be you your daughter did not give up finally she told me that you said to her just say eddie she ll know that this is real once i closed my mouth again i told her the story of how you came into the world due precisely on christmas day your teachers would not be surprised to hear you were always just a little bit late you were there again when a car spun through the air and your friend walked away unharmed you were there in the dark of night when his eyes wide awake would not blink for fear of losing you again i felt your warmth upon my chest and your embrace around my neck when you came with gratitude for taking good care of your beloved black pony you are there with all of us as we struggle through darkness but delight in the dawn of each new day there are times in our lives when our hearts can be blown apart but if we let the pieces attach where they please we just might find that we welcome the changes what would an angel be if she didn t also watch over our spiritual growth all of us feel love so much more 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