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on the hump elbows on the back of the front seat and watching the world go by through the front windshield back before the government found the revenue stream in mandatory seat belt laws times were simpler and there was still a little wonder and awe left in the world this was back in the day before the lawyers and licensing fees killed using nationally recognized characters in local advertising runs you can see a nod to that in the movie a christmas story where the wonderful world of oz characters get in a tiff with mickey mouse and disney characters in the parade i n the 60s you could see plenty of it in local advertising it was a tit for tat where the local guy got some recognition from using a nationally known character and the parent company got free publicity for their characters which they re released every eight or nine years which brings us to the item at hand snow white and the seven dwarfs was re released in 1967 i was 4 years old at the time and i don t remember if i saw it at the drive in or the indoor theater but it was about that time that the houses and plywood cut outs of snow white and the dwarfs showed up in a clearing at the corner of silas creek pkwy and reynolda rd i remember i would get so excited to see them when we drove out that way eventually it became a yearly christmas tradition for our family to go drive by and see the little houses decked out for christmas there was a blue house a yellow house i believe a red on and a green one or maybe one of them was white any who it was a landmark in winston salem in the late 60s early 70s this past fall i caught a glimpse of them one day when driving down reynolda road and told myself i needed to stop in and document what i could before they were torn down or completely rotted away today i made it a point to stop and go take some pics i parked over in reynolda village and crossed reynolda road at one of the busiest times of the day but it didn t matter i was on a mission to visit a piece of my childhood 46 years after the fact it was surreal as i stood there looking at the little houses that had so fascinated me as a little boy as i took photos the memories of those drive by encounters with the houses and characters i had seen as a child kept flooding my memories now here i was visiting them for the first time almost a half century later i was a bit shocked and excited to see one lone character still keeping guard over the little buildings a christmas choir boy it was as if live wire was laid across my memories recharging them and given them new life there he was just as i remembered the christmas scene from so long ago i did not disturb him i merely captured him for posterity these days i find myself reminiscing more and more i have more days behind me than i do ahead and my mind seeks refuge from the storms of modernity i know i can t go back but i find comfort in the past my past times were just a bad but our response to them was different i wasn t old enough at the time to understand viet nam the civil rights movement and the sexual revolution i only knew my family and the good times we shared in taking a simple drive every so often to view and to share in the art of someone s handiwork who had created a visual fantasy that a small boy found joy in seeing and an old man enjoyed finally meeting face to face read full post politics posted in government just thinking life manipulation propaganda questions social commentary spin thinking war world events tagged culture media politics programming propaganda questions on tuesday january 31 2017 leave a comment tonight i did something i ve never done before on social media i lost it and went off on a rant i m so tired of the selective memory and selective outrage from everyone about everything and i m afraid that is what the social engineers are hoping for in order to further divide and tear down our society i fear the damage is already done and we are on the edge of the collapse of american culture for years we have been pitted against one another black on white on brown on red on yellow male v female old v young haves v have nots republicans v democrats atheists v christian muslim v christian everyone v christian christian v christian you name it if you can put a label on it then they are against someone or someone is against them and we just sat back and let it happen we as a people were more worried about our comfort our ease or our entertainment our statuses our mundane crap we let it happen to us edward bernays pegged it right in his book propaganda the conscious and intelligent manipulation of the organized habits and opinions of the masses is an important element in democratic society those who manipulate this unseen mechanism of society constitute an invisible government which is the true ruling power of our country we are governed our minds are molded our tastes formed our ideas suggested largely by men we have never heard of this is a logical result of the way in which our democratic society is organized vast numbers of human beings must cooperate in this manner if they are to live together as a smoothly functioning society that s hard to hear but one only need look at our society these days social media has already been caught experimenting with the social media networks so it is not some conspiracy theory or theoretical fantasy we have all fallen victim of our own personal biases and with the ubiquitous tool of social media we want to proselytize as many other to our way of thinking as we possibly can of course each of us believe that we are in the right and that we are the open minded ones therefore we cannot be wrong i feel it may be time to leave social media for an extended sabbatical i can see that i have been affected by the constant barrage of social network activism from both sides the war is upon us we have met the enemy and he is us read full post you can t go home posted in baseball family just thinking life memories nostalgia thinking uncategorized tagged baseball memories reminiscing saturdays in the park on tuesday january 31 2017 leave a comment it was like going back in time that s only the 2nd time i ve been back there in 38 years the memories were so thick i couldn t process it all i was overwhelmed standing there on the soil that had shaped so much of my childhood i could hear the sounds of days gone by smell the hot dogs cooking at the snack bar hear the banter on the fields feel my cleats digging in at the plate the pitch the swing the ring of my favorite old red aluminum bat as it made contact the feel of it knowing i got all of that one as i head down the line towards first so many saturdays were spent on those fields i got choked up seeing they honored my old coach bob dalton by naming the complex after him so many memories both good and bad flood my head the feelings that accompany those memories are coming at me to fast to process i stand there under the now giant oak trees and remember they were only saplings back then my dad stood along the fence over there and i have to leave before i start crying everyone knows there s no crying in baseball it s all i can do to choke back the memories and the emotions that accompany them to my son i apologize for being so damned selfish and disguising it as righteous holier than thou religious bullshit in not allowing you to have the memories i have from playing baseball i hope you can forgive such a selfish old man read full post a crap load of epiphanies posted in gobbledygook just thinking life livable philosophy pudder shadows thinking time and effort toxic faith uncategorized worldviews tagged acceptance aging attitude lack of planning self time on wednesday january 25 2017 leave a comment ever have an epiphany i just did i had a freaking crap storm of them it just dawned on me that in my youth i never expected to live to see my 35th birthday so i never planned on anything after that nothing zip ziltch nada no financial plan no career plan no retirement plan just work until i die so according to my original calculations i should have not made it to 35 then my adjusted calculations said i d never make 45 since my dad died at 44 yeah that came and went as well the final calculations begin this year when i hit 54 the same as as my grandfather when he died and please nobody give me the whole it s in god s hands spiel i know it as well as anyone because i m still freaking here yep here i am here i am indeed funny how life doesn t go according to plan eh epiphany 2 is this if things are never going to change why waste the effort in attempting to make a change and please spare me the the self help self actualizing crap about only you can prevent forest fires philosophy nope don t believe that any longer either time is not on my side there is more behind me now than there is in front of me and all the best is in the rear view there may be some good days here and there in what s ahead but it will be neither quantity nor quality and that s just the facts that s not pity talking it is reality and that was epiphany 3 so here s to the days ahead i know not what they bring i ll face them one at a time and make the most of what is left with what i have left a job yeah yeah yeah i m thankful for it but i hate it that sucks the joy out of me a neglected body that will probably never recover from the damage done to this point and an attitude and please don t lecture me about attitude and how i can change it i ve lived with it this long so i m f ing comfortable with it i tried to reprogram for the past four years and i m just tired of trying life s too short to eat crab legs too much effort and not enough reward just do what is comfortable and hope for the best and that s it for now i m just weary bone freaking weary read full post returning to where i left off posted in exercise just thinking learning life livable philosophy questions social commentary thinking time and effort tagged culture learning media questions on tuesday january 10 2017 1 comment while recuperating i am trying to return to reading more and getting back to learning i am finding that reading is a discipline akin to working out it requires a concerted effort to guide my mind back into reading mode much like returning to running after years of non running where my body had forgotten how to run i find my mind has grown fat and lazy it prefers the junk food found in social media rather than the solid nutrition found in literature art and story so then my exercise regime is to ease my mind back into reading i find my mind is hungry for substance for ideas for things that will cause me to grow rather than waste away on the junk food found in our technological cornucopia of social media and instant infotainment i find myself wondering if i have waited too long to get back to learning am i too old is it too late no no it is a matter of discipline it will take work and it will not be easy there are many distractions in this day of instant internet and entertainment access it was an epiphany to realize that i had allowed myself to become seduced by easy technology to be ensnared by the entertainment at my fingertips in the device i now carry with me everywhere i go my mind has become addicted to soundbite to bumper sticker snippets and click bait headlines all fluff and no substance i have therefore decided to impose some self discipline and require myself to read for at least one hour each day in practicing that today my mind realized the shallowness of what i have been consuming for far too long and it realized the emptiness of time wasted in cheap entertainment pursuits with which i have intoxicated myself cheap entertainment pursuits that require no thought have left my mind numb and in desperate need of more nourishing substance i hope to incorporate more classical literature in my routine as well as my mind training progresses i just know that at this moment my mind is starving for something more that the mind numbing dribble that i ve been feeding it for the past several years it s not too late to begin again and learn it s not too late to feed my mind and soul in the words of one of my favorite movies i offer this quote while the truncheon may be used in lieu of conversation words will always retain their power words offer the means to meaning and for those who will listen the enunciation of truth so i begin again on tap for now on writing well william zinsser wabi sabi for writers richard r powell the gentle art of verbal self defense suzette haden elgin finding your perfect work paul and sarah edwards pierre or the ambiguities herman melville brain power practical ways to boost your memory creativity and thinking capacity laureli blyth 30 steps to becoming a writer and getting published scott edelstein the bible esv study translation read full post hope posted in dance just thinking sunday mornings thinking tagged beauty hope image life on sunday october 16 2016 leave a comment the morning air was a nearly perfect sixty five degrees with only a slight breeze ideal conditions to be out on the road a day worth remembering i hate i have lost so much of my sense of smell as i would love to capture the aroma of this early fall day in my memory bank as well i m asking things of my body that it doesn t like especially since it still has too much weight to be carrying around the body is fighting against itself and the mind while the soul is just weary of it all yet even amidst the turmoil within me i am struck by a moment of grand beauty in the middle of a pain concert raging in my feet legs back and lungs i stop for a moment to watch a squadron of maple leaves launch from their branch and be carried along on a gentle current watching as they spiral down in the morning sunlight twirling and twisting in a death dance celebration of their short life the sun spotlighting them highlighting their performance for that brief moment time seemed to stop and allow me to take it in the sound of the leaves rustling on the trees the feel of sun on my skin the breeze gently caressing my face a moment of pure beauty in the midst of an internal storm a reminder that no matter how out of control things seem to get there is hope because there is beauty because there is beauty i know there is love because there is love i have hope read full post i stand at the gate posted in just thinking life livable philosophy questions shadows sound and fury thinking time and effort tagged image on monday october 10 2016 leave a comment my story would begin in darkness though not total darkness but not romantic moonlit darkness either it would be more the darkness that accompanies a storm the kind that diffuses the the light and casts strange shadows across the land the kind that causes the street lamps to come on at mid day i stand at the gate looking out at the road that lies before me uncertain which direction to go from here do i open the gate and step through or do i run back to 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