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legal restrictions can anyone guess to whom he would like to expand this policy why to fat people of course why is it unfair he asked has anyone ever shown the law of conservation of matter doesn t apply people s weight is a reflection of how much they eat and how active they are the country has grown fat because it s consuming more calories and burning fewer our national weight problem brings huge costs both medical and economic yet our anti obesity efforts have none of the urgency of our antismoking efforts we should declare obesity a disease and say we re going to help you get over it cosgrove said oh i don t know dr cosgrove maybe it s unfair because a person s body size is none of your fucking business even if we discount the fact that there is a genetic component to body size the idea that you should be able to govern the size of your employee s asses is insane what would you do if you hired someone who you felt was of an acceptable weight who later gained weight suspend them until they lost weight fire them if they couldn t or didn t want to the debate over health care reform has so far revolved around how insurers drug companies doctors nurses and government technocrats might be persuaded to change their behavior and for the sake of the economy and the federal budget they do need to change their behavior but there has been far less discussion about how the rest of us might also change our behavior it s as if we have little responsibility for our own health we instead outsource it to something called the health care system oh yes of course that is one of the major problems of our health care system it isn t that insurance companies are using every trick in the book to avoid paying for necessary treatments or that drug companies are doing everything they can to make a huge profit off of illness and suffering it s that people just don t care enough about their health not to be fat because according to a study referenced on the left side of this very article 9 1 of the annual health care costs in the united states are obesity related yes that s right less than 10 of our health care costs go towards treating these so called obesity related problems including heart disease and diabetes if not for that ten percent of costs everything would be a fucking field of flowers everyone would have all the health care they need and no one would ever die let s ignore the fact that the top risk factor for heart disease is increasing age and that increased age is also a risk factor for developing diabetes and that our population of people over age 65 tripled from 1990 2000 and has been growing ever since i m sure that an increasing older population has nothing to do with the increase in the cost of treating heart disease and diabetes it is all those lazy fatties who clench their teeth shut when presented with a vegetable not to mention that even this article acknowledges that you probably aren t paying the costs of your fat coworkers health care cosgrove mentioned to me an idea that some economists favor charging higher health insurance premiums to anyone with a certain body mass index harsh yes fair you can see the argument and yet it turns out that the obese already do pay something resembling their fair share of medical costs albeit in an indirect way overweight workers are paid less than similarly qualified thinner colleagues according to research by jay bhattacharya and m kate bundorf of stanford the cause isn t entirely clear but the size of the wage difference is roughly similar to the size of the difference in their medical costs certainly one of the causes is fairly clear to anyone with two brain cells to rub together fat hatred fat people are repeatedly categorized as being lazier sloppier and dumber than thin people and it is often claimed that they cost the healthcare system more money than thin people considering the widespread nature of these beleifs are we really that suprised that employers are paying fat workers less than their thin colleagues but that isn t enough for people like cosgrove in spite of this study he still wants to find a way to charge fat people more for their insurance if he can t avoid hiring them all together if they are already paying their fair share do to the decrease in pay and this assumes that the alleged increased costs of obesity are true though as i showed above that is also complicated why should they also be penalized with higher health insurance premiums cosgrove s would be approach may have its problems the obvious one is its severity the more important one is probably its narrowness not even one of the nation s most prestigious hospitals can do much to reduce obesity the government however can and that is the great virtue of cosgrove s idea he is acknowledging that any effort to attack obesity will inevitably involve making value judgments and even limiting people s choices most of the time the government has no business doing such things but there is really no other way to cure an epidemic control that s why the end of this article brings me right back to my original point it isn t about increased costs or keeping people healthy this is just one more thing that those in power would like to control if they can keep us all worried about not being able to find a job because we are fat than we won t dare to worry about being overworked and undercompensated we won t speak up about a stressful work environment or a lack of vacation time we will be too busy worrying about keeping ourselves acceptable enough to remain employed someone will decide for us what is important in our lives and what we are entitled to have and if we don t agree well that will just have to be too bad people worry that a single payer healthcare system would be a step on the road to the government dictating what sort of treatment we would get punishing those they deemed unacceptable well as you can see that s already possible when everything is about profit and cost those things that supposedly cost the most are going to be the first things people try to cut down this is why we need to move towards a system that is based around caring for people not making money by denying those who need help dating the other august 14 2009 posted by jae in dating relationships fat intersectionality tags dating fat feminism intersectionality online dating relationships 6 comments today i let my subscription to match com expire without having even been on one date this is not my first time on the online dating carousel though i ve never had much luck at it mostly because i would chicken out before meeting up with anyone i corresponded with i did have a brief semi relationship with a guy i met on yahoo personals once he was nice but the two of us just weren t in the right place so things didn t work out perhaps another reason for my lack of luck with online dating was that i never contacted anyone who i found interesting i just waited for men to contact me back in the day i was too shy and insecure to make the first move even online and i told myself that if i didn t act that just meant that the right guy was going to come to me this time around i decided not to be so passive about things i promised myself i would contact anyone who i thought sounded interesting sadly i didn t run across a whole lot of guys who really tickled my fancy but what i did find was a whole lot of support for society s standard notion of beauty on match com every profile you view is assigned a sort of compatibility percentage it tells you how many traits you share with that individual s ideal match and vice versa ninety nine percent of the time if i was a near perfect match with someone the reason that i wasn t a perfect match was that i had described my body type as a few extra pounds among those who specified a preferred body type i never came across anyone who was willing to go any higher than that and most didn t go higher than average something else troubling that i noticed the amount of men who if they checked a preferred ethnicity often selected a preference for white women or women of a background considered by our culture to be exotic i e asian native american and or middle eastern occasionally latina women were included but the rarest of all stated preferences at least in my limited research seemed to be for african american women the message here is clear there is the beautiful the thin white or exotic women and there is the other this isn t really news to anyone i m sure it certainly wasn t news to me but it really drove home the fact that even seemingly slight things like checking a preferred race or body type box on a dating website continues to help perpetuate a culture where women are simply objects so many people think that hatred is always something huge and obvious like an unapologetic white supremacist or a person who thinks that disabled people should be euthanized what they fail to realize is that subtle actions are what allow these larger than life examples to grow i can already hear the objections it s just a personal preference i m just not attracted to insert culturally unacceptable feature here it s not racist or sizeist and that may be true for the individual person however what people don t often consider is that when an individual has a preference that just happens to fall in line with what is considered culturally attractive there is some question as to why they hold that particular preference speaking only from my own experience as a white cisgendered able bodied moderately fat woman i can say that i received some notes or winks from men who had said that they were not interested in women my size i included a full body picture of myself and indicated that i was heavier than average so there is little chance they missed this fact i can only assume that those men either a were contacting anyone and everyone to see what would stick or b they looked at my picture and decided that i really wasn t too fat for comfort but yet before they saw me they had it in their minds already that they wouldn t want to meet anyone who dared tick a few extra pounds as their body type which leads me to believe it isn t totally about a personal attraction but that they like most everyone alive have taken a cue from the world they live in about what they should find attractive and more importantly worthwhile before they read my profile and decided they liked my sense of humor or thought i had pretty eyes or seemed engaging they decided that no one with my body could be any of those things or that if they were those things that those things were less important than being conventionally attractive for example i have a friend who i fell for when we first met and eventually he told me that he liked me too he told me that he had been feeling pretty lousy about life but that spending time with me made him forget anything was wrong we stayed up into the wee hours of the morning just talking we made everyday trips to run errands into all day hangouts we talked baseball we talked literature we talked art but when it came time to do something about it he balked he didn t tell me it was because i wasn t thin or because i was white i later found out that the only white girls he has ever dated were either foreign or punk rock type girls though it is important to note he is not a punk rock type boy but he didn t have to because i ve seen the girls he s dated since they have all been very thin and all been considered exotic for one reason or another and i ve seen him compromise on things he considered important to date them it s the look of the person that matters most for him and who that person is clearly comes in second in our case it didn t matter in the end how much we clicked because i wasn t what he was supposed to want and on the other hand it also doesn t matter if these beautiful women he dates are smart or dig the same kind of music he does he appreciates those qualities but wouldn t miss them if they were absent because they are beautiful those are the kinds of choices we make about furniture or clothes we ll wear a pair of pinchy high heels instead of our comfiest sneakers on a job interview and while we re at it we ll buy a business suit that we wouldn t wear otherwise because we want to look professional so we can land the job but making those kinds of choices about who to fall in love with or hell who to even just spend a couple of fun evenings with that equates people with an itchy sofa you bought because it matched the rest of the living room furniture and that is just fucking problematic i could write a whole nother post on how one is supposed to chose one s body type on such a site and how men are given a lot more leeway than women and maybe i will there is an interesting discussion on racialicious that talks about this from a race and ethnicity perspective but the post is nearly a year old if anyone knows of any others my googling skills have failed me here feel free to leave a link in the comments dear ny times fat people need clothes too august 12 2009 posted by jae in uncategorized tags fashion fat fat haters intersectionality add a comment dear mr hoyt i am writing you today in response to an article written by cintra wilson entitled playing to the middle which seems to be a review of sorts of the new j c penney in manhattan i do not know quite where to begin with this piece in short it was stunningly classist and bloated with thin priviledge and written with such a snide holier than thou tone that it was practically unreadable ms wilson s contempt for anyone above a size eight is clear while manhattan is a city of sleek fashions j c penney is dowdy and waddling around manhattan she mocks what she perceive to be the obese mannaquins and remarks that she is glad her size two self isn t really that interested in shopping there because j c penney s dare s to provide rack space to mid sizes like a ten and even the very smallest of the plus sizes a sixteen as a woman who wears a size 18 20 a size by the way that ms wilson suggests should be happy to spend 80 on a shapeless polyster sack i am sadly used to this sort of attitude i am used to hearing it in the halls of high schools out of the mouths of sixteen year old smart alecs and in the comments of internet postings i am highly disappointed to find it in the times everyone deserves to have something to wear that makes them feel good about themselves no matter if they are a size zero or a size 32 and what i disappoints me even further is the fact that aside from all the fat bashing in this article there is a lot of class bashing too even as ms wilson lauds what a great development this is for those who are not as she puts it stress thin morbidly workaholic pilates tortured manhattan ectomorphs she insults the clothes there are being not only fashionlesss but implies that wearing anything from there only signals that one is to be plain a loser and probably an 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