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s days nights confused right now which is making for a very sleepy mommy daddy adelyn is head over heels in love w her baby brother is such a mom to him however she is not thrilled w the attention he is getting from us and we are dealing w some acting out i know this is normal but i am feeling very guilty she is usually such a good girl so it is tough to see her act this way luckily her daddy is an amazing person has been working so hard at making sure she knows we still love her just as much while i m busy with wiley at the birth the assistant midwives daughter came to take pictures as per our request we haven t gotten all them yet but she did send us some sample shots that i absolutely love so i will share them one tired but very proud mama my gorgeous family proud big sister and here is our little man wiley james 40 4 weeks 7 50 pm posted by dawn 5 comments figured i d give a quick update i am now 4 days passed my due date am doing my best to remain optimistic the truth is i feel great physically i m still sleeping well my little man is healthy well but oh the emotional aspect is a doozy i ve done my research i know that there is nothing wrong w waiting however no one else has the pressure is immense my mom has been here since 12 1 leaves on fri so i hear every 2 min how sad she is or how bad she wishes she could be here i get it i m so beyond bummed she won t be but what can i do about it and if one more person asks me if i m going to get induced i might scream i know they mean well but i m so done explaining why i m not getting looked at like a crackhead to each their own i d never put my son at risk to me induction is more of a risk at this point than waiting i m only 4 days but each day feels like 3 i tell ya so the plan as of now is to wait til my next appt on mon 41 2 wks get a biophysical profile sono to make sure he is healthy fluid is good placenta is doing what it should i truly hope i don t make it that far but if i do i trust my midwife her plan for us i know she d never put us at risk i was only 1cm 50 effaced on mon so if i haven t progressed by than i may consider either getting a sweep or using castor oil but oh how i want to avoid both so pleeeeaaaase say a prayer for me that this little man makes his appearance soon i really want to have the homebirth we have our heart set on however i will do whatever is necessary to keep him healthy safe my 39th week 5 49 pm posted by dawn 6 comments ok so if you ve been there you know that last week before baby arrives is often filled w last minute preparation as many naps as possible that crazy burst of energy some of us get thanks to nesting at least this is how it went with addy i was so looking forward to this week tuning in to my body awaiting the arrival of our precious boy sadly this is not how it went on thurs night i started getting a somewhat annoying toothache in an old root canal this tooth has caused me issues in the past after seeing the dr about it in aug we learned that the crown was just poorly made but insurance wouldn t cover a new one til the summer so we put it back on in hopes that it would hold out once i woke up fri the pain had gotten pretty bad i made an appt went in the dr did an xray which i tried to avoid informed me the root canal had failed needed to be repaired unfortunately it was infected so i couldn t get it fixed until i was on antibiotics for at least 3 days he gave me a script for those 800mg ibuprofen an appt for tues morn 8am by noon that afternoon the pain was so bad but i had heard that ibuprofen was a big no no last tri so i called my midwife she said if i could handle the pain she would rather i stick w tylenol based products but that if i needed the ibuprofen for the swelling than it was ok to take it so i got it filled but then the pharmacist scared the crud out of me more telling me all the risks after that i asked my midwife for something else she called in tylenol 3 but reiterated that she was the midwife that if she said it was ok to take the ibuprofen that it was after dinner that night i was in a pain i didn t even know was possible not just did i take the ibuprofen but also the tylenol but nothing was working i read up learned that sadly most pain killers won t work until the antibiotics start working on the infection i suffered throughout the night called my dentist emergency line sat begging crying for him to help me he said that until the antibiotics start working he can t do any work apparently the novocaine would not take while there was an infection present the pain got so unbearable i ended up in the er that afternoon i was so desperate i didn t know what to do they gave me a dental block which numbed the side of my face gave me sweet relief but like my dentist explained it lasted less than 2 hrs by the time it wore off the pain was even worse during that time i was able to sleep some drink a yogurt smoothie at least they also gave me a script for vicodin but i just couldn t bring myself to take it and besides nothing else was working they also reiterated how unsafe ibuprofen was which did not help at this point i hadn t eaten anything substantial since my dinner fri night i was trying to drink smoothies but everything just hurt so bad baby boy would get so quiet any time i would take anything i m sure the lack of food sleep was not helping i slept on the couch sat night would alternate between the tylenol ibuprofen in an attempt to reduce the pain i cried for hours basically by sun morn it was as though the antibiotics finally started kicking in and the the meds started to help the pain however i had developed a huge abscess my entire face was swollen don t i look lovely i certainly wasn t pain free but the meds were working which helped me get through the day that night i actually slept waking only to take some meds to get through finally on mon i called the dentist went in he decided the tooth wasn t even worth saving he would remove the whole thing thankfully after 3 shots of novocaine the area was numb enough the tooth was removed naturally this helped with recovery but was sadly not the end of my pain things have slowly gotten better but some days are still pretty painful of all the meds the only thing that helps is the ibuprofen which i imagine is because it helps w the swelling i am down to taking only a normal advil a few times a day but still have extreme guilt nerves over it saw my midwife mon afternoon after the extraction she reiterated that baby would be fine also informed me i lost 4 lbs from last week luckily as of tues morn i ve been able to actually eat food the swelling has gone down a lot for some reason today has been super painful i m getting very discouraged i know my body will not allow me to go in to labor until i m better i m grateful for that but here i am 39 5 weeks suffering tooth pain i should be enjoying my time w addy before it s no longer just the 2 of us i know that things can only get better as i continue to heal i ve been trying to hold on to that please pray that this tooth heals completely before my due date in 2 days my mom has been in town since sun is here til the 13th that has been such a huge blessing but i would be so sad if she didn t get to see our little man or spend much time with him before needing to return home baby boy is starting to be more active again my bh contractions are back full force so i m taking this as a good sign i ve been so very worried about him so that s how i ve spent my 39th week of pregnancy not fun at all i m still here 8 56 pm posted by dawn 4 comments sorry i haven t updated in ages what an awful blogger i will be 38 weeks pregnant in 3 days say what only 17 more days til my little mans due date so how have things been going i have to say that this pregnancy is nothing like it was with addy the first trimester was pretty close which is why i was sure i was having another girl but once the 2nd tri came around there were quite a few differences and now holy cow do i miss my carefree comfy pregnancy i had with adelyn since around 30 weeks this little man has given me hell i did pretty well not complaining at first but nowadays not so much he is a lot stronger i m assuming bigger than addy was hurts like a bugger when he moves which is a lot but it s so hard to complain when you feel your little miracle moving inside of you i had some minor preterm labor issues around 34 weeks but things have settled down thankfully in order to have a homebirth i needed to make it to 37 weeks so i m glad we are there now i still have days where the contractions are pretty intense but they always subside my midwife thinks if he doesn t come early he should at least come fast i ll take either at this point or both in the typical oversharing department i am dealing with some terrible hemorrhoids this is by far my biggest complaint they came out of nowhere man they are just wrong terrified how this will play out once i have him even with this not being the most comfortable pregnancy i will still miss having this little one inside of me the truth is who knows if i ll get to do this again so i m just trying to cherish every moment i m so excited though to hold him for addy to meet her little brother i am not sure how she is going to handle it heck i m not sure how any of us will but i m praying she is excited she talks about him all the time kisses or rubs my belly constantly i have a lot of fear about how i m going to give her the attention she needs while taking care of the baby too i know this is natural remind myself that millions of women do it all the time when we moved in to our new house in sept the whole thing had been remodeled except the nursery it took us ages but after putting up new walls floors trim painting installing a door it is done i m in love with it it really was a labor of love for my hubby i now i will leave you with some pics hubby took most with his cell so they re not great 37 weeks from the door left of the door the nursery bedding my mom sis got and of course my beautiful girl seems wrong 10 41 am posted by dawn 7 comments that i should be so sad today this day last year i had just found out our poppy girl had passed the day before 10 5 scheduled my d s for the next day 10 7 i was newly moved far away from family friends my marriage was in a terrible place w only more struggles to come there was so much emptiness tears this year i am exactly 31 weeks pregnant in a gorgeous new home w a beautiful happy 2 yo excited to meet her baby brother my marriage is stronger than ever yet here i am filled w grief on the anniversary of our loss it is cold rainy here hubby is on day 6 of an 8 day stretch so i m sure none of that is helping i really just want this weekend to be over i m trying to focus on all the positive but if i have to be honest it s proving harder than i had hoped hormones are playing a huge part so in an attempt to help me i m going to update you all as to how things are going this should help me remember all the good i now have like i said we are 31 wks pregnant can t believe we are in the single digits as far as the number of weeks remaining we are very slowly getting prepared for our baby boys arrival although every other room in our new house has been renovated the nursery had not been touched in god knows how long we tried to do the work ourselves but between the lack of time talent we finally gave in and hired a contractor he was awesome a christian we were blessed w the amazing work he did the fee he charged so now all the nursery needs is to be primed painted carpet installed oh a door but we have walls hopefully when hubby is off this tues wed we can get cracking on that the house is more than i ever could ve asked for i still walk around almost a month after moving in thinking this is really ours i love it it s got so much space amazing property we did require a crash course in pool closing which was our first trial as homeowners but with the help of friends we were successful moving while expecting is tough we waited to buy anything for the baby until we moved but boy does buying things for a new home a new baby at the same time become expensive thankfully my husband is amazing w finances continues to reassure me that all will be fine needless to say i can t wait until tax return season lol adelyn has adjusted better than i could ve imagined i was so nervous she would start pulling again she loves showing everyone her new room and in her new room now is her big girl bed she hasn t actually slept in it yet we bought it set it all up but are waiting to move her in to it she plays on it we talk about her sleeping in it i am aiming to try naps on it this week please pray it goes smoothly i hope to have her adjusted to it way before the baby s arrival so that she isn t sad that he s in her crib we finally saw the specialists regarding her hair pulling other sensory issues it went so very well we saw a dr that was just perfect for us she gave us some suggestions we are going to see an ot on tues who will give us more i am excited to have the knowledge to handle any issues as they come up she talks about her baby brother all day loves giving him my big ol belly hugs kisses when she actually feels him kick is hysterical her eyes get so huge she screams i love her so much am terrified of how she is going to handle his arrival though but that is a whole other post for another time and amongst all the blessings god has given me are the new blessings here in blogland i m know i don t update often but i m always checking many of you ladies will always have a special place in my heart when i hear your good news it brings me so much joy i am beyond thrilled to learn of 3 new pregnancies and am praying every day for your little ones of course i m always thinking of those still struggling as well this did help over 3 years later this blog is still the one place i can go to as an outlet moving forward 2 59 pm posted by dawn 8 comments so i ve gone on here ready to write an update what seems like a hundred times either as soon as i do i 1 get distracted by something else online 2 get distracted by something else that needed to get done or 3 get lazy so i am not budging until this is done things here are really going great i am living this life i feel like i definitely don t deserve god has been so very good to us i am grateful for his provisions above beyond what we need adelyn is growing like a weed talks more than any other 2 often 3 year old i ve yet to meet she has always been advanced in her speech but it still amazes the heck out of me she is tall thin like her daddy too we still have her rear facing get tons of crap for it too we were trying to wait until she hit 30lbs but being as she was 1oz shy of 25lbs 2 wks ago is in the 80th percentile for height we are thinking we will have to turn her in dec or sooner so that we can fit the 2 car seats in our smaller sized vehicles she is so much fun at this age we are 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