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there because my gut is telling me they won t be able to tell me anything new that they ll say i just need to try again while we cross our fingers how long will they tell me that how many more losses will result in that very same approach i think i have one more in me then i ve reached my limit i just can t do this to myself any more 4 losses are more than any one should ever have to go through and 5 is an even more overwhelming number i realize this has been just one long release of emotions but they ve been bottled up in me for a while now because i ve been working so much i ve had no time to get it out and that s what this blog is supposed to be for i m afraid the re is in for an emotional meeting with a very upset patient in a few hours i can t believe i m at this point where i need help doing this how did i get here comments 15 comments categories anger doctor fear frustration miscarriage ramblings enter journey song title here 22 jul the genetic counseling appointment turned out nothing like i expected it would actually that s a lie the part where i had a feeling they ve already done all the genetic testing they can do was completely right on but the part that i didn t expect was when towards the end of the conversation i mentioned that i had been looking on the practice s website and saw a doctor who specialized in pregnancy loss and asked if i would be able to meet with her eventually she stepped out for a moment and stuck her head in the doctor s office and asked if she could meet me real quick the sweetest woman then stepped into the office and immediately took me back to hers to talk when i told her i had just had my fourth miscarriage she looked me in the eyes and said how sorry she was a doctor here s where it gets crazy she s had four miscarriages and is now pregnant and in her 2nd trimester the genetic counselor had given me a heads up about the pregnancy before she went to get her but none of that mattered after dr w told me her history i may have recently stopped believing in signs but this right here might have me questioning that choice or maybe it s a sign i should keep believing in signs we talked for almost half an hour free of charge she went over my history and discussed what my next steps most likely should be she gave me three names for reproductive endocrinologists that she recommended and thinks my insurance will even cover them she called my doctor that afternoon to tell her what she thought the course of action should be heparin progesterone and wants to see me as soon as i m pregnant until the 2nd trimester when she ll hand me back over to my ob i wanted to take her and her pregnant belly home with me i loved her so much what i thought was only going to be a step in the right direction turned out to be just what i needed i can t tell you how good it felt to be in an office of a doctor who knew everything i should do and what will most likely work by the end of the appointment i knew she was already rooting for me i even felt like the counselor was in my corner and see that necklace above maybe i need to start believing again necklace is from kyri at littlejarofhearts i bought the last one of it s kind but please do go and check out her stuff because she s a real sweetheart i bought an exact version of this necklace for a friend of mine that said hope and then decided i needed one as well but all she had available was believe apropos no the hope necklace went to one of my best friends s who just experienced her first and hopefully last miscarriage a few weeks ago i was devastated when i found out because i honestly thought i had taken all of the miscarriages away from our group of friends shouldn t four have that benefit apparently it doesn t work that way i just didn t want any one else i love to experience this pain it s just not fair if you can send her some love and strength i love her dearly and remember all too well how it feels after that first one and you need hope any where you can get it i love you s i m here for you i love my doctor but even she ll admit someone else might be able to help me more at this point comments 7 comments categories doctor finally girlfriends photo the next step 20 jul tomorrow i m going to meet with a genetic counselor as our first step in having to do this with assistance it s been a long time getting to this point and even though i m still pissed that my body can t do what it s supposed to naturally i m looking forward to finding out what our options are although i ve been in this world for almost two years now i have no idea where to start i guess because up until now i haven t had to look further than crossing our fingers and jumping in this part of the world is overwhelming i just hope i can keep it together enough tomorrow to have a coherent conversation hopefully they re used to tearful meetings being that this is their specialty i don t know even know what to expect from a genetic counselor have any of you seen one what are they even going to test for mine and the hubby s chromosomes have already been cleared as compatible what s left at least it s a start i need to put my big girl pants on and be okay with where this path is going now it s just that they re really hard pants to fit into and they certainly don t look nearly as comfortable updated the genetic counselor is at a perinatal practice i guess that is important to know thanks eggsinarow comments 9 comments categories doctor growing cysts like a champ since 2010 12 apr turns out that cyst on my left ovary didn t go away like i had previously thought instead of going away it grew to 4 25 cm and is now a hemorrhaging cyst on my left ovary so in other words just another day for courtney the good news is that there is still blood flow to the ovary which means as of now there s no risk of torsion like i feared i just have to wait to see what my doctor wants to do which will be either wait it out or surgery i m fearing it will burst again before we even have a chance to decide that wouldn t be all that bad in and of itself i know i can handle the torture pain if it does i m just worried about excess scarring at this point after almost half a dozen of these my ovary must be looking like a war zone by now then of course there was this as i was giving the technician my history i mentioned that i ve already had cysts during both my most recent pregnancies she said oh well at least you have 2 cute babies to make up for it ouch i must be used to comments like these at this point because after the initial blow and my honest reveal of the truth i quickly transitioned back to talking about my cysts it helped that she was really helpful in describing things to me something i don t find common among technicians i just really wish they would include all of my history on the orders the doctors send in to avoid comments like that the best part of the visit was that i saw follicles of varying maturity on my right ovary i can t tell you what a relief this is i really thought that my right ovary wasn t functioning because of ole lefty stealing the show i m on cd11 so it was perfect timing for follicles and i couldn t have been happier to see them and know that at least that part of my body is functioning properly i m really glad i went in to get checked out even though it didn t necessarily tell me anything i wasn t already familiar with it was just such a different pain than the normal cysts pain that i usually experience so i think i had the right to be weary i m proud of myself for going i usually wait these things out maybe i m turning a new proactive leaf oh and in case you were wondering my uterus is still the most beautiful uterus in the whole wide world and the tech told me i got an a in water consumption it s good to know i at least excel in something i may not be any good at baby making but at least i can fill a bladder like nobody s business go me comments 8 comments categories bodily confusion doctor where i ask you to be my dr google 11 apr for over a year now since my february miscarriage i ve had painful ovarian cysts for a while there it would hinder everything i did it felt as if someone was holding onto my ovary and wouldn t let go as i walked away from them they went away for a while but then came back again in full force i ve had 5 bursts now all on which i believe were on my left side you all know that last cycle i had a 38 day cycle something that has never happened to me before i took about 5 pregnancy tests so i wasn t pregnant but i had a cyst i could feel it as far as i know it dissolved and didn t burst because once i got my period the pain went away i also had a cyst the cycle before now i have a new pain it s different than my cyst pain because it s lower it s still on the left side but it feels like it s in a different location than my ovaries it s been here for a few days now ranging from annoying to almost gone to back with a vengeance so much so that i just called to make an appointment with radiology and i m going in at 3 30 i m scared it s a new pain that making my mind wander to not so pleasant diagnoses it s pulsing and i don t like that one bit has anyone had this i know i m not explaining it very well but i don t even know how to describe it all i know is it s lower than where my normal cyst pain is but from what i can tell from anatomy charts there s not much directly below our ovaries but ligaments and bone and it s not in my uterus i just don t know how much more of this i can handle i want my body back comments 12 comments categories bodily confusion doctor your liver has daddy issues 9 apr two months ago i met with an acupuncturist for the first time in over a year the last time i saw one it was for the cysts that appeared during my pregnancy in february of 2010 after i miscarried they left me with a severe amount of pain and the only thing western medicine wanted to do for me was put me on birth control not exactly something i wanted to do considering we were trying to have a baby it worked the cysts started to go away and i got pregnant again a few months later fast forward to this year and another miscarriage and i felt the desire to go again i needed to know i was doing everything i could to prepare my body for another pregnancy and hopefully get the next one to stick some friends of mine had been urging me to go to this particular acupuncturist for a while so i finally made the call he happens to be in the same exact office as my therapist so that makes it an building devoted just to my healing i figured it was a sign the first time i saw him it was the week of my due date and anniversary of my second miscarriage it was near impossible to control the tears as i m sure you can imagine but i felt like it was the perfect time to try and make a change after an initial conversation of my history and my reason for seeing him i hopped up on the table while he felt my pulse he explained to me what causes a miscarriage according to chinese medicine he started by describing how they view each organ with it s own personality but each working towards the same goal of keeping the body alive among them all the liver is kind of the big shot the liver helps controls the blood supply and determines where is should flow and it plays a key role in a pregnancy when a woman miscarries it s because the liver feels the pregnancy is compromising the blood supply to the rest of the organs and shuts the pregnancy down so in other words it believes the pregnancy is threatening the health of the rest of the body and it does something about it what a jerk he asked me a few more questions regarding my liver trying to put the puzzle pieces together on why my liver would do that one of those questions was what my relationship with my dad is because apparently the liver is a good indication of how you feel about your father i am very lucky to have a great dad that i have a wonderful relationship with so for me that wasn t it but i did find that rather amusing that various relationships in your life take a toll on specific parts of your body i wonder who is in charge of the reproductive system because whoever that is i need to mend that quickly in essence our goal will be to trick the liver into thinking that at around 8 weeks that the pregnancy is actually beneficial to my body rather than detrimental like it has thought in the past he had no idea what he had given me with this simple idea for over a year i had been angry at the fact that during my last pregnancy i had spent so much time envisioning a healthy and inviting environment in my womb for my baby and it did nothing i had honestly believed it would make a difference only to be proven completely wrong what was the point then i had thought but now if this were true it all made sense i had done the right thing all along maybe my positive thinking had given the baby a healthy place to grow but that bully liver took over and stopped it i could finally let myself off the hook i realize to some this may sound like a bunch of crap but i m willing to believe him and there was something specific that really convinced me during each ultrasound in the past year every technician or doctor has told me i have a great looking uterus while my acupuncturist was doing his exam he looked into my ear and said well your uterus looks great besides the fact he was looking in my ear and could see my uterus and that in itself is just crazy that was all i needed to hear i could believe him there s hope my uterus will allow a pregnancy to thrive i think he s going to be able to help me i truly believe in his power and at this point i ll do anything even if that means dressing head to toe in green it s the color of the liver or calling my dad every day to tell him i love him i ll do it so far western medicine isn t proving very much to me on its own i think i ll trust the man that can see my uterus through my ear hey there dad why aren t you looking awfully handsome today have i told you how much i love you not quite sure what a great looking uterus entails but i m beginning to question if they re all just judging the book by it s cover comments 8 comments categories acupuncture bodily confusion doctor me me me me oh february make up your mind 2 feb during the last few years february has been a heavy hitter for me let s review shall we february 8th 2011 due date for last pregnancy february 10th 2007 met love of my life february 11th 2010 miscarriage 2 february 16th 2011 first date with tim february 20 something 2008 got engaged so as you can see i ve had a love hate relationship with this month for the last 4 years life changing events have all occurred or were supposed to occur during this month and this is the types of thing i m convinced can t be a coincidence so of course next week is already shaping up to be a bit intense on monday i have therapy tuesday is my due date for my last pregnancy and also when i should be ovulating go figure wednesday is a...