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the paparella brood skip to main skip to sidebar the paparella brood writing in praise of god who gives and takes away thursday march 1 2012 rally this last month my family participated in a rally at the oregon state capital the midwives were there rallying for lower requirements and we were protesting them you see in oregon no midwife is required to carry a license and many do not it is one of only two states that allow this to further iterate that means anyone can say i am a midwife and charge money to attend human births that means there is no regulation for these woman and no accountability or consequences if they make mistakes we protested along family who have buried babies families that have babies who are permanently damaged from their births and woman who are permanently damaged from their births we have a huge bunch of 37 balloons representing babies that have died or been injured and mothers who have lost their wombs in their homebirth attempts here are pictures from the event posted by liz at 7 59 pm no comments labels crappy oregon midwives midwife malpractice tuesday february 7 2012 welcome hopefully now i might be able to post here more often over the last year i have been getting more and more anxious about posting on this blog so many negitive comments over the last two years has had it s toll i still want to share aquila s story but i don t want my entire life up for the public s review anymore we bought a domain just for aquila s story if anyone wants to help me transfer stuff over that would be great as far as news goes with us big things are happening at casa de paparella i found out a few weeks ago that i am expecting another little blessing my official due date is sept 26th and right now we are praying for a full term healthy baby also we learned about a month ago my last foster kiddos came back into care the little boy just turned three and the judge ordered a icpc started so that he can come here we would most likely be going towards adopting very quickly so we are looking at adding two permanent members to our family posted by liz at 9 26 am 1 comment labels fostering pregnancy friday december 23 2011 sad birthday posted late due to lack of internet happy sad birthday my little love aquila mommy misses you with a deep and aching pain i try to imagine your impish little 2 year old self bouncing through this small farmhouse house that smells of woodsmoke but even my imagination is fleeting i wonder what you would think of the green moss covering the trees if you would enjoying making dough ornaments with your sisters if you would be chasing after the kitties i wonder so many more things about you than i know i knew you for such a short time and yet here i will pine for you the rest of my life how unfair it all is aquila i am posting this today on the two year anniversary of the day i laid you in the ground posted by liz at 8 58 pm 12 comments labels aquila old farmhouse thursday november 17 2011 one day i will be a good blogger one day i will remember to update my blog on a regular basis one day i will be on top of everything not we have been busy finding and buying the perfect farm house here is what we found we should be moving into our own little house in the woods before december is underway and little willow is making big progress posted by liz at 7 57 am 11 comments labels farmhouse moving willow tuesday november 1 2011 guest post we have a friend and her son living with us here in oregon she asked me if she could write a guest post so here it is on anger let me tell you about the liz i know i have heard and seen people comment about how liz and other moms with hb losses is angry and bitter these people sometimes even family and friends say things from im worried about you your blog is so angry all the way to you are just an angry woman bitter and mean who cannot get over their loss and who wants to frighten others while a few are well meaning none seem to understand what is actually going on and don t get to see this family in action daily they misunderstand that her blogging is often a way to work through hurt pain and confusion it is not a window into daily life but a type of therapy when there is no place for grief or hurt in the hustle and bustle of daily life the internet becomes the sole outlet for this much needed expression its a way to have your feelings validated to know others have been there or are there to see you through and to share your story with other moms in hopes of saving a life people also forget that the loss of a much wanted baby is not something you get over the hurt never goes away when you add the fact that it was a death due to someone elses gross negligence and that person continues practicing unpunished like nothing ever happened the injustice is a wound nearly as painful as the loss i liken it to losing your baby to a drunk driver but this driver doesn t even get a ticket and goes on to make a lot of money by driving cars while intoxicated and promoting drunk driving to the public imagine that how would you feel but as justified as her anger is she is simply not an angry person and does not live life in bitterness i don t know how she does it but im here to tell you that she handles this tragedy with much grace and lives as normal a life as anyone this is liz today liz is very smart full of energy and ideas determined very organized deeply loving and a true christian that lives her convictions this is a mom who is devoted to her family cares for her friends sacrifices to help strangers and loves with the force of nature a nurturer a friend a partner she gives 110 to all each and every day is full of smiles laughter and love even when things aren t going well indeed its when things are at their bleakest the strength of her character shines through she is a great wife amazing friend and a wonderful mom who is there for her kids always present both physically and emotionally they want for nothing and are some of the happiest most positive and well behaved children i have ever met aquila is never far from their minds and she is always mentioned with love random comments about aquila pop up like flowers out of daily life i bet she would have had hair like sebastians or we are making a garden for her every house we live in or i think aquila would be buddies with jack my son etc not a day goes by that she isn t thought of or talked about by all imagining the kid she would be today is part of remembering her between schooling playing cooking and the other routine things there is just not much time left for anger my son and i are living with them right now so i see liz every day all day the good the bad and the funny i m not saying she s perfect she is a human like all others just that positivity is what makes up day to day life at the paparellas the justified ire she has for dangerous midwives and those who champion such causes is reserved for online activities it doesn t spill over into family life i hope this clears up some misconceptions people may have i should never have to see such a wonderful person in tears fearing the loss of loved ones because they think she s become angry i m not exaggerating when i say that there is no one else out there that will stick by you and support you the way she will all without a second thought she deserves the same stacey westover posted by liz at 2 13 pm 6 comments labels anger grieving guest post tuesday october 25 2011 still life spoken word blog round up angie over at still lifew with circles and also still life 365 has come up with another amazing prompt i want to thank her from the bottom of my heart for this spoken blog round up hearing the voices and seeing the faces of these woman whose blogs i have been reading for so long was monumentally moving i hope mine contribution can measure up here is my video posted by liz at 3 48 pm 15 comments labels grief aquila still birth art stillbirth time and grief time marches on the days pass when your baby dies you are sure that time will stop should t it stop shouldn t the world cease it joyful spinning if only for a day a week a year you cannot fathom 2 years away time without her too terrible to contemplate yet the weeks creep by pages relentlessly turn i am left with so much more of missing aquila than i ever had of simply loving her all the time i had to get to know her was hidden under my flesh her near my heart it seems like on days like these she was just figment of my imagination a private dream she doesn t matter to the world anymore to most she is merely something i should have gotten over by now something that i am just stubbornly refusing to let go of no one says her name hardly even me i want to have her be part of normal conversations but it so pains almost any audience that whatever normalcy i tried for falls flat and heavy on the floor as my chaos slows after the move i am left with deep and heavy sorrow i miss her so much how many ways can i say it there should be a million words to describe the many ways that grief feels like snow for inuits posted by liz at 10 45 am 9 comments labels aquila grieving older posts home subscribe to posts atom about me liz austin tx they call me mama birth mom step mom foster mom adoptive mom and now babyloss mom view my complete profile labels grief 4 adoption 49 anger 1 animals 7 aquila 26 boys 1 breastfeeding a preemie 3 complaint process 1 crafty 2 crappy oregon midwives 2 crunchier than thou 4 ec 1 facebook 1 family 6 farmhouse 1 father 2 food 2 fostering 93 fresh start 1 friends 2 grieving 21 grieving father 1 guest post 1 healing 7 hombirth 6 home birth and death 19 homebirth 5 homeschool 5 hubby 3 large family 4 life with a babe 4 lucca 4 lurkers come out 3 malpractice 4 medical 6 midwife malpractice 16 moving 5 nicu 2 old farmhouse 1 oregon 1 poetry 2 pregnancy 10 pregnancy art 1 published 1 rainbow art 1 rainbow baby 6 real estate 5 remodeling 15 ruby 34 sebastian 14 sewing 5 still birth art 15 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the man whose quiver is full of them psalms 127 3 5 in the presense of the lord your god you and your families shall eat and rejoice in everything you have put your hand to because the lord your god has blessed you deuteronomy 12 7