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azy place heaven for those jostling for fake goods p bizarre for me standing in the queue for an hour for the best pad thai in the city and consequently the world is perhaps worth it i am not sure we just went for the takeaway and had it in the hotel the memory still lingers aah prawn oil local muay thai is raucous in the first round there is more sizing up and less action unless they are kids who start going at each other right from the outset but it picks up speed in the subsequent rounds and finally the 5th aka last round results in quite bloodied faces and torsos there might exist the most expensive clubs and the most lavish hotels in the city but the place for the night life is the backpacker hippie area of khao san ayutthaya travelling in the third class section of the slow trains makes you feel like a local except for the fact that the real locals are better prepared for the long waits and delays they bring their food and buy their drink all heritage ancient cities should come with scooters like this one best means of sight seeing and the most fun too the destruction of the ruins makes one wonder whether well just wonder som tam salad has to be prepared just so even when we ordered three the lady made each one individually after all her measurements were precise a precision attained over years of training and experience perhaps pattaya the better beaches are not accessible the walking street is too crowded to even walk the traffic density is horrendous at least on new year s eve p siem reap the visa officials at the airport immigration have turned the visa process into a lesson in assembly line they are seated in a row and each one has his specific task your passports goes in at the beginning of the line and is handed back to you with a freshly minted visa page and your name entered by ink at the end of the line the town exists solely to service the millions of tourists descending upon angkor the tourists are mainly of two kinds backpackers and families with kids the smooth pollution free and scented air of the town with its vast empty stretches of lands forested growth and vacant roads is a marked change angkor must have experienced more transitions from hinduism to buddhism and back than the number of reincarnations possible in either of those p the bakong pyramid temple is more of a 3d trapezoid the above pic is of bayon temple not bakong bayon makes for a prettier picture the non primary and not so well maintained areas of the angkor are the more fascinating of the ruins they have an all together different kind of ambiance angkor wat is beautiful but the much heralded view of the sunrise is marred by the hoards of tourists who had trudged up at 5am just like you and click with their cameras just like you and all the flashes going off just like yours almost feels like you are at the entrance of madame tussauds rambled by mythalez at 1 07 pm 0 comments labels experiences narration thursday december 11 2014 i see you the screaming was screeching in its tone yet faint distant as a background noise like a desperate final cry before eternal silence could surround him the silence never arrived he knew the screaming was just in his mind but it was more real than anything else with a harsh gasp as if he was surfacing above water after almost drowning he opened his eyes outer reality was calm there was the ambulance siren the expected bumpiness of the potholed roads and the diffused amber street lights but no noise no traffic no honking the typical 4 am keeping his head rigid why he knew not he scanned the interiors of the vehicle completely bare the plank he felt below him was bare metal a flimsy bedsheet sourced from their house was all that kept the metallic coldness from seeping into him even the pillow supporting his neck was a piece of sponge that usually lay forgotten in a corner of the house where was the saline equipment the oxygen masks and all those other paraphernalia can this be called an ambulance it was just a discarded shell of one the inside was becoming louder again he knew he was sliding again sliding back at least this time he was already lying down surreal yet ordinary the bed wasn t surrounded by white or blue coats no frantic discussions were being held above him of course some needles had been poked and some sensors wired up to his chest but all that kept him company now was the constant beeping behind his head he could see five curtained chambers on the other side of the big hall the large desk in centre perhaps the nurses station was where a frantic debate seemed to be taking place b positive they tested thrice medical history says o positive b positive the beeping behind him had quickened somewhat what happens if blood of the wrong group if transfused in the beeping was louder he had to see what it was about how many of those machines were there standing guard over him as robotic sentries careful not to disturb the arm that was hooked up he tried to lift himself slightly to look around the beeping quickened its pace he could feel his heart beating faster was the beeping quicker because his heart had quickened or did his heart quicken in response to the faster beep it was loud now like an alarm quickly he sank back worried that they might come and castigate him for moving but no one seemed to notice clearly the beeping hadn t reached the stage that summoned attention like it always managed to do in those hospital based television shows his arm hooked up to the saline might have moved slightly the coldness of the liquid seeping into his vein was more stark now he could feel it flowing in drop by drop 8 am a female battalion in blue strode into view and stood in a line another battalion assembled itself from the far unseen corners of the room the leaders approached each other and exchanged notes one queen bee handing over responsibility of the hive to another allocations were done and the new battalion moved into their stations the previous ones gathered their things and with their chattering taking on a sunny tone disappeared bye daylight or no daylight mornings were mornings the buzz was more humans were more cleaners abound doctors could be sighted but only one among the five beds on the opposite side of the hall stirred these five beds were the only ones he could see and only one among the visible five seemed capable of being conscious at will the conscious one called out for the busy ward boy with authority and demanded his bed be raised so he could sit up clearly he was a highly experienced comrade a veteran of an inmate amma amma must be evening visiting hours even the visitors had to don the blue hospital gowns and masks over their faces one per bed only one among the 4 unconscious beds received a visitor a man with distraught eyes amma amma the visitor patiently kept shouting into the unconscious ear was it more than a myth that coma patients are capable of hearing another blue clad visitor walked up to another unconscious bed she settled comfortably on a stool nearby attamma attamma she began her intonation too though more gently than the other one does the same person visit a patient every day or did all relatives take turns to diligently visit every evening calling out their names their nicknames to retrieve them from their distant realities and awaken their comas darkened room simulated the outside night the far corner of the five visible beds had attracted a gathering all the nurses and both the doctors defibrillators made an appearance the doctor held them up silently everyone stepped back silently he placed them on the chest silently he looked up silently he removed them silently he repeated the whole process again silently everyone else stayed still so the histrionics on tv shows when a patient ought to be revived the frantic movements the shouts the drama are all perhaps just that dramatisation the only time the silence was broken was when the doctor announced the time new morning a new body in the far corner bed with a new attendant with tears shimmering in his eyes arms folded to avoid wringing the son listened intently to the doctor his face unabashedly displayed the pain within the doctor trying to be both professional yet sympathetic focused on the explanation to avoid the emotion reluctantly the attendant walked towards the exit with one final glance at the bed of his sleeping mother presumably as soon as he left the doctor shouted for the ward boy he then began to angrily castigate the ward boy for daring to speak with the attendant and probably giving him false information about the patient no one no one is allowed to speak to the attendants except doctors not even nurses arrre please koi hai loud pleads in a crass voice broke his sleep he looked to the source an old man had replaced one of the unconscious comrades and old man who was both conscious and seemingly in extreme discomfort arrre evaranna he kept calling out for anyone and everyone but no one stirred the nurses were all happily chatting with each other the ward boys flirting with the maid the doctor immersed in a file the pain ridden calls emanated wafted through the room and dissipated through the roof without bothering anyone how could all of the staff who were otherwise so attentive so blatantly ignore him another doctor walked in i m dying bachaoo koi toh hearing the pleas the new doctor threw a questioning look at the head nurse that s the patient with the failed liver oh that guy we could have put him in the ward but he just refuses medication how long will the withdrawal last the doctor just shrugged in response the phone rang in the middle of the night the head nurse picked it up immediately then she walked up to him with a smile good news your room is ready being wheeled out it was the first time he got to see the rest of the hospital rambled by mythalez at 12 35 pm 0 comments labels writings saturday october 04 2014 the world not through untinted glasses i remember when my eyes were renowned among local relatives for their sharpness or maybe they just praised me because i was a little kid i remember the year my eyes deteriorated to such an extent that i when i went for my first ever eye test i couldn t even decipher the big a on the test screen 18 years later i no longer remembered what it was to be able to see without having the contraption constantly perched on my nose when not so disinterestedly looking at the lists people made of the things they can t live without or things they can t leave the house without i used to think that if i ever bother with such a list the top position would have to be taken by my glasses and now barely a month or two after the surgery i m so used to the new liberty that it feels like i never used to wear glasses at all what this essentially tells us is that liberty is always underrated until it is experienced anyway let s make a list to denote the change p reaching for the glasses is no longer the first action upon waking up no longer uncomfortable going for a haircut i know now that the primary reason i used to find the experience daunting was because having been forced to remove my glasses and going blind i had to face the unknowns of what shenanigans were being played out above my head with my precious hair but now i can see being caught in rain no longer means suffering blurred vision through water laden glasses but getting refreshed the most natural way no longer do i have to put up with unusual refractions of light due to the dirt and finger prints hosting lenses no longer is the spare set of glasses the first thing to go into my bag when packing for a trip can actually consider going swimming or other watery activities without going blind and without worrying about becoming that fool who waves at all the wrong people protecting my glasses no longer needs to be my top instinctive action when playing sports sigh if i do actually play any more that is no longer do i need to avoid peering too closely into steaming food or bubbling liquids if i were still in the uk i would have written no longer would i have to temporarily go blind due to the rapid condensation on my glasses when i step indoors from the brutal cold outside can finally enjoy 3 d movies without getting a headache or being weighed down by the two sets of glasses yet to try this out for the last one in today s list a somewhat ironical liberty can buy sun glasses and wear them without having to get them tailored first rambled by mythalez at 9 06 pm 0 comments labels general wednesday may 21 2014 let s go back to the start can t turn around can t hold on time keeps dragging me on but i still am where i was this is not the path for me a path to nowhere would have taken a different turn if only i had known ahead stuck in sinking sand grasping for a helping rope passers by hurried by their burdens no time to lend me hope let s go back to the start let me begin again this time i ll not explore and just follow the herd until decay rambled by mythalez at 12 22 pm 0 comments labels verse friday january 31 2014 ill s well that ends well we can think of health as denoted by a point on the x axis in that representation inf would be i suppose dead p and inf would be err superhuman i suppose people who consider themselves reasonably healthy would lie on the positive side of the origin and the sick people would be negative i think i might be quite close to the origin now but the direction of movement is never certain when we are ill we become a somewhat different person to when we are not before i become too well i thought i better note down a few differences you know before the memory gets blurred and becomes all rosy p grey power it may not be a direct effect but caused transitively less nutrition less hb less blood oxygen to the brain etc p but the mind becomes dull yes truly when faced with a reasonable puzzle the challenge feels overwhelming after more than a few seconds of focus it would feel as if the brain is suffocating you know the mental equivalent of panting after a quick dash consumption would be simple and easy reading watching listening but if you are asked to produce something write talk do etc oh no that s an impossible task but if you are well well you do well sometimes you even amaze yourself and pat yourself on the back if you are that good a contortionist p will power if you are not well there is no will p if you seek to do something your brain questions what s the ing point and there is no good answer to that any effort seems invariable more than the possible fruits so path of least effort makes most sense if you are well and idle well there is always the itch the itch to do something it feels hard to just sit and stare and do nothing whatsoever you will actually need the will to stay completely idle whereas when ill absolute inactivity used to be my favourite activity more powers the future feels tiring even making hypothetical plans for say travel career et al feels 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