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what s next friday november 12 2010 foster care update holy cow things are actually moving ahead i have my first meeting with the social worker on monday nov 22 don t have all of my corrections done but close and she said we could start the home visits while the rest is corrected i m nervous and excited at the same time i ve got a lot of things i want to get done around my house before that meeting just to be sure things look perfect i e more painting decorating organizing i will have to relive all the horrors of my foster care experience in nd heck just thought maybe i need to change my name as i m not ndfostermom anymore since i live in a new state oh well i m am really hoping that my new county is more helpful with placements and assistance that the child may need if i find out they are like my old county i think i ll just throw in the towel right away i m not up for dealing with all that bs again work is finally slowing down with harvest completed for the most part it s nice to begin to have a life again outside of my job i even joined a women s recreation volleyball league and am loving getting out once a week i never played volleyball other than in gym class in school but it s a lot of fun good way for me to meet new people and make new friends posted by jo at 12 15 pm no comments sunday october 17 2010 rip grandma ruth ok so i ve been non existent again and i m sorry this past week has been a rollercoaster of emotions for me on wed morning i received a call from my mom that my dad s mom had been found on the floor of her apartment and was being taken to the er by ambulance my parents were 3 hours away as my dad was having some cardiac testing of his own done i am the closest family member to where grandma lived so i took off from work and went to the hospital i m so thankful i was able to be there with her on wed although there were obvious issues going on in her brain she was in and out of being with it she still knew who i was and we were able to have somewhat of a normal conversation at times long story short by thursday morning all 5 of the boys my dad and his 4 brothers were able to get to the hospital and see her and visit with her on thursday night she took a turn for the worse and never woke back up we got a call at 6am sat morning that we needed to get to fargo my parents were at my house so we took off and were 15 minutes late getting there i did not expect this i knew grandma wasn t healthy and i knew she would need to go to a nursing home when she got outta the hospital but i never expected her to not get out of the hospital we are learning now as we receive some test results back that there was evidence of brain stem damage from the fall that she must have taken at some point between tuesday morning and wed morning when they found her in her apartment at least she is at peace and with the rest of our family of angels but i am really struggling right now with this this next week is gonna be a difficult one as for foster care license status had my fire inspection last friday got a few things to correct and then we re set to go nothing major just some old house issues that aren t up to code well i am at work today trying to get a few things done to stay caught up as i will be out of the office for 2 1 2 days this week hope all is well with everyone out there posted by jo at 10 01 am 1 comment sunday october 3 2010 harvest is in full swing well we are officially into sugar beet harvest it s been a crazy week 65 hours and i took monday off for a family funeral went on a few parts runs yesterday and finally got back home just before midnight last night been back at work this morning for just over an hour start of a new week let s hope it goes well i know i need a massage my poor body can t handle these kinds of hours but i know when i see the paycheck on the 15th it will all be worth it got a message from our local social services agency they have my application for family foster care on hand and are sending out paperwork to my references keeping my fingers crossed all will work out i really miss the kids and at least by the time they get around to doing a homestudy beet harvest will be over and my hours will be more normal posted by jo at 8 43 am no comments tuesday september 21 2010 me and the loves of my life this picture was taken at my mom and dad s on labor day weekend missing 2 of my nephews but oh well 4 of 6 together was ok with me i love these kiddos more than life itself my niece on my lap is named after me and is my god daughter from left to right little noodle age 11 1 2 messer age 3 princess age 3 11 months yes the girls are 10 1 2 months apart and daws age 6 messer princess and daws are siblings little noodle is an only child he is also my god son and will always be spoiled rotten by me i feel bad and i don t really have a favorite but he has always held an extra special place in my heart posted by jo at 8 12 am no comments monday september 20 2010 update went out on my first blind date last week nice guy even went on a 2nd date this past sat night went dancing to johnny holm anyone heard of him had a blast what a fun time out with a bunch of friends just having fun with no pressures life is starting to look up eating and other behaviors are coming along good almost fell on the slick dance floor why can t people set their beer down before they go out on the floor but george caught me from actually falling but still ended up with a displaced rib and hip outta wack today i hurt not much else to talk about work is getting busier with harvest i did check into getting licensed as a foster parent here in my new county application has been sent in we ll see what happens posted by jo at 3 54 pm no comments tuesday september 7 2010 i m still alive it s been quite a time the last couple of weeks but i wanted to check and say i was still out here eating and self injury behaviors are out of control so still actively working on getting back on track it s just really hard right now posted by jo at 12 40 pm no comments saturday august 28 2010 just when i think my life is soooo good mr perfect really isn t so perfect for me decided he doesn t want to be tied down all of a sudden and went his separate way not moving to my town next week afterall i know in the end it s better this way and i ll be ok but i am soooo done with it all thankfully iui s didn t work but now i ve got a 1000 medical bill to pay again guess it s a good thing they take payment plans gonna take a few days to regroup get my life figured out get my eating disorder back on track as it s gone way out of control this week thanks for listening posted by jo at 12 09 pm 1 comment older posts home subscribe to posts atom about me jo this blog started as a place to journal my steps thru fostering and adoption well now it s taking on a new course come along for the ride view my complete profile timeline aug 1997 1st diagnosed w cervical cancer cells leep surgery done may 2003 2nd diagnosis of cervical cancer leep surgery done july 2003 low sperm count no mobility diagnosed sept 2003 1st appt w re oct 2003 learned of options for hubby surgery etc nov 2003 1st diui bfn jan 2004 2nd diui w clomid bfn march 2004 3rd diui w higher dose of clomid bfn may 2004 attended class for injectibles june 2004 decided to just enjoy us jan 2005 attended domestic adoption meeting aug 2005 decided to check into foster adopt programs sept 2005 1st appt w sw for foster care 2wks later we had 2 kids in our home and here we are still doing foster care still officially childless sept 2005 april 2009 fostered 19 kids 3 failed adoption attempts april 2009 divorced from hubby 1 who was verbally and emotionally abusive towards me june 2010 1st appt with re with kc kc dx with low sperm count july 1 2010 iui 1 using clomid bfn july 31 2010 iui 2 using femara bfn cast of characters blog archive 2010 16 november 1 foster care update october 2 september 3 august 10 2009 7 october 1 may 1 april 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