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s a metric when it comes to who s allowed online if we re depriving the depressed of representation for their own good then there should be no more women online period women are more prone to depression than men wives and mothers are even more prone to depression than regular women i guess so no mommy blogs either no black or brown people i love that in this study the scientists attempted to control for unhealthy behaviors which didn t seem to factor into any other depression studies no gay people no gamers sedentary people are far more prone to depression than the anthropomorphized hamsters who voluntarily jog every day for no reason okay you get one no disabled people in fact the only non depressed people fit to be depicted in pixels are straight cis white men who do whatever the crossfit of now is best not interrogate that conclusion in any way facts don t care about your feelings sweaty i am obligated to maintain a particular level of fitness and health for medical reasons and it tears my ass daily i ve been fat on multiple occasions i don t remember becoming public property on any of them the obsession on the internet with women s bodies with other people s bodies in general is medieval reddit is a cybernetic upgrade though i m sure they d burn us if they could but in other less agonizing news i went back to tumblring if you too would like to tumbl there are fewer regular people post porn purge so it s slower but slightly more fun i closed my old twitter account because i didn t actually have many followers mutuals that i liked all i was doing was getting into political arguments with total morons or getting hit on by weirdos i have an alt still don t know if i m gonna use it we ll meet again stranger i m sure of it 3 25 2020 09 38 00 pm tags ehh feminism housekeeping me my actual life no actual content politics stupid people with feeling we begin again i was going to buy a nice theme for this blog but i couldn t find any nicer than the one it already has by which i mean that the ones i looked at were really ugly dated not that i particularly like this one i ll try to there is no try there is only do come up with a nice header one day soon i m sort of in a better place than i was last time i posted my internet connection was out for so long and with so little activity on the part of my telecom provider which is currently filing for bankruptcy i m sure pensions and severance packages for their workers will be the first thing the court sorts out that i ended up getting the public utilities commission involved despite being only one family in a rural context instead of a whole block or street in a more populous setting we ended up with a bulldog of a representative who forced windstream to install a magic bandwidth magnifier you think i m kidding but nobody had heard of the thing including the tech people they sent repeatedly to my house but my download speed went from 3 mbps to 10 mbps which probably seems pretty mediocre to people in actually developed countries like latvia and kenya but i live in the dissipated banana republic known as real america ️ so it s christmas every day now i was able to watch the last episode of inside no 9 season 4 i await season 5 on tenterhooks and vera and the latest season of stranger things i stopped watching all my formerly favorite trashy british reality tv shows though my most favorite was can t pay we ll take it away but i watched a lot of those terrible neighbor bad landlord shows too because it began slowly to occur to me that they were extremely racist classist and that the british persons they depicted being evicted and shamed weren t actually fictional characters despite having charming accents well you win some you lose some apologies to all nonfictional inhabitants of the british isles can someone tell me why dumb british people hate polish people i mean they re white can you imagine how excited donald trump would be if a bunch of white polish people wanted to immigrate to the us i also saw a handsome looking older male brexit protestor holding a sign that said polish scum go home in a guardian article photo are polish persons not home everywhere in europe much like british persons i find this confusing my internet connection is still kind of finicky i should say when it works i get decently normal speeds but the working part is still an issue there are continuing weather related issues heavy rain kills it the wiring still disconnects every time a drunk hillbilly pisses off his front porch into the wind etc but it could be and has been worse i try to be grateful seriously also i paid off all my credit cards all of the motherfuckers all the way down to 0 at one point one of the creditholding banks sent me a paper letter alerting me that a larger than usual balance payment had been made in my name and was i aware of it and was it me holy shit it was at that specific moment that i developed an intense unflagging harder than average hateboner for the united states consumer debt based economic pyramid scheme where my impulse purchases and other more empathy deserving people s desperate to survive necessity purchases are translated into the bingo chips international finance uses to gamble with not that i m bitter but i m bitter i got a part time job at a local health food store to pay off my debts like a former child genius character in a crappy japanese slice of life comic to be fair japanese characters usually get jobs in all nite convenience stores meet the quirky loves of their lives but all my local convenience stores are fully staffed and also i m beginning to feel like the love of my life is my mattress not in a dirty way in a sleepy way more on this later i d never worked retail before was embarrassed to start but lol a hoe gotta make sum it actually wasn t bad i had a pretty nice time working four days a week in a mostly undemanding context when i vacated the job so its former occupant could return from maternity leave i was sad to once again have to purchase facial unguents and glass bottles of magnesium taurate on my own initiative i m not sure where else i can get paid for doing basically nothing but putting stuff on a limited number of offbeat store shelves helping old people and illiterate hipsters pick out supplement regimes that are unlikely to be effective but i intend to look into it on the other hand i recently had to have a major chewing tooth extracted because of a failed massively abscessed root canal still on antibiotics for it the tooth cost almost 3000 out of pocket to root canal 7 years ago i also recently discovered that my crippling life ruining ssri resistant clinical depression was actually severe iron deficiency anemia my iron levels are less than half what they re supposed to be which is not to say that one can t be both depressed and iron deficient or that one thing is a real problem and the other isn t but when one s cells are literally suffocating lying in bed all day sleeping looks less like an emotional pathology and more like a strategy for survival i m hoping the iron pills work well for me and i don t have to have any infusions i don t like infusions not even in my teacups also my aunt that unexpectedly died of surprise cancer a few posts down her husband also died about three months ago of incurable surprise melanoma now i really have no white family to speak of one good uncle ensconced in texas but we only manage to see him about once every three to five years the rest of them are reliable racist trump voters and good racist christians and if i saw the lot of them set ablaze i wouldn t waste the piss to put them out that sounds and is harsh but you don t know my family thank your stars hmmm i do have some book reviews i think my next post don t laugh is gonna be about my computer though because i ve also experienced an important life journey there too i also also have some new clarke related podcasts to listen to unexpectedly good times online why does everything i type look chilly and sarcastic does that look chilly and sarcastic to you or is it just my bodyful of slowly dying cells making me think that 2 17 2020 05 31 00 pm tags me medium content level my actual life i don t have an internet connection i don t have an internet connection i don t have a landline i haven t had either since july 18 there are cataclysmic problems with the telecom lines and the only satellite provider that services our area throttles bandwidth for data overages like it s the goddamned 90s i finally went to wal mart bought a 50 smartphone so i could pay my credit cards and check my bank account the phone only has 500mb data rn but i ll buy more next week so i can actually respond to comnents eta on the kind of intervention our connection needs is oct 24 i am literally dying of boredom drums drums in the deep i can t get out i cannot get out 9 22 2018 06 50 00 am i can t think of a cute title oh reader i ve had a time another one my family is doing much better my mother was given ten days worth of some kind of intravenous super antibiotic sent to an area hospital through a high speed space tube from the future got all the way better much much better than she s been in years and then it turned out my dad had come down with a clutch of bad but not as bad as we thought syndromes hyperthyroidism early stage high blood pressure and a cranial nerve palsy partially caused by a novel vein structure in his brain not completely sure about that last one i was pretty tired when the doctor was trying to explain it to me he has to take medicine every day and wear special nerd glasses but otherwise there s no good reason he won t live to be 128 thank you for your support the real obstacle to a state of current continuing bliss on my part is that my phone and internet services keep going out first they both died very romantically together for two weeks then the phone came back and the internet slowed to a mid 90s dialup crawl barely suitable for checking email now the dsl has come back at normal pissy strength and the landlines are unusable we ve made multiple calls and had multiple friendly servicepersons come out and look at the lines but nothing s helped our latest ticket has been guaranteed to be resolved by the phone company by august 10 of 2023 one imagines i cannot help but believe this is some kind of conspiracy by the government to silence me for my criticisms of various deep state actors to be named later and the international linux consortium oh wait i didn t publish the linux post yet that means they can read my mind another important consideration re my posting habits is that i need a new hobby because i have to stay home in order to save money forever probably in the march april fiscal frame i more or less had to buy a new computer pay for my cat to have her teeth pulled but i also bought a new ipod a usb superdrive a new wacom tablet a massive area rug for my bedroom floor a taller desk a bunch of expensive makeup shit including a 70 blush brush some whimsicle etsy decor and 150 dyejob that completely washed out in eleven days i also ate at least one meal at a restaurant every single day in the months of may and june i took money out of my savings account to buy stupid stuff i also got fatter i don t have any idea what i was thinking except that i apparently believed i could hasten the advent of the apocalypse if i spent enough money if only reader so i will be amusing myself in the house alone for the foreseeable future that means either levels of masturbation consistent with a regular presence in pol or keeping up the blog i know i keep saying that i m going to start posting more any time now but stuff was is always happening to me that s out of my control and has traditionally kept me away from my computer and when i have had free time i wanted to exist in a pure state totally vacant of all thought on my part that ends immediately if i want to pay off my sephora card and my lowe s card and put money in my savings account again this is a list of all the posts i have in draft stage right now i just read an enraging article about cultural appropriation in tablet magazine that has left me yearning to create new adjectives to describe how stupid it is when white people write something critical of a culture of victimization they are about to show their asses to the entire solar system i also just read a sinister pro brexit essay published by improbably named british author paul kingsnorth in the guardian in 2017 seriously this is one of the worst articles i ve ever read in my life mostly because it s proximate to many things i believe myself i m trying to triangulate a response that will help me clarify my own thoughts and find a nice tree to climb the man is insane comically overpriced skincare linux for the normie adjacent why i went back to apple even though it s still annoying the séance by john harwood vs advent by james treadwell a deconstruction ish of robert aickman s short story the swords plus bonus content i still have 18 month old politics posts written that i ve never published because i m waiting on my own slow ass to pick through my millions of stateless links and find sourcing for my claims there are literally thousands of links spread out over multiple services i m not kidding we ll see which of them i get to first oh also i changed my layout i found some instructions about how to unfold excerpted posts although it doesn t cover other template formats so i m stuck with this sort of basic one for now and i copied pasted it and now sea rabbits exists in like mid 2015 instead of livejournal purgatory also i changed my blogger profile a little i ll find or buy a new header soon with a rabbit on it i like rabbits eta fixed a link went back to my old userphoto because blogger does something terrible to userphotos and that s the only one that still looks okay post terribleness 7 17 2018 04 58 00 pm tags actual content explaining voice housekeeping me medium content level my actual life begin again my mama is in the hospital battling mrsa complicated pneumonia for the third time in six months my dad was recently diagnosed with ocular sarcoidosis probably we don t know for sure other much worse things were excluded so it s either ocular sarcoidosis or a weird scary specific thing your body does that doctors can t explain your continued patience is appreciated i m sad i blogged about jordan peterson i would delete the post if i deleted posts peterson s ideas and sniveling sympathy for wounded entitlement are so unoriginal as to border upon the cliché even his name sounds like it came out of an airport paperback i don t want to get that on me watching ostensibly sane adults line up four abreast to excuse the malignancy of this prick who s kept up nights by visions of feminists transpeople stealing the magic beans of self actualization from innocent kingly north american bigots just in case it turns out he goes mainstream is nearly as excruciating a...