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made it into this world alive but almost doesn t count her little sister did make it tuesday february 12 2013 childism as utterly unacceptable as sexism and the mule childism as utterly unacceptable as sexism and in the past few decades mankind has had to shake up their attitudes about a number of things it is no longer considered to be ok to degr posted by ya chun at 7 56 am no comments tuesday october 23 2012 bow3 the cheapskate next door by jeff yeager this guy s so cheap he doesn t even publish under the name jeffery this was an easy read on living within or below one s means there s enough humor to keep it moving but it is not overly obnoxious triple s and i are in the process of reassessing our savings rate and determining how to do the things we want to do like montessori for beanie and world traveling reading this book has helped me de priortize expenses that we really couldn t shoudn t care about home decor and trendy clothes i was shocked to learn how much the joneses have in debt 133 debt rate ie working for 1 3 years to pay off debt and an average of 10 000 on credit cards wow no wonder i don t have so many of the things it seems others have he also had good suggestions many of which he refers to in more detail in his first book such as going on a spending fast for one week doing a spend analysis two times a year and spending a set amount of cash each week and when it runs out you re out he also suggests saving for a car or other big expenses instead of taking out a loan one cheapskate interviewed in his book saves twice spends once in other words if they are saving for a new appliance they will save twice the money they need to buy the big item before they buy and thus have an extra 1000 or so to put to long term savings it s all about delayed gratification if you are looking to get out of debt save more for rainy days or be a better steward of your own financial security i recommend checking this book out from your local library everything seemed doable and the writing was not preachy or accusatory this week i am reading a universe from nothing by lawrence m krauss nothing like a bit of astrophysics posted by ya chun at 4 58 pm no comments bow2 two spanish short stories and an essay by albert einstein last week i read two chapters excerpted from a novel and a short story from a compilation published by dover called spanish short stories a dual language book these are classics published in spanish on the left page and an english translation on the right the first was two chapters from an anonymously written book called lazarillo de tormes 1554 it seems in the dickens dostoyevsky vein even the english translation is archaic and the plot character setting is also minimalist if you can get past that it is a social commentary on the consequences of choices and the inescapability of station or situation however after chapters i and iii i did not feel enough of a connection with lazarus to read more the second story was the power of the blood 1612 by miguel de cervantes most well known for writing don quixote in this story a middle class girl is raped by an aristocratic youth and hides in shame since her honor has been taken from her she secretly births a son by chance the grandfather of her son sees him and cannot get over the resemblance to his own son once the aristocratic grandparents learn the truth they arrange for their son to unknowingly marry his victim the girl is presented as happy and relieved to lawfully be back in the arms of him who was dearer to her than the light of her eyes i was left wondering if the ridiculous hope happy acceptance and overwrought joy of marriage to her rapist was a sign of the times or the sarchastic commentary by cervantes on such thinking of the time kind of like the rape of the lock by alexander pope i asked triple s about how it read in the spanish and i got huh i guess what you said genius i might read more of these short stories during busy weeks i also read an essay by einstein written in 1949 published in an essay collection entitled einstein on humanism which i borrowed from the library of the unitarian universalist church triple s beanie and i have been attending since we moved to the bible belt i should transcribed the whole essay why socialism here because i can t paraphrase what he said better than he wrote it it took me a long time to read it because i read many paragraphs repeatedly he writes about the predatory phase of human development the contrast between the individual and societal being and how those interests compete and the social crisis of our time basically it hasn t gotten much better since 1949 i think mitt romney would benefit from reading this essay and thus i leave you with this quote the education of the individual in addition to promoting his own innate abilities would attempt to develop in him a sense of responsibility for his fellow men in place of the glorification of power and success in our present society posted by ya chun at 4 43 pm no comments wednesday october 10 2012 bow 1 the violin of auschwitz by maria àngels anglada my first book of the week bow kapow actually ended up being a book of the day i read it in one late evening after the hubby and baby were asleep i recommend to you the violin of auschwitz by maria àngels anglada it was a short novel 109 pages about the building of a violin in the auschwitz labor camps by a jewish violin maker from krakow poland most of the story is told from the same person s perspective making it an economically short story the book is about the journey the final turn in the story centers on the questions with which survivors must live out their lives what happened to loved ones and those they met in the camps did they make it out alive nightmare questions abound for people who have seen and lived through tragedy a vast organized evil thing like nazi death camps is sweeping but each tragedy is still intensely personal and each person who suffered and lost loved ones must walk their journey their way and ulitamtely by themselves a survivor can be surrounded build a safe life around themselves but it is their own mind the memories and the worries that is a constant companion one character in this book does get answers in the end but i am sure for many answers were never found and all too often those answers were less than satisfactory if you do read this book please ask yourself this question would this book be highly acclaimed and as satisfying to you the reader if the answer in the end were different as for my story i will never know what happened to serenity i am not searching for a missing person so i can say for the most part that there are many questions i don t bother asking anymore why how it turns out that i ll neither get answers to those questions nor would those answers change anything she d still be dead missing and missed perhaps from this book you can see what kind of books i am trying to read books about life i also hope to cover personal stories historical fiction or autobiographical personal stories about each of the wars in the last two centuries to me also unimaginable and unbelievable although i do know that it actually happened it is just unfathomable perhaps i should try to meet a survivor before they are all gone thanks for reading posted by ya chun at 6 48 pm no comments sunday october 7 2012 a book recommendation tolstoy and the purple chair i found out just how much i miss reading i grabbed the very short tolstoy and the purple chair my year of magical reading off the new book library rack as i juggled how do dinosaurs play with their dogs atrapados and a large arm full of other toddler books i didn t really know what it was about but i had seen that it was november s book at our uu i figured september gave me plenty o time to get it finished this book turned out to be well timed for me almost five years out from serenity s death the author lost her adult sister who was 46 she talks about the three years spent trying to live enough life for two and trying to be the everything for everybody when she realized that this wasn t working she returned to her life long love of reading which she shared with not only her sister but her whole family she interweaves the story of her family her sister s death and stories from the 365 books she read in one year the books was full of wonderfully insightful quotes on grief resilience and human nature the author reminded me how much i loved reading the escape the exploration of your thoughts the refection of the commonalities between us all and i realized that maybe i had not turned to reading books during my intense years of grief but to reading your words and adding my own to the lexicon of grief that my journey was validated by reading about your journeys that my heart was stitched up by your support and by being there to support you i didn t take a year to sit in a purple chair and read a book a day but spent countless hours at my computer reading the blogs and i could not have found a better way to walk through death s long shadow than with your company for this your presence your openness your kindnesses i am grateful and now i think these crazy thoughts like reading a book a um week yeah a book or short story a week so my aim is to avoid the lighthearted escapism books or scifi fantasy that i often read and find good short fiction new or old that is about the human experience i photocopied nina sankovitch s list i started in the a s at the library and picked out a skinny book that had a decent teaser and we ll see where this goes if you are so inclined pick up a copy of tolstoy and the purple chair and join me on another continuing journey i d also love to hear your recommendations posted by ya chun at 9 12 pm 3 comments sunday july 1 2012 fess up ok i am going to stop writing that i am going to post more cause then it don t happen sorry intent is there computer time is not wrote a lovely post in my head while laying in bed trying to fall asleep last night after watching the movie passengers promise i ll write it out some day posted by ya chun at 9 37 pm 3 comments wednesday may 23 2012 right where i am 2012 4 years 3 months 18 days that s 1569 days not that i counted each day i used an internet site to calculate it for me and that is a change because last year i figured it out by hand and with a calender and that s how the grief is now not ritualistic not pervasive not to be done in a proper pomp and circumstance kind of way the shock is over the active constant crazy grief is over it s a settled reality sunk into and through the core of my being a part of me but it does not define me can i say that i think it s true it doesn t exactly define the current me much more than other things in my past except that it is from the more recent past in some ways serenity s death and my grief serve as a compass now i check myself am i living in a way that honors my first daughter not taking the time with her little sister for granted the ache is mostly gone the muscle memory of holding her is barely a faint outline her face is indistinct now these memories are part of the longing too i long for her face to be clear to me but without the intense grief i suppose i can t have one without the other one thing that hasn t changed i still can t spell grief i have to correct it almost ever time i type it this move makes it seem like i have changed lives i ve also changed how i spend my online time the blogs that i couldn t once live without reading are now mixed in with posts about making sauerkraut and blogs outlining how to make toothpaste from coconut oil and blogs about how not to yell at your children and my own blog collects dust not that i have really found other ways to express myself but that i just am not expressing myself and what i am working through has changed now it is all strife about raising a toddler and finding my happiness and minimizing and simplifying but i doubt i can ever complete a 100 thing challenge when i hold on to pictures of hands and feet and clips of hair and a hat worn for a scant few hours and i find it hard to decide on focus on and move towards something that will make me happy in life because i just don t know what that is i don t feel guilty much anymore when i am happy although many times we will be enjoying a day at the garden or flying a kite in the park and i will see a butterfly and think of serenity or see two siblings and think of all that beanie is missing i am in the limbo of grief grief doesn t dictate my life if i need to get something done i can turn my distracted mind away from the darkness but i find it hard to i don t know dream of my future maybe i think this is one reason why i have come back to the blogs to seek support and advice and work through right where i am now i haven t re read my post from last year yet and here is the link back to the original inspiration thanks yet again angie and much love to 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