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up the tree old school new school summer school skip to content up the tree about there are a lot of things about me that you probably want to know unfortunately i know me so i don t know what s interesting to you so i thought i would write down a list of things off the top of my head based purely on what i can remember about myself general i was born in spanish harlem in 1977 i went to public school all my life i was breast fed my mother is german and father is english they got married in the 70 s england in jeans i was adorable as a child i was a fat kid i am dyslexic i am artsy i have problems asking for what i want things i love burgers except if you put them on an english muffin fuck you too buddy i prefer beer to just about every other alcoholic beverage let s not get fancy here people music that sounds like the person singing it isn t pretending they can sing blunt honesty tell me what you re thinking guaranteed i ll make fun of it weird english comedies the goon show yup i dig incoherent ramblings relationships that don t work right how much do i love these comedy got into improvisation archives i started writing in this weblog after i graduated from college i heard about blogs from my then grilfriend who introduced me to the exquisite time wasting activity the blog was on blogger and then called fun time tree house where i gained the nickname funtime ben i now have two blogs this one and improvoker com going back through the archives i m amazed at how hilarious i thought my writing was it s wordy overbearing and often gramatically incorrect but it was where i was at 24 so i guess it s a part of me you may also notice some strange characters in the body of posts things like hi there http google com that s because of an old formatting system wordpress used to use in the olden days called textile i ve been going through the archives and getting rid of it but there is still a lot of it left so pardon that as well welcome to my time machine hope you enjoy wig up the tree mar 24 2023 by funtime ben in everyday overheard v there is a wig in that tree me where s the wig v right there points with her middle finger at the tree me you mean the nest v yeah as though saying of course what else would i be talking about 18 march 2023 my dad s heart surgery feb 23 2023 by funtime ben in diary everyday no matter how you phrase it heart surgery sounds big especially heart surgery where they replace two valves and part of your aorta well that sounds really big and in reality it is there is no sugarcoating an operation of this magnitude i find it difficult to confront what i feel my dad went in for heart surgery tuesday morning and i visited him at the hospital for the first time yesterday the surgery went well he looks good but i can tell my dad is nervous about being in the hospital and he can probably tell i am too hospitals universally freak me out my hospital experience has for the most part been both ok to terrible when my 3 year old daughter d s ongoing school cough turns out to be rsv she is hospitalized with a blood oxygen level of 87 a two day stay and a 7 000 bill with insurance later she is fine but the worst three days of my life my mother has multiple utis that land her in the hospital during covid is the worst of these as she is unable to advocate for herself and we cannot visit her but she pulls through mainly because my sister persists in asking essential questions frances those experiences all come flooding back when i go into a hospital the feeling of helplessness the confusion the endless beeps and clanging alarms of machines i want to scream at whoever will listen is this normal why is it making that sound surely something is wrong like i am the only one who can see the one thing every doctor nurse specialist has missed like i m house in an episode of house but it isn t like an episode of house it s a hospital with trained staff who most likely aren t concerned with whatever it is it s probably not important but it is difficult to stop the compulsion to ensure everything is working correctly to fight off the nagging fear of every other time i ve been in the hospital that something is or will go wrong to have some control it is the same reason julia and i decided not to give birth in a hospital we both felt that pregnancy should not be treated like an illness or operation we wanted our birth experience to be away from that clinical world and return it to our home and family away from the machines doctors and scalpels luckily we had a situation where that was possible and there were no complications the result is that my positive feelings about hospitals are limited this is pretty universal hospitals generally suck no one wants to go to the hospital we typically find any reason not to be in one but occasionally we do find ourselves there dreading the passing minutes for my dad i will go and will update you once he is back home thanks for hearing me out update 21 march 2023 dad is doing well not sure what i expected but at four weeks out he seems to be mostly recovered i will update you on my youngest daughter v who decided to follow her grandfather to the hospital with a broken collar bone yeah not as fun but she too is doing fine and three weeks out is almost completely recovered narcissism feb 19 2023 by funtime ben in overheard julia this is cool i found an account of a woman who studies narcissism on instagram me literally all accounts on instagram study narcissism this evening update for folks who want to go down my wife s rabbit hole dr romani durvasala on instagram dr romani durvasala on youtube you re welcome cute at 45 feb 16 2023 by funtime ben in improv quotes del told me a great thing when i first started out at second city he was art director i used to get by winking at the audience in my behavior and making smart jokes and del pulled me aside one day after a show and said some day you are going to look into a mirror and say i m so cute and i m only 45 years old and it sort of sobered me up and taught me there was more than just scoring with the audience it wasn t about just getting a laugh del taught us the dictive sic that if you concentrate on making everyone else around you look good it makes everybody look good which works in life as well as it does on the stage harold ramis at del close s death party the spectre of death jan 25 2023 by funtime ben in everyday my 6 year old daughter d recently went with my wife j to see phantom of the opera on broadway a christmas present for mother and daughter upon realizing she would not be going with them my 3 year old v began to cry inconsolably i whisked her to the subway as she cried for her mother to lessen the hurt i explained to v as we descended the stairs why we weren t going as well you see it is a very scary musical it doesn t have any of the singing and dancing you like it is not like matilda or shrek the musical or wicked she replied through sobs yeah and i want to see the david bowie musical this is a magical time in children s lives where they assume that everything they can think of indeed exists my six year old said the same sorts of things at v s age everything they like is available through all forms of media and hell who am i to argue with a david bowie musical right it is a world packed with possibilities and endless new experiences everything is new exciting and possible i look at this optimism which really encourages me in my life i haven t felt that everything is in front of me optimism for a while turning 45 didn t help my parents turning 83 made me realize our time here is most certainly limited and we all have less time than we think to do the things that matter i worry about regret everything gets harder as you age my daughters pull me through the darkest days with their glass overflowing optimism i don t know who i would be without them it is both wonderful and terrifying to love them so much and for them to love me so much to depend on my strength when at times i feel i have less than i need it isn t easy to articulate this stuff to my therapist who doesn t have kids it is hard to relate to his perspective he s nice enough but having kids fundamentally changes you sure you can have pets but a cat doesn t change who you are as a human it may change what you do but not why you live your life kids do that this isn t meant to shit on my therapist or people who don t have kids it is only to say it is hard for me to feel like i m being understood it is like trying to explain a caravaggio to someone who has never seen a caravaggio see above or visit rome or heard david bowie or watched mon uncle we are all getting older the pandemic has forced many of us to focus on what is truly important unsurprising most of the things we thought were important weren t we didn t make time for the things that were and now we have to put things right there is no later we may not make it to later later may not come my advice to you is to follow my daughters example i want to believe in their world full of possibilities and i invite you to as well expect the things that excite you to exist and if they don t exist make them exist let s not worry about how we get it done let s focus on fulfilling dreams and believing it is possible because they believe it is 1 2 3 122 next page about funtime ben you know him you love him and you probably used to listen to his podcast in the early days of 2004 designer improviser and educator he loves games technology tinkering and trying to fix things categories about 12 apple 1 artlogs 1 aside 4 books 3 collection 2 design 22 diary 9 drawings 10 everyday 333 film 1 fonts 6 food 2 friends relations 0 health 4 how to 1 music 23 news 2 photography 31 poetry 6 press 2 purchase 1 question 4 quotes 1 resources 1 reviews 1 shop 1 technology 27 travel 4 update 1 video 8 video games 6 links down the rabbit hole we go latest inflation report financial apps for families search the website search search up 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