Meta tags:
description=A blog about humor, Buddhism, writing, sex and parenting.;

Headings (most frequently used words):

2017, friday, november, 29, september, thursday, of, the, 2024, 21, 2018, wednesday, may, 17, february, 16, monday, january, 23, voice, year, popular, posts, blogs, enjoy, blog, archive, subscribe, to, slow, down, trauma, being, laid, off, on, becoming, my, grandmother, if, you, would, sing, for, me, like, that, twelve, years, give, or, take, ain, done, yet, candle, flicker, out,

Text of the page (most frequently used words):
the (203), and (180), that (80), you (56), years (53), not (52), ago (50), this (42), with (38), all (37), for (37), was (35), our (32), but (31), like (25), time (25), have (23), share (23), there (22), out (22), from (22), don (21), what (21), how (19), get (19), other (18), just (18), work (18), myself (17), when (16), can (16), your (15), life (15), his (15), were (15), each (15), job (15), may (14), people (14), feel (14), they (14), september (13), more (13), into (13), she (13), #november (12), new (12), who (12), going (12), back (12), one (12), are (12), down (11), had (11), something (11), first (11), through (11), left (11), done (11), over (11), comments (10), january (10), long (10), still (10), house (10), where (10), those (10), trauma (10), yet (10), again (10), shared (10), world (10), would (10), february (9), way (9), been (9), about (9), right (9), them (9), has (9), before (9), much (9), did (9), ain (9), december (8), june (8), july (8), home (8), too (8), day (8), love (8), getting (8), him (8), now (8), year (8), working (8), mandy_fish (8), off (8), pain (8), never (8), tell (8), both (8), lot (8), their (8), feelings (8), being (8), april (7), march (7), august (7), october (7), lost (7), morning (7), better (7), than (7), bad (7), really (7), kind (7), take (7), death (7), pinterest (7), facebook (7), blogthis (7), email (7), posted (7), even (7), any (7), music (7), could (7), keep (7), moments (7), her (7), 2017 (6), also (6), good (6), com (6), many (6), let (6), months (6), week (6), told (6), hair (6), son (6), husband (6), small (6), memoir (6), some (6), labels (6), think (6), thing (6), takes (6), office (6), felt (6), know (6), ourselves (6), books (6), every (6), laid (6), posts (5), blog (5), after (5), say (5), while (5), coffee (5), come (5), little (5), miss (5), friday (5), soon (5), happy (5), old (5), trying (5), twelve (5), guy (5), match (5), everything (5), children (5), own (5), doesn (5), because (5), live (5), around (5), maybe (5), put (5), last (5), these (5), therapist (5), relationships (5), marriage (5), despite (5), relationship (5), sitting (5), touch (5), same (5), without (5), grandmother (5), losing (5), sad (5), rush (5), anything (5), having (5), four (5), slow (4), peace (4), night (4), coming (4), which (4), advertising (4), things (4), book (4), decided (4), bit (4), see (4), then (4), best (4), friend (4), though (4), head (4), attention (4), called (4), past (4), therapy (4), writing (4), thought (4), lover (4), heart (4), gone (4), wrote (4), manuscript (4), mine (4), midst (4), until (4), fingers (4), took (4), most (4), none (4), yourself (4), once (4), want (4), child (4), should (4), lives (4), often (4), such (4), building (4), yard (4), tonight (4), hurt (4), makeup (4), always (4), makes (4), epstein (4), experience (4), someone (4), allowing (4), inner (4), traumatic (4), else (4), layoff (4), sobbed (4), atom (3), 2018 (3), hate (3), dog (3), six (3), nice (3), family (3), here (3), baby (3), buddha (3), nothing (3), sure (3), woman (3), beginning (3), finish (3), stories (3), friends (3), only (3), fred (3), crazy (3), yes (3), daughter (3), found (3), winked (3), give (3), profile (3), media (3), mandyfish (3), practice (3), older (3), loss (3), brief (3), look (3), fragile (3), quickly (3), another (3), candle (3), write (3), air (3), words (3), read (3), half (3), apologized (3), leaves (3), memories (3), childhood (3), find (3), eyes (3), make (3), anymore (3), madness (3), deep (3), leave (3), its (3), fact (3), likes (3), smart (3), blue (3), pretty (3), joyous (3), easy (3), together (3), met (3), story (3), true (3), almost (3), wouldn (3), anniversary (3), set (3), quite (3), isakov (3), beyond (3), hope (3), stuff (3), made (3), successful (3), spend (3), taking (3), soul (3), favorite (3), heard (3), classical (3), remember (3), wonder (3), wore (3), swim (3), mandy (3), mark (3), layoffs (3), hadn (3), relief (3), feeling (3), instead (3), everyone (3), longer (3), since (3), thoughts (3), admit (3), suggested (3), high (3), prepared (3), school (3), fourteen (3), strange (3), seem (3), change (3), blogger (2), subscribe (2), 2014 (2), 2016 (2), 2024 (2), show (2), visit (2), guide (2), mess (2), angry (2), post (2), musings (2), hear (2), advice (2), afraid (2), follow (2), mother (2), appreciation (2), zzzzzt (2), letter (2), very (2), why (2), drive (2), wonderful (2), catching (2), gray (2), part (2), start (2), insane (2), mom (2), issues (2), black (2), blogs (2), college (2), lucky (2), cut (2), weed (2), funny (2), under (2), ever (2), massage (2), full (2), married (2), known (2), appointment (2), dentist (2), theme (2), winking (2), wimpy (2), view (2), windex (2), social (2), buddhism (2), seems (2), humanity (2), particularly (2), written (2), brother (2), sister (2), taken (2), shouldn (2), writer (2), man (2), well (2), deadlines (2), battling (2), racing (2), alone (2), anger (2), root (2), hard (2), neutral (2), deal (2), behind (2), drank (2), call (2), help (2), came (2), place (2), fix (2), inside (2), living (2), fields (2), dry (2), grow (2), thursday (2), ridiculous (2), meet (2), running (2), incredibly (2), rather (2), dislikes (2), ass (2), added (2), splayed (2), sidewalk (2), used (2), either (2), connection (2), hours (2), late (2), complicated (2), rebound (2), sometimes (2), ring (2), apart (2), twelfth (2), ten (2), shine (2), isn (2), term (2), gregory (2), alan (2), within (2), hearts (2), two (2), financial (2), front (2), money (2), making (2), unless (2), exactly (2), sort (2), speak (2), switched (2), watch (2), reading (2), sent (2), song (2), lyrics (2), pay (2), perhaps (2), whether (2), soft (2), places (2), hidden (2), self (2), sound (2), underneath (2), dared (2), human (2), odd (2), realize (2), wearing (2), flat (2), shoes (2), becoming (2), least (2), nails (2), extended (2), number (2), welcome (2), spouse (2), pretending (2), eat (2), lips (2), knew (2), dress (2), wear (2), car (2), dresses (2), above (2), cap (2), everyday (2), recovery (2), fish (2), promised (2), beautiful (2), joy (2), hoping (2), next (2), open (2), create (2), sunlight (2), light (2), hand (2), move (2), jay (2), couldn (2), started (2), walking (2), big (2), walk (2), setting (2), somewhere (2), apparently (2), sit (2), rejection (2), awful (2), avoid (2), immediately (2), rejected (2), happened (2), grieve (2), teachings (2), realistic (2), counseled (2), few (2), suggests (2), dealing (2), figure (2), paid (2), dumped (2), personal (2), reason (2), needed (2), recession (2), career (2), second (2), cleared (2), important (2), desktop (2), industry (2), urgency (2), freshman (2), teenager (2), wedged (2), will (2), unemployed (2), computer (2), screen (2), roof (2), heads (2), kids (2), surprised (2), cat (2), able (2), powered, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2015, archive, fingered, monkey, grey, street, girl, minxy, lemmonex, step, kid, dads, families, buddhy, destination, artist, please, madge, adult, survival, libby, logic, third, annual, summertime, blues, giveaway, wait, van, vive, nerd, organic, chemistry, cross, observe, discovered, awesome, probably, tad, cynical, bouqs, company, abandoning, pretense, padded, cell, confessions, mama, sans, drama, whoa, hey, campers, zombie, movies, bing, fung, chung, sang, chi, mun, verbophobic, didactic, pirate, smells, madwoman, packed, moved, spammers, expect, nipples, uncles, youngman, brown, kicking, smack, relaxing, suniverse, pleasing, fortytwothings, pixar, passiveaggressivenotes, confession, annoy, cyber, rules, says, 46k, followers, bonkers, mma, potato, salad, dark, stormy, serial, comma, blend, listen, regular, patricia, clarkson, cards, jezebel, rain, unexpectedly, drollgirl, list, lists, vapid, vixen, tiny, gweenbrick, birthday, sluts, dlisted, representin, huh, pearl, crappy, cars, hausfrau, dones, housemas, presidents, 2020, mayor, gia, zzzz, inch, fortezza, basso, florence, sartorialist, solution, saying, instant, pot, curry, cauliflower, butternut, squash, soup, brittany, herself, patti, brain, abby, unapologetic, dreamer, bleak, tuesday, incongruent, gift, janice, macleod, end, looks, kucoin, binance, honest, opinion, suri, burn, drawing, plane, oatmeal, comics, quizzes, catch, thebloggess, enjoy, fiance, went, 25th, reunion, weekend, reconnected, stands, humbles, tomorrow, whack, grows, euthanizing, days, announced, scooped, plastic, easter, eggs, shoved, huevos, pool, side, miami, bathing, suit, onl, frontal, india, seven, sounds, plain, regularly, topless, weeks, breastfee, federally, protected, boobs, babies, asked, enjoying, summer, evening, boyfriend, deck, nuts, convinced, phobia, dentists, decor, table, anthropologie, catalog, animal, sacrifice, chic, popular, voice, complete, spray, counters, floors, refrigerators, pets, content, marketing, business, spent, copywriter, manager, currently, creative, nonfiction, published, literary, journals, plan, free, retail, means, stay, sane, spraying, painfully, image, keeps, finger, thumb, snuffing, scented, candles, gentle, violent, depending, perspective, etched, walls, grand, canyon, immense, cheeks, hers, breakable, snuff, touching, flame, sweep, wipe, deaths, oftentimes, publish, feels, selfish, dies, aback, briskness, easily, young, snuffed, yesterday, beat, rhythm, daring, cancelled, date, hangs, margins, hang, enough, emailed, apologize, missing, deadline, coaching, cancer, three, short, breathless, blown, flicker, monday, edits, revisions, damn, steep, thick, willingly, revisit, sticky, tar, clasp, ankles, feet, sink, knees, pull, rebloom, dirt, pick, raw, bloody, digging, rise, surface, access, run, apathetic, cry, analyze, shrug, shoulders, hands, tremble, oblivion, fend, filled, trash, tied, chair, held, given, looked, lied, exhume, exorcize, gotta, understand, relive, saturate, baptize, swear, god, cast, atmosphere, gods, devils, submerging, putting, skin, looking, reworked, plumbed, saw, tilling, barren, heartbreak, blooms, anew, stubborn, starts, spread, drives, present, unfinished, state, cute, lawyers, dating, practically, throwing, subtle, flirting, capabilities, barely, evolved, punching, boys, liked, playground, photo, amateur, dashing, intelligent, lawyer, responded, said, wit, attracted, listed, absurd, fashion, various, including, seething, distrust, ladies, across, opening, remarks, word, agree, toast, crashed, intense, experienced, top, hilarious, adventurous, chatty, talked, dinner, early, legs, tangled, pounding, fist, mattress, laughing, passionate, somehow, broke, record, scratch, supposed, fresh, reeling, disentangling, wreckage, unfamiliar, didn, endings, rang, continued, ears, course, chased, boy, punched, arm, sucker, meeting, whole, dated, awkward, lovely, shining, witty, strong, propped, spit, stripped, wednesday, weatherman, ache, resonated, pressed, slightest, fingertip, spark, faith, reached, bone, marrow, shook, protective, shells, loose, wrap, intertwine, broken, arms, wounded, laugh, roll, damaged, goods, quick, bolt, laying, bare, fool, shelter, safe, quarters, grown, stronger, recovered, reconstituted, careers, external, physical, counselor, core, finished, major, project, renovating, totally, represents, decision, optimism, secure, buttressing, care, noticing, intact, amidst, vulnerability, rawness, grief, beauty, mixed, tale, neither, magic, gets, budding, romance, lately, listening, played, violin, stresses, singer, songwriters, contemporary, alternative, playlists, audio, kindle, shows, evolution, stardust, figuring, differences, patience, closer, pays, musician, listens, melody, importantly, suddenly, knows, souls, language, talking, minutes, water, sod, arbor, vitae, tilting, slightly, fighting, medicine, annoyed, wrong, touched, corners, tender, real, neglect, secret, lovers, steeped, discovery, spouses, turf, listened, whoever, bogus, trappings, propping, vulnerable, reveal, uncover, hairpin, windowsill, purpose, remind, mortgages, picking, cleaning, bonded, mutual, suffering, psychotherapy, bought, mix, cds, tales, therapists, wisdom, sing, leaving, nablopomo, dressing, airplanes, disliking, blogging, month, dawned, fancy, eye, jewelry, wasn, turban, jewel, center, swam, patterned, caps, chin, straps, smoked, cigarettes, slim, holders, pinky, china, cups, flipped, remote, control, stock, exchange, shopping, network, stretched, ruin, owned, fur, coats, particuarly, warm, fuzzy, cuddle, bake, cookies, offer, buy, bedazzled, sweaters, featured, cable, television, kept, refrigerator, stocked, andes, chocolate, mint, candies, imitating, dramatically, pursed, carefully, ate, imaginary, food, erupted, laughter, remained, somewhat, flabbergasted, face, purses, raises, eyebrow, antics, lunch, workers, today, realized, airplane, tennis, athletic, gear, exercising, bagels, lipgloss, attend, meetings, prefer, piece, clothing, elegant, knee, shoe, mere, shudder, conclude, need, point, near, future, affectionate, candy, grandma, stop, distancing, others, possibility, surprises, yields, destruction, continue, shines, particular, gotten, allowed, mourn, contain, fully, puts, humid, moisture, combined, glorious, haze, park, trees, suffused, ran, row, puffy, tailed, plants, along, watched, puffs, siren, lawnmower, distance, driving, usually, hurry, anywhere, case, mothers, got, disappointing, constant, clamor, simultaneously, frankly, impossible, task, enjoyed, opportunity, loved, calmer, deeply, rooted, sense, reacted, news, sorry, emails, nod, terrible, weird, acceptance, amazing, determined, remarked, nature, avoiding, negative, replacing, challenge, however, discourage, attitude, toward, although, overlooked, embrace, actually, predicated, upon, approach, uncertainties, fears, pervade, critical, component, became, noble, eightfold, path, forms, failure, mistake, ashamed, sign, weakness, reflection, failing, simply, writers, combines, psychoanalyst, buddhist, echoes, heed, allow, suggestions, bay, glancing, jobs, area, indeed, linkedin, debating, less, severance, package, unemployment, compensation, apply, certainly, bills, otherwise, usual, event, searching, applying, posthaste, mile, radius, might, possibly, consider, escape, accepted, possible, warning, believing, happen, aside, cruel, jolts, elements, summarily, dismissed, matter, contributions, valued, whatever, wanted, writ, large, manila, envelope, key, card, intention, handling, grace, detachment, cried, handle, minor, blip, react, knowing, rumors, flying, desk, saved, files, braced, worst, preparation, entirely, shocked, phone, whom, bell, tolls, tolled, truly, lay, emptied, belongings, cleaned, fateful, endured, countless, agencies, congratulated, belt, passage, commonplace, painful, automotive, falling, bankruptcy, single, meant, embarrassed, security, escorted, christmasses, spring, breaks, summers, countdown, begins, ticking, compared, already, blur, telling, panicked, teenagers, schedules, mostly, against, acting, chauffeur, allows, between, hockey, anyplace, needs, carting, snippets, conversations, staring, waiting, demand, mean, won, support, struck, silence, luxury, urge, anybody, dream, rest, edge, popping, xanax, antidepressants, drinking, wine, medicating, modern, walks, sun, faces, breathed, discuss, philosophy, happens, olds, ride, ice, rink, purring, laps, noon, warming, streak, window, majority, ads, meanwhile, growing, suppose, afford, send, necessary, wish, ask, afternoon, lap, space, breathe, connect, adjustments, age, remotely, norm, younger, generations, smarter, ones, learned, watching, wasting, breakneck, speed, note, pandemic, hit,

Text of the page (random words):
to the touch and quick to bolt it s true i m laying it bare before you like a fool and in each other we found shelter we found safe quarters buddha help us we did that was many years ago and we ve each grown stronger we re not quite so fragile we ve recovered from bad relationships and reconstituted ourselves into two successful people with a happy family and a nice house and successful careers all of that takes a lot of work building a marriage a home and a family takes a lot of work external work financial work and physical work we ve added a marriage counselor in the midst of all that to keep our relationship together at its core we ve just finished a major project renovating our yard totally new back yard and front yard it represents a lot of money and a lot of shared decision making also a lot of optimism you don t spend money on a yard unless you feel pretty secure in life but all that building and buttressing and care taking it all takes a lot of work are you noticing a theme here work work work how do you keep the soul of the thing intact amidst all that work where has our vulnerability gone where is the rawness and shared grief where is the beauty of the mixed cd the favorite book a childhood tale that neither of us has heard before sometimes that magic gets lost in the day to day building a life is not exactly the same thing as a budding romance lately my husband has been listening to classical music i used to like classical music when i played the violin but now i sort of hate it it stresses me out it doesn t speak to me and it has no soul i like singer songwriters and more contemporary or alternative stuff he likes classical we can t even make playlists for each other any more we don t share the same books anymore either he s switched to audio books and i ve switched to a kindle but we do watch some of the same shows but not all marriage it s an evolution it s not all new and stardust and figuring each other out it s easy to grow apart and feel like all you see is the differences i don t like his music and he doesn t really have the patience to read what i m reading what s closer to the soul than books and music i don t know who are we anymore where did we go tonight he sent me a song by gregory alan isakov and he also sent me the lyrics he never pays attention to lyrics my husband is a musician and listens to the melody i m a writer and pay more attention to the words isakov has both going on but more importantly it was one of those moments in a long term relationship where i was suddenly taken back to the beginning perhaps he still knows me after all i thought we do know each other our souls speak the same language music can do that words can do that so for tonight we re not talking about how many minutes we have to water the new sod or whether the new arbor vitae is tilting slightly to the left we re not fighting with our daughter over taking her medicine or getting annoyed over who put what in the wrong place he did so tonight we touched the soft places in the hidden corners of our hearts tender hurt hidden and real how often do we neglect that secret self once we go from lovers steeped in discovery to spouses battling out turf tonight i listened to the sound of our shared heart our shared hurt whoever it is we are underneath all the bogus trappings of propping up a life underneath it all we are those two vulnerable people who dared to meet who dared to reveal ourselves to each other to touch each other and uncover the soft places inside it made me remember a hairpin on his windowsill mine how he told me he left it there on purpose so that he could touch it in the morning and think of me after i d left it s a wonder how a little song can make you feel human again remind you that there s something beyond mortgages and deadlines and picking up the dry cleaning something like love posted by mandy_fish at 10 40 am 4 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels books gregory alan isakov long term relationships love marriage music relationships the weatherman writing wednesday may 17 2017 twelve years give or take twelve years ago or so i winked at a guy on match com sure winking s kind of a wimpy way of getting a guy s attention but for me i was practically throwing myself at him i m subtle that way my flirting capabilities have barely evolved from running up and punching the boys i liked on the playground despite the fact that i had no photo on my profile amateur this incredibly dashing and intelligent lawyer responded to me he said it was my wit that attracted him i had written a rather insane profile in which i listed all my likes in dislikes in the most absurd fashion you re a smart ass he wrote i like that he also added that he shared my various likes and dislikes including a seething distrust of old ladies in fact he wrote i just splayed an old blue hair across the sidewalk this morning on my way into the office the man called me a smart ass in his opening remarks and then used the word splayed i think we can all agree i was pretty much toast we crashed into each other for a year and a half our relationship was intense and joyous i don t think either one of us had experienced that kind of connection over the top hilarious adventurous easy and oh so very chatty sitting with fred was like sitting with my long lost best friend we talked for hours over dinner for hours late into the night and early morning our legs tangled together with me pounding my fist into the mattress from laughing so hard ridiculous and passionate and somehow we each felt we d met our match until we broke up record scratch i know that s not how this story was supposed to go what can i tell you other than when we first met we were both fresh out of relationships that had left us reeling our lives were complicated and we were still disentangling ourselves from the wreckage it s not an unfamiliar story and it s often the story of the rebound relationship but this didn t feel like a rebound sometimes the best love stories don t have happy endings my sister told me and it rang true it continued to ring in my ears for almost a year while we were apart until i decided to get him back of course so i chased after that boy and punched him in the arm again wouldn t you know the sucker came back we re coming up on the twelfth anniversary of meeting each other if you want to get complicated you can t really say it s our twelfth anniversary because there s that whole ten months where we both dated other people awkward but twelve years ago i winked at a guy on match com and he was funny and lovely and he set my world back to shining again i felt smart and witty and wonderful and strong he propped me back up put a spit shine on me and set me back out into the world not quite a new woman but back to the woman i was before a bad relationship had stripped me down to nothing and isn t that something happy not anniversary fred i love you a lot posted by mandy_fish at 9 30 am 10 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels blogs dating lawyers love mandyfish marriage match com meet cute relationships ridiculous thursday february 16 2017 i ain t done yet the manuscript in its present unfinished state still working on my memoir still working on the edits and revisions it was one thing to write the damn thing to steep myself in pain so black and thick i never thought i d get out of it the first time around let alone willingly revisit it sticky tar memories clasp at my ankles and feet sink me to my knees and pull me down down down what madness drives me to put any of this down what madness is this i ve reworked and plumbed these memories for so long and so deep there shouldn t be any pain left saw my first therapist at 14 and at 45 i m still tilling those fields fields that should be barren and dry by now but heartbreak blooms anew like the most stubborn weed leave one bit of root and it starts to spread and grow again people tell me to let it go people tell me not to live in the past what s a memoir but living in the past re submerging putting on that child skin looking through those child eyes what madness is this maybe if i tell it once and tell it right it ll all be right i ll make it right fix it exhume it exorcize it but first i ve gotta get inside and understand it relive it saturate myself in it baptize myself in it put it back on this one last time i swear to god and cast it out into the atmosphere let the gods and devils take it up from there i don t want this to be mine anymore but it s not your place to tell me when i m done i ain t done yet not the manuscript and not the pain i ain t done yet i ain t done yet and you don t get a say none of you not one not you who left me left me to deal with the mess you left behind not you who drank yourself into oblivion and left me to fend for myself in a house filled with trash not you who tied me to a chair and left me there to call for help that never came not you who held me down and took something from me that was not given not you who looked in my eyes and lied and called me crazy none of you not you i ain t done yet it s so hard for me to access any of this pain most of the time i run on neutral if not apathetic i can t cry in therapy i analyze and shrug my shoulders but my hands tremble at night if i m angry i get to be if my anger took 40 years to rise to the surface you don t get a say that s right i ain t done yet this memoir is going to take as long as it takes this anger is going to take as long as it takes this pain is going to rebloom until i feel through the dirt and find each root and pick it out with my fingers fingers raw and bloody from digging but i ain t done yet and you don t get to tell me when it s over because for me it ain t over yet posted by mandy_fish at 9 00 am 15 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels childhood i ain t done yet mandyfish memoir memories therapy trauma writing monday january 23 2017 candle flicker out life is so brief so painfully brief the image that keeps going through my head is my finger and thumb snuffing out the scented candles in my house just like that that small that gentle that violent depending on your perspective if you look at the time etched in the walls of the grand canyon time seems immense and humanity small particularly our own if i look at my six year old daughter s cheeks hers seems all the more brief than my own and so much more fragile so breakable i think this thought and snuff it out as quickly as if touching a flame as quickly as death death it can just sweep in and wipe out a life just like that i ve written about my friends deaths before oftentimes i don t publish because it feels selfish it s not my death not my lover not my brother sister love but each time a friend dies i m taken aback by the briskness of the thing death shouldn t come so easily to those so young another candle was snuffed out yesterday too soon too soon i feel my heart beat the rhythm of too soon i don t feel right daring to write about it here it s not my death not my husband brother son a friend a writer a man and now he s gone the cancelled coffee date hangs in the air the words i wrote in the margins of his manuscript hang there too did he even read them was he well enough he emailed to apologize for missing his deadline i d been coaching him off and on for the past year and a half or so the deadlines were his to miss not mine he apologized in the midst of battling cancer he apologized in the midst of racing to finish his manuscript he apologized in the midst of racing to live as much life as he had left three months six months a year a week and a half cut short too soon just like that it leaves me as breathless as if i d blown the candle out myself posted by mandy_fish at 2 18 pm 11 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels death friends life loss writing older posts home subscribe to posts atom mandy_fish hi i like windex i spray it on everything counters floors refrigerators small children and pets i own my own social media and content marketing business called mandyfish media i spent the past 15 years as an advertising copywriter and a social media manager currently i m working on a memoir and trying to get some of my creative nonfiction published in literary journals i plan to finish the memoir in january of 2016 in my free time i practice buddhism and retail therapy as a means to stay sane when that doesn t work i go back to spraying things with windex view my complete profile follow me voice of the year popular posts twelve years give or take twelve years ago or so i winked at a guy on match com sure winking s kind of a wimpy way of getting a guy s attention but for animal sacrifice chic i ve been trying to come up with a new theme for my home decor i found this coffee table in the anthropologie catalog and it really sp first appointment with the new dentist i had my first appointment with the new dentist though i had convinced myself that my phobia of dentists was all in my head right before nuts mom where do babies come from my son asked as we were enjoying a summer evening on the boyfriend s deck i ve to federally protected boobs i regularly go topless at work yes that s right i m back at work now that my daughter is 12 weeks old and i m still breastfee crazy about you or just plain crazy i feel lucky to be married to my husband fred i do i ve known him for seven years and he s my best friend though that sounds going full frontal in india i d only ever had one massage before in my life a pool side massage in miami with my bathing suit on you see i d onl huevos my son just announced i m going to do something funny then he scooped up all his plastic easter eggs and shoved them under euthanizing your dog and good hair days i m getting my hair cut tomorrow and i had decided i was going to whack a good bit of it my hair grows like a bad weed you see so i life humbles us if we re lucky the fiance went to his 25th college reunion this weekend of the stories he told me and the friends he reconnected with what stands out the blogs i enjoy thebloggess com may catch up 1 week ago the oatmeal comics quizzes stories finish the drawing it is not a plane 2 months ago suri s burn book kucoin better than binance honest opinion 9 months ago looks good from the back the end the beginning 2 years ago janice macleod black friday how about bleak tuesday and an incongruent gift guide 2 years ago musings of an unapologetic dreamer 2 years ago abby has issues patti from insane in the mom brain has issues 3 years ago brittany herself instant pot curry cauliflower and butternut squash soup 5 years ago let me start by saying be a part of the solution 5 years ago the sartorialist fortezza da basso florence 6 years ago an inch of gray catching up but not catching many zzzz s 6 years ago mayor gia presidents da...