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then looking at me they look so different from each other i smiled at her she said it again perplexed that twin boys could look anything but alike i mean he looks just like you and he did you get to pick this caught me off guard it was christmas eve at my cousin s house and his 20 year old cousin on the other side of the family a single mother herself to a 2 year old boy was intrigued pardon me i said as it was sinking in what she was asking obviously i hadn t forgotten that my boys were conceived with anonymous donor sperm but it isn t something i had thought of recently did you get to pick oh um yes i did did you see a picture no i didn t see a picture first at least not for this donor as by the time i got to iui 8 the fancy bank with the bells and whistles was out of my price range it s just the dynamo looks just like you and sweet potato her voice trailed off right he looks like the donor i said so you saw a picture no again i didn t he has the same traits oh so you know about him yeah a little bit she and i were not close i see her once maybe twice a year at a party or holiday we had never talked about anything personal before obviously someone told her how my boys were conceived and she was curious i m glad she was i m glad she reminded me of the questions to come and of the wonderful thing an anonymous person did that enabled me to build my family by meandbaby at 3 43 pm 7 comments wednesday december 26 2012 special days today is our anniversary three years ago today i made my family i found the boys playing with this handy kitchen tool and could not resist grabbing the camera if only they new why we had a very nice christmas the boys know who santa is now so it s more fun for all of us they saw him when he made a special appearance at my cousin s house on christmas eve but kept their distance santa is sitting right behind sweet potato the dynamo watching as santa departs toddler beds are going pretty well with some modifications the boys don t take their naps in them they sleep in the playroom on the floor or on their bean bag chairs they ve been great about staying in their beds at night and while it s not the norm the past few days i have actually been awake in the mornings before they have photo courtesy of awesome sitter delivered via text we re in the middle of our first major snow storm of the season and they re predicting a foot or more of snow when it s all said and done sometime tomorrow i couldn t be happier about it especially since i am off from work this week looks like we ll get good use out of our snow attire happy new year may 2013 bring you joy by meandbaby at 9 05 pm 6 comments thursday december 6 2012 toddler bed adventures my 27 month old angels ha have graduated to toddler beds i was in favor of keeping them in cribs forever and prolonging their developmental growth for as long as possible for my own selfish reasons but sweet potato had other ideas he began quietly climbing out of his crib a couple of weeks ago he would open the bedroom door and saunter down the hall one time with no pants on the dynamo wanted some freedom too and after seeing his littler in size brother climb out he tried it a little less delicately fortunately for me the climbing only happened during naptime and after a few days of it i knew i had to convert the cribs to beds i ordered new mattresses too because the old ones were in sorry shape and bed rails to keep them from rolling out a big production was made about their new big boy beds and they even got to help put them together looooong story short all items except the beds and one dresser have been removed from the room including the light bulb in the ceiling light the clothes that used to be kept in the dresser have been relocated to the spare bedroom and the dresser drawers taped shut before the bed conversion while they didn t spend a lot of awake time in their room they had access to the dresser and didn t pay too much attention to it the same goes for the closet door which they have taken off its track at least three times lucky for me overnight has been pretty good for this transition but naps have been almost non existent i managed to get them to nap this past weekend both days by taking turns sitting with them on their beds after letting them burn off some energy like wild boys running around their room while i watched for about an hour and a half this is clearly a work in progress their lack of naps has made them unbearable after work and they collapse early for the night and wake up early for the day i m reminded of their infancy a lot these days in other news the boys will be starting daycare full time after the holidays i ve yet to decide on which center due to sweet potatoes food allergies and the centers proximity to home work but have narrowed the list down i knew this was coming i did consider enrolling them this month after my mother ditched me yet again this time with no notice for a scheduled where she gets paid day of babysitting while i work that and the fact that she cannot handle the boys for long periods of time anymore on her own frankly somedays i can t either i pushed it to january 2nd to give us more transition time with the new sleeping arrangements since they will be napping on cots at daycare and because i have christmas week off from work and can prep them and me for this new phase in our lives not really by meandbaby at 4 55 pm 3 comments friday october 26 2012 picture post my sweet boys sweet potato the dynamo teef brushing by meandbaby at 10 43 am 4 comments tuesday october 16 2012 and now she s pissing me off putting aside the whole moving thing for a minute my mom has been adjusting her babysitting schedule a bit to allow for time with the long distance boyfriend my awesome sitter is very accomodating and switches days with her a lot i mentioned in my last post that my mom will be going away for thanksgiving and also new year s not only did she book her flight for new year s without getting babysitting coverage a k a asking me to see if the sitter will switch days she sent me two emails sunday night from my mom sent sunday october 14 2012 9 30 pm to me subject thanksgiving hi sorry to say but the trip for thanksgiving is going to have to start on tuesday instead of wednesday that means i can t sit on tuesday but can on monday if awesome sitter can switch from monday to tuesday there d still be coverage for the boys could you ask her or do you want me to call her from my mom sent monday october 15 2012 5 23 am to me subject just remembered you work late on mondays do you think awesome sitter could work the late shift from 5 30 to 9 30 how about she just says it point blank sorry to say but really to make it more interesting she is planning on going to his house this weekend and he is coming back upstate to visit her next weekend the twins and i have halloween festivities planned next weekend it looks like she is choosing to miss those too specifically a party with sweet potato s food allergy group she attended an event with us and this group in the spring and really enjoyed it thank you very much for your comments on my last post i love the support i get here in a real emergency i know i could call fabulous d or even a neighbor for help i hope i never have to the non emergency emergencies cause me anxiety too the things i don t want to bother my best friends or my neighbors with but still need someone to be there for and the times when the twins just plain overwhelm me and i need a break by meandbaby at 11 41 am 7 comments tuesday october 9 2012 rules on becoming a smc my mother might be moving away like six hours by car away she s my only immediate family in the area and my first line of defense or support or help or something she met someone a friend introduced her to her father and after emailing and talking on the phone with him for about a year he drove here to meet her they vacationed together and he drove here to see her again she has plans to visit him next weekend by plane is traveling with him to his daughter s house in another state for thanksgiving and has already booked a flight to go there for the new year s holiday she said it s a miracle they found each other i m thrilled for her thrilled truly it s no secret on this blog that my mom and i do not always see eye to eye part of that i think stems from the fact that she has been lonely and her only real outlet has been caring for the twins a few days each week and helping me when i ve needed it she has been so much happier since she met this man and in turn we have been getting along really well she still does things differently with the boys than i do but doesn t flip out when i mention it or when i ask a question we both are tolerating things better and now there s talk about one of them moving so they can be together he has grown children but no grandchildren nearby he has a house and some boating and wood working hobbies he already wants to sell his house and move to a quieter neighborhood but you know what she wants to move there she has an apartment so i guess it makes sense but he already wants to sell his house they are going house hunting when she visits next weekend she has grandbabies here she wants to move away from them he lives an hour outside of new york city and she loves the city the selfish part of me and yes i am aware that this post is showing the selfish side of me wants to call her out we talked about this she said she would be here before i started fertility treatments when the plan was one baby i asker her if she was on board to be fair i would have proceeded even if she wasn t but not only was she she offered to help originally she wanted to watch the kids full time and i m not even just talking about the childcare i would be losing what about the grandma care what about the middle of the night trips to the er and i have 2 kids and one of me what about the fevers and colds and broken bones and what about when i get sick we talked about this i don t lean on her at night right now i knock on wood haven t had to call her for help beyond her scheduled babysitting since the boys were sick last year but she does help she comes by most sundays without me asking and i get to run an errand or color my hair or mow the lawn or clean out closets she does most of the twins laundry she sews holes and makes sauce and plants flowers i do my damnest to do it all on my own just in case i have to but to actually have to without a safety net i had a feeling this was coming when she brought it up i was very supportive we joked about what furniture of hers i would get i didn t say a word about my reservations about how i would manage my mother s choice to move away from my family typing it out makes it sound even more ridiculous i could have called her out i could have said you said you would be here you said you would help you said i could call and you would come running and more recently i could have said we talked about me taking a new job and you said you would help with the twins when i am on call for work but nope i didn t say any of it and don t plan to even if i could say those things out loud if anything i had to say convinced her to stay and he moved here and he hated it or they hated it or whatever she would probably resent me and possibly resent the twins i could never risk that but again she might be moving away from her grandsons they are a huge part of her life in one of our early arguments she feared i would cut her out of their lives which i would never do and once she asked if i would allow the boys to have a continuity of family now she might be choosing to move away when there are possible other options and i might be losing my safety net and breaking a huge smc rule physical support by meandbaby at 11 28 am 6 comments wednesday october 3 2012 meandbaby bits the past few weeks have been full of activities and appointments i d like to get it all down here and in order to do that i need to bullet the twins and i had our first professional if you don t count studio pictures at jcpenney and i don t photo shoot i received the shoot and some prints as a christmas gift last year while i haven t seen the pictures yet the photographer was awesome he asked what we like to do as a family and i told him go to the park so off to the park we all went and he spent over an hour with us taking candid and some posed pictures i cannot wait to see the photos the dynamo was a tough cookie refusing to smile or sit with me on the blanket at first sweet potato was a ham the entire time we made our third trip to the zoo great fun and the twins almost actually paid attention to the animals this time i took the boys for a visit to my old job the people there were like family to me and so good to me when i was pregnant and when the babies were first born i left that job when they were five months old and we have visited twice since then once also when i was on maternity leave it was a nice visit but i think it was our last as unhappy as i am with my current work situation re schedule i need to close the book on that part of my life my old job was my whole life for so long that it s been an adjustment to end that relationship but i think i am finally there i will stay in touch a bit with a few former co workers and that s fine the boys had their 2 year check ups i have been taking them one at a time separately but the schedule didn t allow it this time so fabulous d joined us thank god i will update their grow with me pages with their full stats but in summary they are doing pretty well health wise sweet potato hasn t gained any weight since his last check up but the doctor isn t too concerned about it he was concerned however with both boys lack of speech and honestly i am too and have been for awhile i think i am encouraging the lack of words though by not forcing them to say what they want when i already know the guidelines are that they should have at least twenty words they maybe have 10 a few two word phrases none and are understood at least fifty percent of the time maybe 20 of the time of the words they do say the interesting thing is there are words they have said in the past like dark that they don t say now they were referred to the early intervention program and so far we have had the evaluation portion more on this in a coming post but the short story is they are both severely delayed in speech but at or exceeding development in all other areas for their age they will be participating in weekly speech therapy the dynamo and bubbo bubbles sweet potato at the zoo by meandbaby at 10 31 am 2 comments tuesday august 21 2012 a date look at me two posts in two days i guess i m tired of having posts float around in just my head usually when i am driving or taking a shower so i m going to try and get them out there so yesterday was the work vent the issues remain obviously and i continue to job search being careful to only apply for 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