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int sleeping transitions are going pretty well also the last couple weeks has seen several combinations of him coming to bed with us me sleeping in bed with him him sleeping in bed while i sleep on the floor of his room and me sleeping on the couch last night was the first night i left him in his room and went upstairs to sleep in my own bed after telling him that if he needs mama in the night that he can come upstairs and get into bed with me i was worried that he d get confused or upset if he woke in the night and didn t remember understand to go upstairs i was also pretty sure they he d end up in bed with me by midnight or so neither of these things happened he slept soundly until sometime after 4am when i felt a little tap on my toes and pulled him into bed with me we ll ignore the time around 10 30 when i heard something downstairs and with my sleepy and un glassesed eyes didn t see him on the monitor since he wasn t upstairs i was sure he was wandering around the house alone and afraid only to run downstairs in panic to find his door still closed and him sleeping just fine i thought this was going to be a lot more difficult at least emotionally but everything has fallen into place and felt completely right as we ve been doing it 6 months ago the idea of my baby no longer sleeping in bed with me sent me into so many tears but as with many things i have experienced in parenthood the anticipation of the thing is often way hard than the actual thing when the time is right and everyone is ready it s not usually as hard as you think it s going to be the other transition we ve been going through has not gone quite as smoothly two weeks ago wolfie moved up into the two year old room at school we went through some major challenges the first week long story short he was initially put into a new room without a single one of the other kids from his old room in there with him all 7 of his friends were together in a class and he was alone in a whole new class with all new kids after a few days and lots of tears many of them mine he was moved into the class with all of his other friends but i think the whole thing made what was already going to be a difficult transition even worse i can tell he s happy to be with his friends but he really misses his old teachers and is still trying to adjust to the change my kid used to be the easiest kid in the world at drop off sit him down with a snack give him a hug goodbye blow him a kiss at the door and i m out in the year and 9 months he d been in daycare he d cried maybe 2 3 times at dropoff he s cried 3 4 times in the last two weeks it s getting easier each day but he s still being very clingy and not wanting me to leave most of the time i have to sneak away when he s distracted i hate doing that today i got lucky that his old teacher happened to be in the room when we got there she s usually not in that early so he was perfectly happy to have her sit with him and give me hugs and kisses goodbye the impression i got is that she ll be in early all week to cover for someone so maybe this will inadvertently help get us back into our normal goodbye routines it makes me so sad that he misses his teacher he saw her last week at an open house there and he immediately wanted to go with her and didn t want her to leave him breaking my heart over here i have no idea what i m going to do when he goes to preschool and will once again be in a room by himself with all new people but this time without the option of going back crumples to the floor in a heap and sobs hopefully it ll be another one of those things that is not as hard as the anticipation posted in uncategorized 1 comment ch ch ch changes posted on september 2 2017 by maverick in vertigo i hate change i hate letting go and i hate the heartache that comes with watching your kid grow i m writing today from the chair in my living room while i watch wolfie nap in his bed on the monitor this is a very rare occurrence in my house 95 of the naps he has taken at home in the last 2 years have been laying on me or next to me i m feeling the need to get him to nap on his own more often so i can have a couple child free hours now and then not because i don t absolutely love laying with him and watching him sleep but because there s starting to be more and more things that i literally can t find time to do i used to be able to at least do some things at work i could shop online when i needed something i could bring little projects to do on my lunch for example i was able to make a couple of simple costumes for a sci fi convention a few months ago over a few days worth of lunches i could write a blog post now and then but things at work have gotten complete bonkers and i have no time to do this anymore i don t take lunches there s something i ve been meaning to order online for a couple weeks now but still haven t because every single day i get too busy and forget about it and at home wolfie takes all of my focus and wants to be involved in everything so i don t dare pull out the computer while he s around a lot of the shopping type of stuff could be done on my phone if i put in the effort but typing out a blog post on my phone is never going to happen i ve only performed once in the last 2 years because i literally can t get time to myself to put a routine together i seriously had to take time off work to even put together that one act i ve got all these ideas for art projects that i never work on and a big one we re going to have lots of little projects around the house that need done in the next year or so as we get ready to sell this place so commence trying to get wolf to nap in his bed but also i ve been feeling really frustrated with the sheer amount of time that he still nurses i don t mind that he still nurses i love that he still nurses when he s having a meltdown or is overtired and needs to sleep it is oh so helpful i am not planning to wean any time soon i was hoping to let him self wean when he s ready but he nurses all the time so i ve pretty much decided to tackle night nursing first and see if i can t try to get him down to nursing to sleep and then not again until morning to make this easier i am planing to just sleep in his bed with him for a while until he gets used to it so that we aren t waking g up when he s whining for mama milk he has a twin bed with a rail instead of a toddler bed add these two things together and it seems like i m pretty much setting us up for him transitioning into sleeping in his bed on a regular basis and i feel so sad about that i love co sleeping with my baby i m not sure that i won t just bring him back into bed with us once he s used to not nursing at night but if he gets used to sleeping in his own bed and does really well with it i probably would be a little dumb if i didn t take advantage of that and just let him continue i try to remember that there will always be nights that he ll crawl into bed with us for plenty of time to come but it still breaks my heart to think about the time when i won t snuggle up to him every night as i fall asleep posted in uncategorized leave a comment the stuff no one warns you about posted on august 22 2017 by maverick in vertigo parenting a toddler is just the best you guys 10 days or so ago i was in bed snuggled up to my sweet little man who was sleeping peacefully when he proceeded to cough right in to my open mouth a couple days later i developed a cough now i have pneumonia thanks kid posted in uncategorized leave a comment 2 year photo dump posted on august 8 2017 by maverick in vertigo my baby is two ugly crying he had a great birthday weekend a couple of weekends ago we had a party at our house with a group of the most kind and well behaved group of 2 year olds i had ever seen everyone had just an awesome time it s so hard for me to focus and put things into words any more so i ll let my photos tell the story i guess please enjoy our birthday weekend filled with water cake lots of time outside lots of presents painting and a trip to the science center friends and other happy two year olds not pictured for privacy posted in uncategorized leave a comment first family vacation posted on june 22 2017 by maverick in vertigo sort of a couple weeks ago we went to omaha it wasn t so much a vacation as it was only for 3 days and it wasn t technically our first trip together as we had traveled a couple times for a funeral and a wedding but it was our first trip out of town as a family that was exclusively for our own enjoyment and lasted more than 48 hours i was nervous about traveling with a toddler but wolfie did so well and it mostly was a lot of fun even with a lack of routine nap and meal times completely off lots of excitement and stimulation we really only had one full on toddler meltdown in 3 days everything else was totally manageable and this was even with him having a fairly nasty cold the whole time day one started out rough and was pretty questionable for awhile a half hour outside of des moines my car decided to break down the recall issue i hadn t attended to yet chose the absolutely worst time to show itself of course we managed to be able to drive back home so we switched cars turned around and headed back turning what should have been an easy 2 hour travel time into about 3 1 2 hours we had left shortly after wolfie had fallen asleep while sitting with his dad so sure that he d fall back asleep in the car and sleep most of the way there ha funny i think he dozed off for maybe 5 minutes but otherwise did not sleep all of the 3 1 2 hours we ended up in omaha sometime after 1 00 past normal nap time but too early to check into the hotel so we proceeded with our plan to head straight to the children s museum hoping keeping him occupied with fun activities would keep him from getting too grumpy it totally worked he had so much fun they had a room just full of balls that you could drop into various contraptions they had dinosaurs aka rawr s they had a splash table what more could an almost two year old ask for he played for an hour and a half or so and then was ready to leave with no complaint while we were waiting in the hotel lobby for g to check in we sat down on a couch for some mama milk and wolfie promptly passed the eff out we stayed at a hotel with an indoor pool and water park so after nap and some dinner we went down to check that out again toddler paradise he completely wore me out bouncing back and forth between the pool and the splash pad and going down the slide we would return here many more times before we left day two was the big zoo excursion he did amazing his absolute favorite part was the aquarium he loves fish which he calls doo doo s thanks to the baby shark video he was mesmerized i m kicking myself for not getting a video of him staring wide eyed up at the fish pointing and saying doo doo over and over and over we would eventually go through this building twice i m also kicking myself for not buying him a souvenir in the aquarium giftshop to commemorate the occasion since he won t remember it they had the cutest stuffed fish but i was worried about him getting grumpy in line at least we have pictures and we ll be back i didn t manage to get any more pictures that day outside of the aquarium i tried to get one of a really cute polar bear but my phone ate it wolfie had his only vacation meltdown at the zoo bad combination of too much stimulation missing nap time again and going too long without a snack but he still calmed down relatively quickly with some mama milk on a train ride day 3 found us at the art museum we were mostly there for the children s room they had but did take a quick stroll through some of the galleries i think i m very funny we made it through one small gallery of modern art and headed into a larger wing of the museum to look at some other less interesting really stuff but it wasn t long before wolfie spotted a water fountain and it was all over after hanging out here for awhile we stopped for a quick snack in their atrium where my phone ate yet another picture of this huge blown glass sculpture that wolfie loved because it looked like balls purchase of a new phone may be in my near future then it was outside to a little wading pool they had to do some real splashing unlike he was able to do in the inside fountain and then we finally made it to the children s room where he had so much fun painting sculpting he was worn out by the end of all that when we got to the car all he wanted to do was nurse and sleep i may or may not have nursed him while he was in his car seat in order to be able to get him to sleep get him strapped in and get back to the hotel our trip home the next day was much more uneventful he slept half the way or so the rest of our week off was not as fun since the aforementioned cold spread to both myself and g and turned into an ear infection for wolf then my cat also got sick and i had to deal with the car situation but we survived posted in uncategorized 1 comment good intentions posted on june 19 2017 by maverick in vertigo i have several things that have been tumbling around in my head that i want to write about but am struggling to find the time i am going to at least list them here so i can have a reminder i will try to put these thoughts into actual writing over the next couple weeks traveling with a toddler our recent family road trip parenting when your partner has anxiety why my kid is a mama s boy the internal struggle over the second child question those are the big ones there might be more i am forgetting and may add later by way of a general update my kid is still the best he s getting a lot more independent and a little more strong willed but nothing that hasn t been manageable to this point he is so sweet caring and empathetic he makes me melt daily since my last post was about communication i thought i might provide an update on that as well just as i was starting to wonder a little bit about his language skills his vocabulary exploded in the week vacation we had off together the first week in june he must have learned 20 new words and has been going strong ever since he s even starting to pick up on stuff that i m not specifically working on with him like learning the names of two characters from his favorite movie the secret life of pets just by watching it new words include grover oscar ernie bert big bird abby from sesame street obvs max duke see above bat learned during our trip to the zoo rock learned during our trip to the beach bird apple melon knees hands and i m sure a bunch of others that i m forgetting right now he s also now saying the words in addition to signing for mama milk all done please and more goose and i both received raises at work in the last month or so though mine doesn t go into effect until mid july his was backdated to jan 1 and he received a nice little bonus of back pay we are really hoping to get into a better house within the next 2 3 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