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it could take 3 months skip to main skip to sidebar it could take 3 months it could take 3 months advised a friend s husband who obviously knows alot about baby making it took 23 months now with baby thursday july 07 2011 welcome baby luca there isn t much time to write but i wanted to let you all know of luca s arrival he was born at home on july 3 at 2 32 am after 3 hours of active labour it was everything i could have hoped for and more and now we are a family of 4 it s impossibly hard to believe thank you all for your support i could never have made it through this journey without you and now feast your eyes posted by ms c at 6 22 pm 11 comments tuesday june 07 2011 37 weeks i m now 39 weeks and one day i just realized that i never posted this everything is still relevant so i ll just post this as is and see if i will update again before posting anything about the birth i m not really sure how it s all happened so fast just wow i could have a baby anytime from now to 5 weeks from now i m fine with that mostly i m not one that is good with change and this time around i have a better idea of what i m headed for or not i don t know and i won t til this baby actually comes today my nanny dragged me into the storage room and said ok we have to deal with this which bins have the baby stuff seriously we spent the next two and a half hours going through everything clothes for the first 6 months though the seasons are switched this time round toys bottles blankets sheets towels toys cloth diapers everything it was so surreal i m actually going to use this baby stuff again so things are getting washed and through out the week i will work on really cleaning the baby room it s so dusty since it hasn t been used since sacha moved to his big boy room in february and making a list of what i still need to get other things that are going on apparently i am in total nesting mode because i have been cooking and freezing like a mad woman my goal is to have 4 servings of 6 or so different meals prepared so that i don t have to worry about dinner for at least a month after the baby arrives more nesting i feel the need to clean and organize everything in the house today it was all the filing cabinets in my office still to do hall closet freezer garage which i am putting on my husband s list to do i would love to get to our clothes closets in the bedroom but i have a feeling that ain t goonna happen thinking about birth my perspective is so different this time we are planning a homebirth with a midwife and i am so excited from about 12 hours after my birth with sacha i have been dreaming about birthing at home i really hope we can make it happen ie start labour naturally and not have to go in for induction at 42 weeks as excited as i am about the homebirth my family is completely unsupportive wait usupportive would be putting it mildly nasty rude and spewing uninformed false information at me is more like it i don t intend for my blog to turn into a place to debate the merits of birthing at home in hospital at a birthing centre maybe later though like after the baby s born i certainly don t need any more negative energy surrounding my choice than i ve already got changes changes changes in february we moved sacha to his bigger and better big boy room with a big boy bed then we hired a new nanny our old nanny is pregnant too and the new nanny encouranged us to start toilet training and then we figured it was time to tell sacha that he was going to be a big brother so many changes on that front we did have a number of weeks of upheaval and i spent many hour crying and worried that we had changed too much at once for my sweet child but true to his nature he bounced back and seems happier than ever he really is a big boy ready to be a big brother that about sums it up now just waiting on the baby will keep you posted posted by ms c at 7 03 pm 4 comments wednesday december 29 2010 and back again a quickie where did we leave off ya at our 7wk ultrasound we saw an awesome heartbeat then i got sick like horrible cough i am going to die i can t even believe that i haven t coughed up my lung yet sick and guess what i m still sick 2 rounds of antibiotics which have freaked me the fuck out because i don t even take medication when i m not carrying a baby on board later still coughing still blowing functioning at about 80 which is not terrible considering i felt 20 at some times over the past 7 weeks so pregnancy has not really been on my mind the only symptom i have is sick but but we went for our nt scan last week and the little guy looks wonderful all is well really thank god happy holidays to all i m thinking about you always posted by ms c at 5 30 pm 8 comments wednesday november 03 2010 six weeks and all is well apparently we had an u s today and got to see the fetus all 1 3mm of it but measuring right on target with what seemed to be a teeny tiney flicker of a heartbeat of course we are going back next week to fully enjoy seeing the beating heart it still feels so surreal on the one hand i don t want to hope too much and get too excited yet things can still happen i certainly am calmer less worried and more positive than i was last time wow i went back and read my posts from the beginning of my pregnancy with sacha and lordy i was a mess on the other hand i know i can carry a pregnancy to term and give birth to a healthy baby but then i keep reminding myself that nothing is for sure back and forth and back and forth with the emotions but i m hanging in there i will update for sure with next week s u s good news and then i will have to face the decision of deciding about my prenatal care a post of its own for another time posted by ms c at 6 52 pm 12 comments wednesday october 27 2010 breathe out for now so the nuber came back at 1663 that s a doubling time of 46 hrs from the last beta and 44 hrs from the first beta or vise vera i can t remember i m tired so in the clear for the time being because although i don t want to be i am feeling totally neurotic next wednesday is the viability scan i will be 6w and the nurse said they should see a heartbeat i thought that would be closer to 7w can someone help me out with that will try not to obsess too much between now and then thank you all for your kind words and support this week wow you are all so awesome posted by ms c at 9 11 pm 14 comments waiting if i was a normal 5w pregnant lady who did it with her partner in the bedroom with some romance and stuff i wouldn t be obsessing over my betas would i i mean i would have taken my hpt seen it was positive and been elated with this knowledge i would be content monitoring my early pregnancy symptoms and be looking for a doctor and waiting for 12 weeks to roll around so that i can get to see my baby for the first time isn t that how it s supposed to go if i was normal i wouldn t ever have heard the word beta i would have no clue what the doubling time should be or that the mass of cells developing in my uterus should even have a doubling time oh how i wish i could be normal went for a 3rd beta this morning and will have results around 3pm the nurse told me that if the number don t double then they want me to have an u s next week to look for the sac will keep you posted of course posted by ms c at 10 32 am 5 comments monday october 25 2010 thanks but had another beta today it s 4 days later so we were looking at a number 4x 195 that would be at least 780 my beta came back at 735 my reaction to the nurse was oh that s not good and well it didn t quadruple of course the nurse said i should not be alarmed yet and tht if i spoke to the doctor he probably wouldn t make a big thing of it but she did offer me to come back in 2 days for yet another beta i did have the option of just waiting til next week for a scan but if the numbers aren t doing well i would rather know sooner rather than later not to expect a heartbeat next week so i appreciate all the good wishes and various forms of woo hoo but it appears that i am not out of the woods yet now is the time that i appreal to you my wonderful internet ladies of support who cn regale me with stories featuring similar beta happenings that had a desirable outcome please help oh it would be so nice to be naive at this moment posted by ms c at 6 56 pm 6 comments thursday october 21 2010 yes i went back in and there was a second line it was as faint as last night s but there and a line is a line right i ll cut to the chase i went to the clinic for a beta at 15 dpo my beta is 195 check it it s pretty much right where i want to be i m going back on monday for a repeat just wow i really can t wrap my head around this i completely thought it wasn t going to work and was already counting cycle days for next month and i m not just saying that so cautiously hopeful i can go with that posted by ms c at 4 38 pm 16 comments mindfuck i hade a mistake on my previous post it wasonly 12dpo yesterday was 14 dpo and there was no sign of my period my nanny was coming over to babysit as i had a business dinner so i asked her to bring over some extra pee dippy stcks that she had i wnet right upstairs dipped in the cup and waited and nothing happened turns out i dipped the test too much so i guess there was too much pee i tossed the test i showered quickly but couldn t stop thinking of the test and fished it out of the garbage lo and behold there was a faint second line i called my nanny up to have a look is this the line that i want to see don t laugh i had only used the other tests before and she assured me that yes it was so now here i am awake at 4 30 am and i had to pee so i decided to do a fmu test and not screw it up the control line came up right away but the rest was pretty blank of course it was this was all too much to hope for it says to leave it flat on the counter for 5 mins and now it s been that long i m a afraid to walk back into the bathroom to see the results why is this such a mindfuck 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