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the secret garden my journey into motherhood the secret garden my journey into motherhood august 23 2013 by mandsloved a new chapter i was reading through my old posts today laughing crying and feeling terribly nostalgic i realized that i really miss the if community and i also really miss writing here blogging was such an outlet for me in so many ways i love writing and being creative and it always brought me such great pleasure recreating the events of my life for my online friends to share i really wanted to start blogging again but wasn t sure where to start so i guess i ll start here and see what happens i know many of my old blogger buddies have gone on to have their babies or adopted children into their families and perhaps some like me just drifted away it has been almost 5 long years since our last failed ivf after the if rollercoaster we had been on i think i was just spent emotionally and financially i wanted to be normal again and not have to spend every waking moment thinking about not being a mother so i stopped everything related to ttc and just started living except that i wasn t really living i was in some sort of strange limbo hoping that if i stopped thinking about it all maybe something miraculous would happen so basically and indirectly i was still thinking about it i have just turned 37 and still no children wow that is hard to see written out i feel older but only slightly wiser and i seem to have lost the ability to write a decent blog post oh well stay tuned maybe it ll improve posted in uncategorized tagged random 1 comment august 26 2011 by mandsloved testing the last couple of posts on this blog have not published properly so this is a test to make sure it is still working posted in uncategorized 1 comment september 6 2009 by mandsloved pg strikes again posted in about me stuff the aftermath 5 comments september 6 2009 by mandsloved jaded posted in uncategorized 1 comment july 19 2009 by mandsloved good news just not mine again well there s a novel title for an if blog post insert dry laughter here a family member it always is is pregnant again by accident no surprises here how do i feel the same as ever predictably what next posted in uncategorized 11 comments post navigation older posts october 2026 m t w t f s s 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 aug archives archives select month august 2013 august 2011 september 2009 july 2009 april 2009 november 2008 september 2008 august 2008 may 2008 april 2008 march 2008 february 2008 january 2008 december 2007 november 2007 october 2007 september 2007 august 2007 july 2007 june 2007 may 2007 april 2007 march 2007 february 2007 january 2007 categories 2ww 50 good deeds about me af symptoms ai bbt thermometer beta bfn cd 12 clomid daydreaming endometriosis estrophase failed cycle faith family fet fibroids health hope humour if break infertility infertility chat rooms infertility support iui iui 2 iui 3 ivf ivf 1 ivf 2 laparoscopy lucrin maybe baby ovulation prayer pregnyl roald dahl scared song shuffle stuff sub fertility the aftermath the b f g ttc break twinges uncategorized my journey so far 2002 started ttc thought it would eventually happen if we just perservered 2003 2004 kept trying to no avail hubby poor motility gynae hopped a few times went to tree hugging homeopath who put us on little chinese balls little balls did nothing to help early 2005 1st lapscope late 2005 went to med fem fertility clinic for professional help early 2006 2nd lapscope stress management course late 2006 told to give it 6 months saw tertia on the telly after her 9 ivf s panicked jan 2007 iui 1 with clomid bfn feb 2007 iui 2 with clomid bfn march 2007 iui 3 with gonal f bfn april may 2007 ttc break july august 2007 started acupuncture 3rd lapscope september october 2007 ivf 1 beta 18 49 30 0 biochemical pregnancy december 2007 january 2008 ivf 2 gonal f menopur combo bfn ttc break until enough money for fet and genetic testing blogroll and baby makes 3 apron strings christine are we there yet bella vida carrie storkfiles dawn nearlydawn nearlypregnant nearlyoutofsteam empty nest annie ex post facto faith keeping the faith fertile effort fertilize me for the flavor from here to maternity from the peanut gallery healing arts hopeful mother hopeful to hateful in 28 days infertile fantasies bea jacoblog joys in my life just crazy enough to try kicking you from the inside little beans 4 me looking for 2 lines love hope and faith maybe baby matt my dear watson my perky ovaries not according to plan one day two day one miracle needed oscar wants a pl ym te our family beginnings looking for 2 lines our ivf journey outlandish notions peanuts journey tam planet gawie purgatory reproductive jeans sara somewhat lower serenity now so i wait for you so these are the days of my life southern infertility sticky bun still trying after all those pills storksisters com susan princess smartypants tales from my 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