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any did was get all of everybody s workload and compensation and then cut said compensation by turning everybody into to salaried employees then they began cutting people left and right to align with the need to bring the account into the black finally they began offshoring positions overseas first to costa rica then to india and indonesia and finally to the philippines from makeameme org in the case of history repeating itself 14 years later our division was once again outsourced from that it firm to yet another it firm and we were fed the exact same lines of crap about how our work would better align with the new firm guess what happened once we got settled into the new company from digital mom blog so yeah i don t believe that bullshit for a single minute and neither should the swtor devs if there is a silver lining to this it s that bioware will now have nothing to stand on other than their single player games that they ve been doing just so damn well with i mean mass effect andromeda and anthem were just fantastic releases except for those damn swtor devs amirite when the philippines office opened up people on my team from india were suddenly concerned for their jobs because the philippines personnel were paid a fraction of their salaries and they were underpaid compared to other it companies in india posted by redbeard at 6 00 am 8 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels bioware memes swtor monday june 5 2023 meme monday satanic panic memes okay so there s this game that s officially releasing to the public this week yes yes i know that if you paid extra you can get access now and it has a certain element to it a satanic element to it which is something i m kind of familiar with yes this was a real newspaper clipping from patheos so i figured hey let s make a little trip down memory lane and dredge up some memes about the ol satanic panic after all they touch on all the bases i was familiar with back in the day heavy metal d d ostracized nerdy teens etc for those of you who didn t get to experience it firsthand because you weren t in or in the vicinity of the bible belt or your church didn t have an evangelical bent to it allow me to say it first you lucky bastards yeah it sure felt like this from reddit this is also back in the day when tolkien s world was viewed as being satanic as well nowadays that s considered being cute from reddit again yes some parents considered sesame street and mr rogers to be satanic because they dared to educate kids without beating them up from time to time from imgflip okay i laughed my ass off at this one if i had a dollar for all the times my parents tossed me outside to go play from 9gag and one bonus meme flipping the ol d d thing on its head from scott metzger via reddit something tells me reddit didn t ask for permission posted by redbeard at 7 00 am no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels meme monday memes friday june 2 2023 it s that shark music again you asked me once said o brien what was in room 101 i told you that you knew the answer already everyone knows it the thing that is in room 101 is the worst thing in the world from 1984 by george orwell part 3 chapter 5 i think i have discovered what my deepest darkest fear is no not her sorry this isn t a diablo post from diablo4 com and no it isn t missing out on raids i get that this is primarily a gaming blog but come on in the realm of nightmare scenarios i could have chosen family related events such as watching my kids or wife die existential fears such as nuclear war or a pandemic far more deadly than covid 19 was or even personal fears such as losing my job getting cancer or causing us to get kicked out of our home however it is a particular subset of the dreaded loss of control that i fear the most the aftereffects of a stroke i ve seen it happen to my father when he had surgery back in 2002 or so he had a brain tumor that needed removal so the surgery process was to pop out an eye go in through the front where the tumor was and remove it with luck they d get the whole thing in one swoop and put the eye back in place no fuss no muss relatively speaking so we waited around at the hospital for hours on end as the surgery progressed and sometime about 6 hours after he was wheeled into surgery the surgeon emerged to speak with us the process was a success he said and all of the tumor was removed and sent to determine its malignancy however there was a catch when they began to bring him out of the deep anesthesia he suffered a stroke it wasn t unusual for that to happen he informed us and they caught it early and were able to administer drugs to control the stroke however he said we ll have to watch him and how he recovers the first thing i noticed was that dad sounded like he was on speed there was absolutely no filter on him at all whatever popped into his head came right out of his mouth it was a completely unrestrained id for all to see the nurses were used to this sort of thing but watching it in action was disheartening he used to listen to soft rock yacht rock so on the way home from the hospital i put on some old sting nothing like the sun and about one or two songs in he told me that s just crap turn it off given that he used to listen to this music for hours on end shocked me but i took it in stride then when i kept him company while my mom got some medication for him he angrily blurted i heard you tell your brother that i m on speed wtf and holy shit i made a mental note to explain things better to my brother and informed my dad that it was more like he didn t have speed bumps your words are just falling all over each other in a rush to come out he grunted and subsided i doubted he suddenly gained control of his id so it was likely he had nothing to say we got him home and the next day my mom informed me that it was a rough night where he was ranting and raving about this and that or how my mom wasn t doing things right or whatever popped into his head i think i should be glad i wasn t there because i might have had trouble being so understanding which would have done nobody any good eventually my dad recovered but he was a changed man he became far more impulsive than ever before and he did lose the ability to write or sign his name some complex concepts were no longer within his grasp and we had to keep an eye on whether he might just up and decide to go somewhere and not tell anyone while he was out in a group but for me those first several days were like watching a nightmare unfolding in real life i realize that the unrestrained id is a kind of terrifying thing to behold the id just absorbs things churns them around tosses in pure volatility and emotion and spews out words or thoughts without consideration of consequences kind of like twitter only worse but we as functioning humans have control over our id and keep it from carpet bombing everything with napalm maybe some have greater control than others but the point is still the same to function in society you have to rein in your worst impulses there s a time and a place for certain discussions don t burn your bridges no you can t have that right now control yourself it s all well and good until something happens and our control is lost like a stroke or dementia and then suddenly all those thoughts that your mind says that s bullshit and you know it and you re not saying that suddenly stand up and cheer and head for the nearest exit your mouth that is what i m terrified of when i had my old man procedure last year i was put in a semi comatose state while the stereotypical rectal probe checked me out the docs may say i was semi comatose but for all intents and purposes i was out like a light when i finally came to the nurse and my wife informed me that i was yammering on and on about checking the mail and whether the mail had come this morning or not i have absolutely no memory of this at all and i don t know why my brain popped that particular thing out of my mouth my wife and the nurse were amused by my performance but i wasn t i mean what if i d said something else such as sharing intimate details of my dating or married life or what i thought of the attractive neighbor next door who had the personality of the wicked witch of the west or what i really thought about some of my ex coworkers or details about private conversations among some of my closest friends online or you get the idea i d like to think that somehow my brain would step in and keep things from getting out of hand but i know better under the right circumstances the best thing for people standing nearby is to put on a raincoat and galoshes because the shit will be flying fast and heavy maybe it s about the image i project or the face i put to the world losing all sense of control and just spewing whatever would be a nightmarish blow to my self image i mean i m not egotistical about it but i do take pride in doing the right thing and presenting an example for others i know i m not perfect oh crap do i know that but i believe in setting a good example for people to follow i can t look my kids in the eye and tell them to do things the right way if i don t try to follow it myself represent is what i said to my kids when they wore clothing with their school name on it you are representing your school whether you like it or not and people will judge others from your school based on your behavior in the same way people will judge me based on how i behave so i try to keep myself under control as much as possible and that loss of control throws that concept out the window so there you have it my greatest fear isn t even fear of heights which i do happen to have but something far more existential in nature i d have likely never even realized it were it not for my dad s experience with a brain tumor but once unleashed that fear can never be quite compartmentalized as much as i d prefer it s like a rogue in a battleground always sneaking along out there and ready to strike when you least expect it yes i still shudder at that part it was benign but rapidly growing so it was very much a good thing that all of it was removed yes everything checked out fine the doc said while i was down there i figured i d check your prostate too and you re okay see you in a decade i could almost hear the snap of the latex gloves on his hands when he said i checked your prostate and shuddered this is a reason why i prefer to not wear clothes with logos or drive a car with bumper stickers or whatnot on them i like the anonymity and i know how people judge others eta fixed a grammatical quirk and a conjunction eta fixed yet another grammatical error sheesh posted by redbeard at 7 00 am 6 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels self newer posts older posts home subscribe to comments atom pages home about parallel context about redbeard contact us 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