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deserves to know their answers just as you do deserves to see your face if only once just as you do to see theirs most states do not give adoptees their birth information no the adoption agency lied they are not given their information when they turn 18 no the adoption agency lied you will not be breaking the law by looking for them do you feel the pull of your soul do you yearn to know if your child is still alive happy healthy then search if you can t search make yourself findable register with issr register on adoption com register with the adoption agency that facilitated your adoption google your state country province and adoption records reunion registry to see your local laws and resources available then go find healing here are some ways to start find other natural first birth moms online or in area support groups concerned united birthparents read some books listen to some adoptee stories read some adoptee writings read some more books open your heart listen to the cries of your soul search leave a trail be found breathe posted by susie at 10 43 pm 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels flipthescript naam adoption loss adoption reunion birth mother birthmother fears full moon prayer tuesday april 12 2016 if i knew then more thoughts from the american adoption congress conference after i had agreed with suz to participate in her mitigating and managing collateral damage impact of adoption on the 1st family presentation i thought of many examples of the collateral damage in my life when it came to the managing and mitigating part the only thing i could come up with was to not lose a child to adoption in the first place i know that it s not a perfect world though so adoption is going to be a choice made by some moms i was still at a loss for answers though and counted on suz and kathy to have some for that part of the talk the night before our presentation i was asked if i would have made the choice for adoption if i had known then what i know now that one kind of threw me because to be totally honest that answer would probably be yes given the exact same circumstances that answer would be yes i was adamant that my child would not grow up in the life i was living i grew up in a house of anger and hate oh there were some good times yes holidays were usually wonderful spent with grandma and grandpa and aunts and uncles and cousins who made life fun the day to day mess of life though not so pretty even if i had been told of the life long and deep reaching effects that adoption could bring to my life i m sure i would have still signed those papers for it wasn t my life i was choosing adoption for it was my unborn child s life i felt i was saving i of course at that time had no idea of the possible effects of adoption on my son even though there were plenty of studies and papers written about the effects of adoption on the adoptee that was not information shared with the general public much less mothers considering adoption for their unborn children that was a hard question to think about if i had known then all the effects adoption could possibly have on my child would i have still chosen it i hate to say it but given the exact same circumstances that answer would probably have still been yes because i was so sure that i was saving my son from myself from my life in a house of hate add those fears for my son to the strong societal views of the times towards single young moms and i most certainly would still have believed him better off without me 15 year old me with no honest counseling no parental guidance going through this experience basically on her own would have had no way of believing anything different i would probably have believed that the price he might possibly pay for being adopted would have been far less than the price he would have had to pay with me being his mom i probably would have just prayed all the harder for him in addition to praying that he got great parents praying that he was healthy and happy i would have prayed for him to have none of the issues that adoption could bring to him so yes my answer to if i knew then would have been yes however that insight gave me some of the answers that had been illusive to me regarding mitigating the collateral damage i should have been told that i wouldn t simply go on as before i should not have been made to feel as though i wasn t really a mother because i was i was a mother without her child how could that not effect every aspect of your life going forward i should have been told that it was normal for a mother to grieve the loss of her child to adoption forever i should have been told that when if i was lucky enough to have more children to be aware that the loss of my firstborn child would have effects on my future motherhood i should have been counseled in the things to look for beliefs to avoid and ways to navigate through i should have been counseled to be aware that in the future each of the reasons i was choosing adoption for could possibly become issues to deal with without even realizing it financial too poor sexuality shame of it unworthiness etc because i believed that there was something wrong with me because i kept thinking about my child lost to adoption i failed at forgetting could i do nothing right i believed that i was pathetic using an innocent baby to make myself cry me to myself really you are making yourself think of christopher just to have a reason to cry yes i really did think that i know i weep i lived for more than three decades in shame of my sexuality and in the shame of giving my child away i lived for more than three decades trying to prove my worthiness feeling that the real me a 15 year old who got pregnant and gave her child away wasn t worthy of the wonderful life i went on to have wasn t worthy of the wonderful husband and in laws who i loved so deeply what a waste i cheated not only myself but also my husband and everyone else in my life that i loved and who loved me i will be forever thankful for the first voices i found online after reunion who helped me see that the grief was normal that there was nothing wrong with me after all i really believe that those first brave moms i found speaking out suz cassi and cheerio along with all of the rest of the moms and adoptees i found in the following years saved me from insanity and going back into that damn closet thank you suz for asking me to be a part of your presentation while it was fear that i first felt with your question in the end it brought such healing to be able for the first time to talk about the experience out loud knowing i had you kathy and rich there to support me if needed to be met by so many others in the audience who get it it was an experience that i m thankful for posted by susie at 9 32 pm 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels aac2016 adoption adoption lies adoption loss wednesday april 6 2016 american adoption congress conference 2016 after attending aac 2016 i have too much to write about to fit it all in one post here is a summary of the experience more to come in the following days the week of firsts i attended my first ever real life adoption event the aac 2016 conference i traveled alone for the first time which i surprisingly actually enjoyed i was a presenter on a workshop panel the first time i ve ever spoken out loud to a group regarding adoption loss in my life another thing that i very surprisingly enjoyed the stories the biggest take away from the conference for me were the stories so very many different stories different stories but all rooted in loss and covered in confusion adoptees mothers and adoptive mothers even a raised son of one of the mothers presenting on saturday morning spoke a little not only stories of the keynote speakers and the various workshops i attended but also many people attending the questions and discussions from the audience after the keynotes and workshops were also insightful i am a people watcher and couldn t help but watch and eavesdrop listen to the many stories being told all around me at various times throughout the conference the people i thought that my favorite thing about attending was going to be meeting some of my adoptionland friends in real life it was awesome meeting suz amanda as well as seeing and meeting others that i knew through various blogs and forums the thing that most effected me about the conference though was the experience of just being with so many people who got it the son who was about the same age as christopher and his natural mom the daughter also about the same age as my son and her adoptive mom the moms oh the moms there were some amazing strong beautiful women of many ages a few years to decades of loss in or not in various stages of reunion with their now adult children all so supportive and caring the adoptees who were so open to sharing their own reactions in reunion who spoke of the times they pulled away from their original mothers and couldn t even explain why who were so open with helpful advice or caring supportive words people who didn t look at you with pity or reply with what a wonderful thing you did or posted by susie at 4 13 pm 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels aac2016 adoption adoption loss adoption reunion american adoption congress thursday march 17 2016 american adoption congress in denver i am getting excited to attend the aac conference in denver at the end of the month there are a few reasons i decided to finally attend an adoption related conference this one was close enough to consider driving to about nine hours away but in the end i decided to fly in order to have more time there less time away from work the chance to meet in real life some people who have become friends here in adoptionland on the www i m most excited about that than anything else i think the chance for more healing one reason has come up in the last week or so long after my decision to attend was made in the fight for adoptee rights nothing makes me more mad than to see us moms blamed for the continued discrimination against adult adoptees well other than the fact that they aren t allowed their obc s in the first place i m glad to be attending the conference just to be present and show that natural moms are not some pathetic beings cowering in the corner terrified of her child lost to adoption i fully support adoptees to have the right to their true facts of birth their original birth certificates as well as any adoption records the adoption agency lawyer has on file i also believe all mothers should have the same right to their child lost to adoption s birth certificate just as they do to the other children they gave birth to the latest reason i m excited to attend yet a little nervous too is that i have been asked to join suz bednarz kathy aderhold and richard kish and present on mitigating managing collateral damage impact of adoption on 1st family the reason i m nervous is first of all public speaking secondly this is my first event of anything like this and i m kind of scared that the 37 years of mostly being unable to cry about my adoption loss might be unleashed leading to a torrent of tears that won t stop the thirty years of denial and living in the closet before reunion did a great job on making it impossible for me to cry about christopher oh the tears begin to appear the lump in the throat grows huge but the complete even if illogical fear of falling into that deep pit of despair never to find my way out again will not let me go there therefore stopping any more tears before they become too many tears hmmm well there is one more thing to add to the list of collateral damage adoption has left on my life will you be at the aac conference i hope i get to meet you in real life posted by susie at 3 53 pm 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels adoptee rights adoption american adoption congress monday march 7 2016 adoptee rights to their original birth certificates as a mother of adoption loss i would first of all like to again make it known that i was never promised nor did i ever want anonymity from my son those who try to use us mothers as the reasons that adoption records and original birth certificates are sealed are either lying or falsely believing someone else s lies most moms would openly welcome being contacted by their sons and daughters lost to adoption most moms dream of finally having answers to their questions is their son daughter even alive if so healthy happy a parent or grandparent now themselves if it was true that the natural mother s privacy is the reason for sealing records then why aren t they sealed until an adoption is finalized wouldn t they be sealed upon relinquishment if it was true that the natural mother s privacy is the reason for sealing records then why are the adopted sons and daughters still not allowed to receive a copy of the obc after being reunited with their natural mother and or father i have been told that even if christopher and i were both to ask the iowa courts to release his original birth certificate it would be denied due to lack of due cause if it was true that the natural mother s privacy is the reason for sealing records why then would i the natural mother be denied a copy of my firstborn s birth certificate but be able to obtain a copy for the children i gave birth to and raised i need to hide myself from myself but let s just pretend that we are the reason our children aren t allowed their obc what power do we hold to allow discrimination against the adult children who we signed away all rights to none we have no rights to that adult child remember i believe that all united states citizens should have the same access to the original true record of their own birth as any other citizen if one citizen can walk into the courthouse and get a copy of their original birth certificate then all should be able to i am a mother who signed away her rights to raise her child i did not sign away his rights to his own birth information i advocate for adoptee rights do not ever use me as an excuse to keep even one person s own birth information from them adopteerights idonthavenordoiwantanonymity posted by susie at 5 04 pm 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels adoptee rights adoption adoption lies obc original birth certificate thursday september 10 2015 validating my motherhood one of the biggest hurdles i have had to overcome in the six years since being reunited with christopher has been the claiming of my motherhood from my very first pregnancy not just from the birth of the children i raised for i never allowed myself to consider that christopher was my child therefore i was not really a mother to him he was always the baby i couldn t raise the things your psyche does to protect itself ...