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the crooked path through ivf will i be missing motherhood entirely it s the only question that seems to weigh on my mind these days skip to primary content skip to secondary content the crooked path through ivf will i be missing motherhood entirely it s the only question that seems to weigh on my mind these days search main menu home about ivf advice ivf cheat sheet ivf humor ivf lessons say anything ivf supplements for ivf round 2 post navigation older posts protected hail hail the hiccup king posted on january 5 2015 by missingmotherhood this content is password protected to view it please enter the password below password posted in uncategorized enter your password to view comments month one adjusting posted on january 5 2015 by missingmotherhood 1 this may sound awful but month one was so much better than labor and delivery just to have him here is a huge relief although there are moments where it catches me by surprise breastfeeding started rough but has worked out into a nice routine i think learning how to lay down and feed him at night has helped i can get a little rest by laying prone and he still gets to nurse and enjoy extended wolverine time mile high started cluster feeding pretty early on and it seems we are now hitting a growth spurt where the cluster feedings manage to cluster more who knew that nursing would be more like raising a baby wolverine on the breast he also has a favorite breast it s somewhat depressing as it is now larger than the other one by quite a bit i ve dubbed it monster breast and know it will never go back to normal but isn t that what having a little one is all about redefining normal and not looking back i finally have stopped bleeding and now only need to change diapers it was harder than i thought having to change us both regularly i do have to say that everything is easier with sleep posted in uncategorized 1 reply birthing advice not asked for but given posted on december 27 2014 by missingmotherhood 4 we ve hit day 25 and we are still surviving i ve had friends and family all comment on see how hard it is and while it s not easy it s happening one way or another certainly everything is better with sleep folks like to say enjoy this time it goes so fast and on my end nothing feels like it s moving fast with no sleep not a damn thing but here we are on day 25 so we are moving along having now gone through infertility pregnancy labor and the first 3 weeks of a new born the advice keeps on coming and friends who mean well keep piling it on i think people should not give sleep deprived new moms any advice at all just smile and hold the baby preferably without the gibbering not really words baby talk what i d say to anyone expecting is listen to everyone s advice don t argue and just do what you want the only thing you need with you at the hospital and those first few days home other than the pain meds of course is stool softener and my only piece of advice is whatever you do do not sneeze during any of the bowel movements after giving birth trust me on this one regardless of how you gave birth there is no need to find out what i am talking about the hard way some things you d rather never know how painful they can be this was not listed in the manual posted in uncategorized 4 replies mile high 48 hours old posted on december 17 2014 by missingmotherhood 6 posted in uncategorized 6 replies mile high arrived on 12 3 3 49pm posted on december 17 2014 by missingmotherhood 8 with much drama and little fan fare mile high arrived on wednesday december 3rd 3 49pm 8 lbs and 19 5 inches long but he doesnt like to unfurl i wont get into the labor details but after roughly 39 hours of labor we ended with an emergency c section he s here it s unbelievable posted in uncategorized 8 replies still waiting on the world to change posted on november 26 2014 by missingmotherhood 2 we are still in john mayer land waiting on the world to change a little tired a little swollen and i need to pack my bag for the hospital out of everything you d think i d have this ready and waiting but no the car seat is in and the huzz and mile high have bags both packed and loaded they give you these nice little lists as if you are going off to camp with recommended items to bring i even tracked down a pair of baffin slippers they are like sleeping bags for your feet from canada i love them and may just wear them in when its time but really what do i need to bring i keep thinking about distracting media and what would make sense for short attention span theater i was wondering about loading both season of dave chappelle on the ipad will there be time for distracting humor better to be prepared than unprepared so the bag gets laid out tonight and packed tomorrow the boy will arrive when he s ready i am just practicing patience this journey has been so crazy long and hard what does it matter if there are a few more days posted in uncategorized 2 replies 36 weeks it s all downhill posted on november 20 2014 by missingmotherhood 4 i can t believe that it s been over a month since the last post everything is moving along with this pregnancy it s still not a bucket of fun but we are down to the last few days of just being a couple the boy is head down and still enjoying yoga twice a week with me if he was part of the wwe his signature move would be donkey kick to the ribs the rough estimate of his weight today is 8 67 lbs which seems large to me but until we get him on the scale we won t really know so now we re waiting for labor to start i am equal parts thrilled and terrified i can think back to the start of this when we were counting days to the start of the firsts and now i feel like we re counting days down to the arrival crazy but so blessed posted in uncategorized 4 replies cali in bloom posted on october 3 2014 by missingmotherhood 3 i think i have finally managed to move over everyone that i have been following to the new blog whew that wasnt as straight forward as i d like i will in no way be offended if anyone would prefer to not follow our journey on the new blog and i will still be reading through yours i joke about being a recovering infertile but without his arrival and getting to hold touch see smell and believe that he has arrived well it s just hard good news is everything is still looking good and on track he s moving like crazy instead of having the huzz spend hours holding on to the boy in the belly i like to spoon behind him gently with the bump half on his bum and lower back then little mile high gets to go all bruce lee like he does me it makes the huzz laugh so hard although we did have to work on the not jumping back when mile high throws a donkey kick or two i know not where the wee one thinks he is going but we are out of room and he is getting stronger posted in uncategorized 3 replies moving to a new blog posted on august 21 2014 by missingmotherhood 11 it s time to move on from the crooked path of ivf and onto something that simply is more personal i ve been avoiding my blog here for a little bit and it s taken some time to figure out what s been bothering me when we were charting our course through ivf it seemed important to share the blow by blow details of our struggle the process and daily grind now with both the move and pregnancy the things i tend to want to share are simply more personal i will update here and not leave you hanging on how this all works out but it s time to move onto another crooked path for those going through starting or looking for information on ivf ccrm and the whole shebang i feel that it is just as important to leave this blog up but not with the more personal details send me an email and i will happily send over the link to the new blog posted in uncategorized 11 replies human aquarium posted on july 23 2014 by missingmotherhood 3 it s official i am a human aquarium with a creature of one i can feel the suspended in water creature moving quite a bit these days i do not get to view the creature and or feed it being an aquarium is most certainly not as relaxing as watching one just being able to feel these new sensations is quite odd i know for most they like to say being pregnant is the most beautiful time and to enjoy it because at least for some lucky ladies i have heard that pregnancy can be an enjoyable experience if i am being honest when you compare pregnancy with all of the ivf stuff i willing did to get here then the actual pregnancy is much more enjoyable when compared but i can t help but feel like a human aquarium one of those old fashion round goldfish bowls you can even tap on one side and feel him flee to the other side i can now feel him flip flop turn spring kick hit hiccup and flee and not necessarily in that order it s a lot like having your own sea monkey growing and getting interesting without the complete colony feeling like an aquarium is a strong reminder that you have no control over whats happening with your body you are just along for the ride i m looking forward to getting my body back without company on the inside and he does look less like a sea monkey these days posted in uncategorized 3 replies post navigation older posts search due date december 15 2014 holy shit archives january 2015 december 2014 november 2014 october 2014 august 2014 july 2014 june 2014 may 2014 april 2014 march 2014 february 2014 january 2014 december 2013 november 2013 october 2013 september 2013 august 2013 july 2013 june 2013 may 2013 april 2013 march 2013 blogs i follow thecrookedpaththroughmotherhood jandeinfertilityjourney bertha and ernestina somethings are worth the wait unicorns and baby dust in vertigo fertizo journey for a bf p laughter through tears our baby journey the md me officially pregnant and ivf makes 3 ladylove babydust witlessdatingafterfifty vapor mist just a little infertile only infertile our little wishes finally our family the naked egg follow blog via email enter your email address to follow this blog and receive 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