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ving her to the literacy council s location even though she had an engineering degree from her country she spoke in broken english selma thanked me with a guarded smile for picking her up for the past one year her life had been in turmoil i could see the sadness on her pretty face i started teaching her english and at the same time she gained confidence and trust as a domestic violence victims advocate i knew about her plight but she wanted to tell her story in her own words my wonderful teacher the mountains of syria seem so far away the little girl who was called princess by her parents sounds like it was in another lifetime i was in high school when shabir started paying special attention to me shabir was my first cousin but due to a family feud we kept away from each other our attraction blossomed in college he became a dentist and i became an engineer when we announced our intention of getting married our fathers gave in and both brothers families resumed their relations everything was like a dream after shabir possessed me his next obsession was to go to america my opinion did not matter he got his h1 visa and we came to texas my life was limited in the tiny apartment i looked and felt out of place due to my visa status i could not get a job shabir without a state license in dentistry was working with very low pay he used to come home frustrated and would find any reason to beat me in time someone gave him the idea that if he married a u s citizen his life would be so much easier then that obsession took over his thinking i started wondering when he stayed out longer hours whenever i asked any question he raised his hand and told me to shut up then he started mumbling about divorce and shipping me back home that would deeply hurt my family s reputation in our community here i had casually met one or two families where muslim traditions were followed religiously i would not dare to share my domestic troubles with them i was taught that a good woman always obeys her husband and serves him pleasantly shabir would not tolerate any objections from me that day he was determined to get hold of my passport he yelled and slapped me and ordered to hand over the passport he threatened me with a knife i ran into the bedroom shut the door and dialed 911 briefly i explained what was going on and left the phone on he was quiet for a while so i opened the door and ran outside of my apartment he came after me and started to drag me along the side walk and up the steps he heard the police car and let go of me he approached the police as if nothing was going on but they could see the fear in my eyes and bruises on my body they asked him to go and sit in the police car while he was passing by me he told me in my language i will find you and kill you i was taken to the police station after all this i was afraid for my life and would not dare go back to our apartment i was given a few pamphlets of different organizations and shelters my english was very weak and i was so nervous that my speech was not understandable one voice speaking in arabic replied the next day that lady was a volunteer willing to help me my day began with talking to the strangers and sharing my very personal life although i was in an unknown place and among unknown people i felt safe their confidence helped me to feel that i had some right to be happy too i went to many different offices and met many people i was pleasantly surprised to see total strangers actually believing in me ready to help me i never wanted to face shabir i was afraid of him and at the same time i despised him i was only 31 years old and he had destroyed my life the court forced him to pay me a small amount monthly and divorce proceedings were slow to progress due to many complicated issues the future seemed dubious fortunately my advocate found a middle eastern family who needed a housekeeper selma s host family lived in my neighborhood but she preferred that i pick her up and drop her off at the corner drug store she got a special visa available for domestic violence victims so she could stay here and work she did not want anyone finding out where she was staying she kept in touch with her family and a few of us by cell phone she maintained good relations with her host family and lived with them for more than one year until she moved into her own apartment i always felt that if she kept her traditional look wearing a hijab it might be difficult to find a job i also believe that it is a good idea to assimilate with the society in which you live but without compromising our principles covering one s head had its purpose under certain circumstances i brought up that point but she was determined to keep her traditional look she always had to adjust her activities with her prayer times she felt at peace praying five times a day and it showed in her behavior after her divorce finalized selma started receiving marriage proposals she shared the information with me and i helped her to prepare before each date one businessman from her country was very nice to her he was divorced with three children she met with his family during ramadan and felt comfortable she told him that she needs several months to decide and definitely not before her family s approval they put aside the marriage plans and worked out a deal that she would work in one of his stores as a salesperson our organization helped her to rent and furnish one apartment near the shopping mall where she worked it was a children s clothing store after several months i received a letter which said my wonderful teacher you will be glad to know that my life is getting better i will be getting married soon my new husband went to my home town and got blessings from my family i have survived my mind vividly remembered one evening with selma after a long english session we had a good heart to heart talk as we walked out from the classroom the wild flowers and tall pleasant yellow sunflowers were looking at us i admired that sight selma started up the hill and through the weeds to collect those lovely sunflowers she brought down a bunch and ceremoniously presented them to me that beautiful evening and her gentle smile left a special picture in my heart i wrote her back those sunflowers are now growing in my garden and every time i look at them they remind me of you now you know growing untended in the wild the pretty sunflowers can survive and thrive and so have you i wish you courage wisdom and joy in your life love your teacher saryu smile again my wonderful teacher i send you this letter to let you know that my life is much better as you know i grew up in syria school and college were sheltered euphoria he was cute and pursued me for long i married him for love thought together we belonged i was overjoyed to come guided by his ruling hand i was happy in the hijab timorous in this foreign land soon my love was quite aloof he had seen the dollar spoof i was hurt and all alone didn t know what was going on he often slapped me here and there i thought he is just upset i didn t have anyone to tell i kept the secrets very well he humiliated me more asked for papers and passport i said no no you must leave he said need you to deport he waved the shiny knife yelled and dragged me to the street i cried and begged him just to stop couldn t see a way to retreat the police took me to a bend where i could barely comprehend they told me to call some shelter a safe place i want to see my mama s gentle face lucky for me that you were there you kindly took me in your care you tended my broken beaten life you stroked my tender weeping heart you taught me how to get my rights find the freedom from the fights i look forward to future sights out of the dark and into the lights i thank you o my teacher as well as several other kind helping hands your happy survivor true story written by saryu parikh june 2009 ૧૨ હસી ફરી સરયૂ પરીખ સંધ્યાના આછા અજવાળામાં મેં તેને દુકાનના નાના મકાન પાસે 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my cousins used to tease me saying double typhoid if you worry you will lose weight and i used to ask tell me how to worry my father did most of the shopping for our household but for my clothes i always went with my mom i used to wait for the saturdays when my mother had half day of school on shopping day i would be ready early and with all the silent body language i could muster i would encourage my mom to hurry right after lunch i would have her pillow and blanket ready for a short afternoon nap it would work okay except the fear of arrival of some unexpected guests and any delay because of them was very traumatic for me in nineteen sixties we did not have telephones so guests drop by any time and no one would dare to turn them away saying we have to go i would rush to offer them tea and quickly prepare it and serve the guests after that i would stand near the door to express my urgency without being rude that special saturday we went to our newly found favorite fabric store the men started showing us various fabrics for my dresses that special attention to this thirteen year old girl was sweet like honey one man brought out a roll of fabric from the far corner as soon as he unrolled this soft white georgette with tiny red flowers i was sold the measuring tape came to the end showing some damaged material my mom said we cannot buy this fabric my eyes were glued to the fabric the tears shined in my eyes my mom gave in let me have the fabric the dress was made from that smooth material and i was allowed to wear it only on special occasions i was quite pleased just folding and unfolding that white dress with red flowers one day i was feeling sick so i went to my uncle s small medical clinic he did not clearly explain to me that pneumonia is a serious thing to have we walked back home and my mom went to work i was in pain that whole afternoon when my mom came home from school and saw my face she felt very guilty for going to work i barely remember the next four days as my mom was hovering around my bed and my father had a worried look on his face in the middle of the night they were rubbing medicine on my side so i could breathe my brother was going in and out of my room trying to find ways to cheer me up the added nervousness was due to the reason after two days of fever we had lost my five year old sister three years ago that heart wrenching experience was yet very loud around us on the fifth day i was a little better i was to get a sponge bath i was lazily looking around and i ended up staring at the white dress with red flowers in the cabinet my mother followed my stare and smiled right after my sponge bath she brought out that dress and helped me to wear it as my brother walked in he saw the grin on my face and started to tease me and i giggled for the first time in days as my awareness returned the first thing i remember was that my hand and fingers seemed thinner just then i realized that i had lost significant weight wow my dream came true during more than two weeks of recovery many friends came to visit me i had a very loyal friend name hansa she had so much affection for me that i used to take her for granted and for any small thing i used to pick a fight and stop talking to her my mother used to tell me saryu if you do not value the love coming your way you will stop receiving it with three other friends she came to see me i responded with a gracious welcome and after that i learned to appreciate her generous interactions with me i was feeling good enough to go out and check on my roses a beautiful pink rose was smiling at me i plucked it to take inside the house i saw my mother sitting at her desk working on her poem i presented that rose to her her smile expressed her relief knowing that i was healthy again after a few hours i never saw that rose and forgot all about it i resumed my activities as a slimmer prettier teenager the white dress with red flowers always remained my favorite even after i had outgrown it years went by after marriage we settled in america i went back several times to india but did not go to my home town bhavnagar for many years in 1993 mom passed away in vadodara afterward i went back to our old house the home i had left twenty four years before leaving a void in the lives of my loved ones i was feeling raw emotions in the deepest corner of my heart when i opened my mother s cupboard i saw my white dress with the red tiny flowers and her book next to it i gently opened my mom s poetry book and out came the pink rose carefully arranged between the pages i was overwhelmed with emotions as if the little girl was looking out from the secret window of my heart i looked with my tear filled eyes as somebody entered the room our maid helper of many years had come with her granddaughter she told me that she had seen my mother touch this dress tenderly with a gentle smile on her face when she used to miss me most i held that dress close to me for a few minutes and handed it to the little girl a joyous smile brightened her face and she left with her grandmother giggling i took the book with the pink rose and sat there enveloped in the arms of the warm memories essence of eve dew of dawn on the whisper of verse riding from moment to moment merge and melt in the essence of eve awake to rejoice at the light of the sun and the wonderful verve of life and love awareness makes me forget the past and kindles fiercely the hope in my heart the peaceful rhymes of poetic life the imperial glory and boundless flight i write my lines in the simmering sand the ocean of emotions exalting the land saryu parikh લાલ ફૂલો વાળો સફેદ ડ્રેસ મારા પ્યારા ભાવનગરમાં મારા માતા પિતાની શિક્ષકની નોકરીની આવકમાં અમારા નાના કુટુંબની જરુરિયાતો સંચવાઈ જતી એક મધ્યમ વર્ગના સભ્યો તરીકે અમારૂ પોતાનુ ઘર હતુ બગીચામાં દસેક આંબા હતાં જોકે કેવળ ગુલાબના છોડની સંભાળ રાખવાની મારી જવાબદારી હતી મારી પાસે આંગળીને ટેરવે ગણી શકુ એટલા કપડાં હતાં કબાટમાં કાચના બારણા પાછળ સંકેલીને એક ખાનામાં ગોઠવાઈને મારા કપડા 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